Monday, April 05, 2010

My weekend

I am not a very happy person.
My plan for this weekend was to leaver Thursday night after work to go to my boyfriend's parent's house for the rest of the week and Easter and to return this afternoon in time for me to work. That would mean I took off Friday night and this morning from working at 2 of my jobs.
I called my boyfriend Wed night after getting off work to find out he was going storm chasing with his friend and was coming back on Saturday. I was upset to say the least. So I got to have a few personal days to myself.
Saturday comes, I keep waiting for him to call. I called him once asking what the plan was, and didn't hear back. I called him later in the day to find out he was working on his roommate's deck and that he was planning to leave again that night and go storm chasing again. I hung up on him and threw my phone across the couch. I was so pissed I was shaking.
He called me back and left a voice mail saying it was storm season and he would be doing this, and I knew this , that's the way it always was.
I called him back saying I was more pissed this time because I had been looking forward to this trip and that I took off work for it. I don't make a lot of money, so I can't really afford to take off work, but since it was for a nice trip, I decided I could.
So, I got a couple more personal days to myself. I did have a good cry in the shower that night. Sunday, I went out to brunch with my parents, and I was in a very bad mood. I have a tendency to zone out and be in my own little world when I'm pissed. I was on the verge of tears the whole time. I did go into work, when I found out my plans had been cancelled, I called the library and asked if they still needed people for Sunday (even though it's closed, people still come in to take care of items coming in and other things that need to be done), so I did get to work for 3 hours and that helped me take my mind off things.
Today, I moped in bed until about 11AM, then I hung out with a friend until I had to be at work at 5.
I'm still on the verge of tears, I'm still really pissed. I've tried listening to music, eating comfort foods and hanging out with other people, but I'm still pissed. Tomorrow, if it's not raining, I'm planning to go for a walk. If that doesn't help my mood, I don't know what will.

I hope everyone had a better Easter than I did.

1 comment:

Carrie M said...

I think you're right to be pissed. If you made plans he should stick to them, they shouldn't just be an afterthought or something he does when there are no storms to chase or decks to build. From what you've said on your blog, it's not like you guys have a lot of mutual free time, so when you do have free time, you have to make it count. Storms happen all the time and will continue to happen in the future, but even the best relationships take work. Unless I'm mistaken, stormchasing isn't his job, and neither is carpentry. It would be one thing if he was an ER doctor on had to be on call or something, but to cancel plans because of a fucking HOBBY? LAME!

That being said, in these situations it's usually best to cool down and explain how you feel calmly and rationally. Maybe write it in a letter or email so you can get everything out there and not be interrupted. The important thing is to explain your feelings to him but not get worked up. Easier said then done, but it's the best way.