Monday, February 07, 2011

A good day

I had a good day yesterday, my friend Loretta and I went to Ankeny to Micheal's and the dollar general store. I needed to shop for myself and to get away from my life (more on that below).
Here are the great things I found:
This is a solar dancing flower. The leaves and the stem move around when it gets solar energy and it definitely puts a smile on my face when I see it dancing.
This is just a cute stuffed lady bug.
Here's a frog mug.
A Christmas stocking that was part of a $2.00 Christmas Grab bag at Micheal's, I've decided the rest of the items in the bag will be in a Christmas giveaway this December.
A nice notebook to match the mug above.
The box of gifts for My Healthy Valentine partner. I found some great things and I hope she'll like them.
A stuffed teddy bear. I've been drawn to teddy bears lately, I don't know why. Maybe there's just too many frogs in my life.

I've been pretty depressed the last few days. If you haven't talked to someone in over a month, haven't seen them in 7 weeks, do you still consider you're in a relationship with them? I'm not sure, but I'm thinking the relationship is over with. He won't answer my phone calls, or my texts. I sent him an email the other day and a message in facebook, but I know he doesn't check those that regularly. I know he's been around his phone, because it varies from going straight to voicemail, to ringing a few times and then going to voicemail. I'm pretty sure I haven't done anything wrong. I did send him a text complaining that he was picking hunting over me. He called me on Jan 13th, but didn't leave a message. I wished him a Happy Birthday in a text. I also again complained about the time I wasn't spending with him. I don't know where he lives, so I can't hunt him down. He moved from a previous address and I hadn't had a chance to know his new address as he's been busy working. I know where he works, but I'm not going to cause a scene at his work.
I don't know if it's worth it to keep calling and hope he picks up, or to just wait until he calls.
I never got to spend our "Christmas" with him, so (hopefully) we both have presents for each other, plus I have birthday presents for him. Though, I am seriously considering just opening them and saving them for myself, since some of them are things I like.
I didn't go to a neighborhood soup supper last night, as I wasn't ready for people to ask me questions about my life including my boyfriend. I keep wearing the ring as I'm not ready for those questions either. I keep wanting to go buy a peridot (green gem) ring for myself, and once I do that, I plan to switch out rings.
Today, I'm hoping to wander down to a few stores looking for more gifts for my healthy valenting partner, and my cheer up swap partner. It's supposed to get pretty cold again this week.


Carrie M said...

I don't want to stick my nose somewhere it doesn't belong, especially since I don't know all of the details, but...

If I were you, the next time I saw or heard from him, I would give him a verbal lashing. I get that you both work a lot and have odd schedules, but it's not like you're having a long distance relationship or something. If your schedules really are that crazy, then you both need to consciously make time for each other, or at least communicate on a regular basis. You don't even know where he LIVES? I'm sorry, but that's not a good sign. If he wants to be with you, he needs to put in some goddamn effort and treat you like more than an afterthought. If he doesn't, then you deserve to know it so you can move the fuck on.

Finally, don't keep being with him just because you feel like you won't be able to find anyone else or because you think he's "the one." Every relationship you will ever be in will fail until one doesn't, and you won't know which one that is until one day you wake up in 5/10/15/30/50 years and say, "Huh, I guess this one worked out." You're too young to settle for this kind of bullshit, and you deserve better. Don't be afraid to break up with him (if that's what you want to do). If this relationship ends you will find someone else. He's not the only guy for you, so don't put up with this crap if it's making you miserable.

That's just my two cents. You'll have my support in whatever you choose to do, just don't let yourself get pushed around.

Brandy@YDK said...

cute finds on your shopping trip. i hope they cheered you up.

S. said...

I hope the rest of your week went better. How is your weekend going? Are YOU feeling better? I hope so, even though it is hard be feel cheery when your heart aches.
I'm sorry this person is not facing you but regardless of his reasons the knowledge that YOU did not do anything wrong should be able to sustain you during this uncomfortable times.
May you find peace of mind and contentment.

Sarita from Mexico