Tuesday, May 06, 2014

For my broken heart

Reba's For my Broken Heart song totally sums up how I feel right now:
There were no angry words at all
As we carried boxes down the hall
One by one we put them in your car
Nothing much for us to say
One last goodbye and you drove away
I watched your tail-lights
As they faded in the dark
I couldn't face the night in that lonely bed
So I laid down on the couch instead

Last night I prayed the Lord my soul to keep
Then I cried myself to sleep
So sure life wouldn't go on without you
But oh this sun is blinding me
As it wakes me from the dark
I guess the world didn't stop
For my broken heart

Clocks still tickin, life goes on
Radio still plays a song
As I try to put my scattered thoughts in place
And it takes all the strength I've got
To stumble to the coffee pot
The first of many lonely mornings I've got to face
You call to see if I'm ok
Look out the window and I just say

Last night I prayed the Lord my soul to keep
Then I cried myself to sleep
So sure life wouldn't go on without you
But oh this sun is blinding me
As it wakes me from the dark
I guess the world didn't stop
For my broken heart

I guess the world ain't gonna stop
For my broken heart

Though my broken heart is over a job and not a person. I do feel like the world should stop, I did cry myself to sleep last night and hope the world didn't go on. I wanted this job so badly. It took everything within my being to not break down in tears when my supervisor told me I didn't get it. I feel I put so much into this job that I should get the promotion. I have worked so hard every day I go to work. I've been there almost 5 years and I'm still in the same spot. I'm happy for my co-workers that got the position, but I feel so broken inside. I knew I was too young to have a job I loved.
I have so many other things that I NEED to do, I don't have time to mope and feel sorry for myself. I'm glad I'm not going to work today, but I don't know how I can face it on Wednesday. I just wanna leave and never come back

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