But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet instead

Has anyone else heard Nickelback's new song, Rock Star? And am I the only one that doesn't understand why they're singing it? I mean, hello, they're already rock stars, why sing a damn song about it? Kinda like Gwen Stafani's If I Was a Rich Girl, you already are, why are you singing about it? I was thinking about that the other day (Tues, coming home from the ILEA), and I figured it doesn't really pay off to think deeply about songs. Kinda like Chasing Cars, does anyone actually chase cars? Me and a friend were discussing this, and she asked me if I had been chasing cars lately, and I said no, unless there was a good looking guy driving, to which she replied, well that's a given. And then I got this picture of me actually chasing (on foot) after a car.
Anyways, I was watching TV today (yeah I do that when I'm bored, it's better than eating when I'm bored, course I do that too...), and a commercial came on for Corel plates. Very funny, there was a fashion show with models walking down a runway, and a voiceover comes on telling you that they hired supermodels to walk down a runway to show off the new Corel plates, and to show how sturdy (not their wording), they are, we greased the runway. So, the model falls and the plate bounces off the runway. I found it very amusing. I could be the only one.
Alright, in an earlier post, I said I was going to discuss my TV shows, this will be that post, so it might be kinda long. I was thinking today how there's another blog I read that talks about their TV shows, and I was thinking how I didn't really care and I skim over those, but then I realized that I just have to deal with it. We all pick what we're gonna post about, usually something that's happening/meaningful in our life, and if whoever is reading it doesn't care, they don't have to read it. So, if you don't care about my TV shows, you can stop reading right here. I won't be offended, course I won't really know either, my stats just show me how long you were here and where your from. Speaking of that, I wanna say Hi to whoever the hell my regular from the Inktomi corporation in New York and California is, and fucking say hello back dammit. OK, onto the TV shows, in order of viewing pleasure. Sunday: The Amazing Race (CBS), Cold Case (CBS), Without a Trace (CBS). Tuesday: The Unit (CBS). Wednesday: Bones, Justice (FOX). Thursday: Survivor, CSI (CBS), Supernatural (KCWI). Friday: Men In Trees (ABC). Saturday: COPS (FOX). Looks like Justice is moving to Mon nights, in case anyone's gonna check these out.
Amazing Race, If you live on an island secluded from everyone else or don't watch TV (Brent), this is a race (obviously), usually groups of 2 that have a previous relationship, race around the world doing things to get to the pit stops first. Generally the last team to the pit stop is eliminated, and in the end, the winning team gets a million dollars (I never really remember how much money people play for). I find this show the most interesting of reality shows just cause the things they have to do, are usually things that are done in these countries. So, they're kinda experiencing other cultures, and kinda not cause its a race and people are trying to finish as quickly as possible. This season I'm not too excited about the couples, the one I was rooting for has already been elimintated. It started out with (ones in bold are left) the Bikers, the models, the beauty queens, the gay guys, the southerners, the one-legged chick and her trainer, the Muslim guys, the Indians (cause they were from India), the Asian brothers, the cheerleaders, the bitchy couple and the black moms. I was rooting for the bikers, so now no one really intrigues me, I just don't want it to be the bitchy couple or the one-legged lady, just cause they are annoying.
Cold Case. This is a cop show about (guess) cold cases, old cases that are still open (unsolved). I got hooked on this one when there was an Asian couple that was killed while their child was in the next room. I remember that cause there was this great song at the end. See after they solve the case, one of the detectives sees a ghost of the dead person(s) at the age they were killed smiling at them (like they're at peace now), and they always have good music in it. This one had Send Me An Angel by The Scorpions.
Without A Trace. This is a group of FBI agents that look for missing persons that disappear 'without a trace'. I've got more hooked on it this season, half cause it's right after Cold Case, and my TV's on, and cause ER's not on at the same time. It used to be on after CSI on Thurs nights.
The Unit. A special Army unit that's dispatched out to certain missions every week. I just got hooked cause it's a military show. And if you know me, you know I love the military. Only thing I don't really like, is they don't really follow up on the stories. Like last years season finale, they had the group with wives get shot at at a reception, well this season they just started up on a mission, nothing about after the shootout, when you were shown that one of the guys was shot.
Bones. A show about an anthopologic forensic scientist that works with the FBI when they find bones of bodies and need help solving the case. I originally started watching this cause David Boreanaz stars in it, I used to watch Angel, where he was the star, an off shoot of Buffy, the Vampire Slayer. And since I was in cultural anthropology last year when it started and we were looking at bones, I believe that helped. It's actually pretty neat. But sometimes you have to have a strong stomach. They had an ep a couple weeks ago where they found the body in a bathtub, someone had poured chemicals on it, to dissolve the body, so the liquid mixture was the body. It was kinda gross. But I didn't mind.
Justice, if you read Goddess, you've heard about this. It's about a defense team that proves their client is innocent and then in the end shows a synopse of what really happened (or what they think happened, cause I wonder some times). I like this, unlike most trial/lawyer shows, because it focuses more on the investigative work, than the trial process. I really don't like lawyer shows.
Survivor. A group of people get put in the middle of nowhere and have to 'survive' to the end to get a lot of money. I used to hate this show, just cause everyone loved it, that's me. But there was a repeat of one of the eps on a Sat night at 8pm, right when I was flipping through channels after COPS was done, so I got sucked in. Plus it's funny to see what people will do for money.
CSI. Crime Scene Investigators investigating cases. This is the original one in Las Vegas, the best one. I remember getting sucked in when they had a group of people kill a guy on an airplane. It was wierd. And they are weird and interesting and gross altogether.
Men In Trees. A life coach finds out her fiancee is cheating on her and goes to live in a tiny town in Alaska for awhile. Another one of Goddess' finds. Very interesting. I almost wish I could do that. Go away from life to a tiny town where no one knows me and just live.
COPS. I really don't need and won't explain this.

I hope the ring you gave to her turns her finger green

Another fun day in myland. I was fine until I decided to go out for a walk. Now it's only about 35 degrees out, so I took my leather jacket without the liner. So as I was walking (I probably walked about half a mile and that took me 45 minutes, that's like waaaayy slower than I usually walk, and by the end of the walk I was sweating quite a bit by the end of my walk, and I developed this nice pounding headache, which is still sticking around, plus the fact that my nose was nice and runny, I had a little trouble breathing and a nice cough, all of which have run away since I came inside. Oh, yes and now my legs are freezing. Oh, it's so fun to be me. I really hate my body lately.
But I had to get out my apt, after spending about and hour with my mom here yesterday, and of course she complains about the mess. My mini-blinds decided to break on me when I was pulling them up, the part that holds it into the bracket things on the top, so I couldn't really fix it. And of course all the other mini-blinds in my apt aren't the same size as the others. I did take one from my kitchen, but if I slide it all to one side, it doesn't stay in the other side, so I gotta be a little careful raising and lowering it. So I called my parents to tell them, and mom brings up some curtains, and complains and she measures, and complains. Then she comes back up later and hangs them up, and complains. So I really wanted to get out of the house last night, but didn't. So I stayed up until 2 AM and then had a nice dream

I wish for just one minute, I could see your pretty face

OK, so I'm a bad person. After telling y'all to buy that other calendar, I've decided not to buy it. But, just because I'm not a half-naked guy kinda chick. Instead go buy this one or this one. I'm not saying I'm in favor or not in favor of the war. I really am not gonna go there, it's way too painful and heated arguments start that way. Just check out these two calendars, they're only $13.

There's a place in your heart

So yesterday was fun. I went to the ILEA, Iowa Law Enforcement Academy, (shh, don't tell anyone, I was actually in class til 8). All the cops/peace officers in Iowa have to go there to get certified in order to become a cop/peace officer in Iowa. But I know y'all don't care, you want to know why I'm sticking this here, no I haven't lost my mind. I got to see my hott buddy Brinkley during my 3:30 class, then I went to the ILEA where there's enough hott cops in training, I wished I'd had my camera, cause I was drooling (course not outright). We were in a classroom, when some class walked by, probably about 30 people, and maybe 5 of them were chicks, so...use your imagination (most of them were probably too young for Goddess though). And then we took a tour, and walked through the weight/workout room, unfortunately there were only 2 guys in there and they both had shirts on, but I'm pretty damn sure they would have looked good without them, considering the muscles I could see were pretty big. And of course later when we were about to live about 10 hott guys wandered by. It was a great night. Plus a couple of guys in my group (which I'll never see again, because the group meets at 6 on Tuesdays and like I said, I have class til 8). I wish I had a tiny camera.

I met a guy on the red eye

So, that was an interesting weekend.
I went over to Karli's on Fri and we watched X-Men 3, came home around 11.
Sat: took care of crap I had to do around the house, went to campus for a psych experiment, realized I left something at home that I wanted for later during the funddrive, so I went back home after the psych experiment, and then came back to campus to help out with the WOI funddrive. That took up the rest of the evening. Got to help mom and dad get ready for their thing tonight.
Sun: went to La Porte City for my grandma's 90th birthday, got to visit with my cousins. I kinda wish my cousin Chris was there, also wish someone else was there. But it was fun to get together with the family and chat/eat/be merry.
Of course after we got home, I realized I had to write 2 phil papers, so I stayed up til Midnight doing one, finished that during my hr break today. Wrote the other one just before class.
I've decided I'm really sick of school, I don't seem to care about it anymore (I'm pretty sure I've complained about this before). Course it's not just school, it's responsibilities that I have to deal with right now.
Did you know? Two months from today I graduate? How scary is that?

I like smoke and lightening

As most of y'all know I love my TV shows. Currently my schedule is Amazing Race, Cold Case, Without A Trace, The Unit, Bones, Justice, Survivor, CSI, Supernatural, Men In Trees, Cops.
My post title comes from watching CSI tonight, they had a group of kids that would beat up people (I forget their term for it, something with fannies, because they were supposed to be tourists), for fun. And I know that it's fiction, but people take what's going on in the world to create their stuff. Like I know Eminem says something about it in one of his songs/raps (yeah I listen to Eminem, fuck off): "But I'm glad cause they feed me the fuel that I need for the fireTo burn and it's burnin and I have returned" from The Way I Am. Course I could be interpreting it wrong (it's been known to happen). He's saying that he takes stuff from the news and raps about it and then (earlier in the song) he says how the media/political figures, etc blame it on Marilyn Manson and other rappers, when these rappers are actually just taking stuff from the media/real life. It's just a huge circle. Anyways, in CSI, Grissom (the head guy, for those of you that don't watch) was saying at the end (when Sarah, Catherine, Warrick and Nick are in the locker room, saying who was to blame, blaming the city, Las Vegas, and the lack of parenting) that none of them were putting the blame on the kids, that their moral compass can only point them in the right direction, not make them go that way. I just don't understand why anyone would beat someone up just for fun. Is our world so fucked up that kids/people can't distinguish real life from video games and movies? I know I watch a lot of action/violent movies, and you don't see me going out and doing the things in them. Hell most of my movie collection is violent movies (if you look at a previous post, you would know.), I guess I'm just trying to understand stuff that I don't understand. I will post more on thoughts of my other TV shows in another post. I was just so upset with tonight's CSI that I had to rant.

Truth or consequences, say it aloud

All right ladies, you have to go here and buy the calendar. I guess the guys can buy it for their ladies, I bet you'll make them extremely happy. It's a calendar of Marines (very yummy ones), it's only $15 and the money goes to disabled veterans, pays for bed, prosthetic limbs, etc. What a better way to spend your money, and a great thing to get for your money.
I stumbled upon this when I went to set up my tape for Survivor tonight. Cause we're getting our driveway paved and the guys that were doing it were very yummy looking (not that you could see that much of them since it's like 30 degrees out, but I was entertained, in more than one way). Anywho, that was why I was late setting up my VCR. So I go to set it up, and you know there's that millisecond between pushing the menu button and when you turn on the VCR, well it was on CBS, and the Today Show was wrapping up, and they had military, which I learned seconds later were Marines, which makes the everything so much better. Anyways they were talking about this calendar and I think you all should buy it.
So go HERE, for a very yummy calendar
And go here for a nice interview on the Today Show. Oh those are yummy guys.

This is not how you want it to be

In case you haven't been following along, or you don't live in my mailbox, I'm graduating college in Dec. I got a letter from the Office of the Registrar today giving me a timeline of stuff I have to do before I graduate (other than pass all my classes), and I'm still trying to decide whether I'm excited or not. Also if anyone knows or has a job that I can have after a graduate, that would be nice. I'll have my Bachelor of Science Double Majors of Sociology and Interdisciplinary Studies (Criminal Justice). Are we excited yet?
So, I donated blood last Thurs, anyways I got a letter in the mail from the blood center today. They do all these tests on your blood when you donate it, well they said I tested postive for the Hepatitis B antigen, and they said it means I either was exposed to the Hep B virus in the past and recovered, or its a false positive. Which of course means they can't use it, which kinda sucks, but I wouldn't wanna put anyone else at risk. Kinda leads me to wonder what they do with that blood, hmmm I wonder how many vampires they can give it to. Anyways I'm trying to figure out if there's anything that would be wrong with me that would make the test a false positive, cause I don't ever remember having Hep B (I'm sure it would be something I would remember).

See all the interesting stuff I get in my mail?

The days feel like years when I'm alone

So I was thinking today... (yes I do that) And I was thinking about jobs, ok, I was thinking about winning the lottery and then about jobs. There's a couple in Ft Dodge that won (I think) $240 million in the state lottery a couple weeks ago. And they said they were gonna keep working. This led to me thinking about Third Watch, there was an episode once where all the cops (I think) bought lottery tickets, cause it was a huge lotto. And at the end they read the numbers, and Bosco and a whole bunch of other people were in a bar talking. At the end Bosco was saying that there was one winning lotto ticket that wasn't turned in (he had thrown away the ticket without looking at it), and said that if he had won the lottery he'd keep working, cause he loved his job so much. I want that. The love of a job, (and a guy like Bosco).

Out here forever

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Cleaning liquid that doubles as bug killer ... If menacing bees, wasps, hornets, or yellow jackets get in your home and you can't find the insecticide, try a spray of Formula 409 . Insects drop to the ground instantly.
Smart splinter remover...just pour a drop of Elmer's Glue-All over the splinter, let dry, and peel the dried glue off the skin. The splinter sticks to the dried glue.
Hunt's tomato paste boil cure ....cover the boil with Hunt's tomato paste as a compress. The acids from the tomatoes soothe the pain and bring the boil to a head.
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Heinz vinegar to heal bruises ... Soak a cotton ball in white vinegar and apply it to the bruise for 1 hour. The vinegar reduces the blueness and speeds up the healing process.
Kills fleas instantly . Dawn dish washing liquid does the trick. Add a few drops to your dog's bath and shampoo the animal thoroughly. Rinse well to avoid skin irritations. Goodbye fleas.
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Eliminate ear mites ... All it takes is a few drops of Wesson corn oil in your cat's ear. Massage it in, then clean with a cotton ball. Repeat daily for 3 days. The oil soothes the cat's skin, smothers the mites, and accelerates healing.
Quaker Oats for fast pain relief....It's not for breakfast anymore! Mix 2 cups of Quaker Oats and 1 cup of water in a bowl and warm in the microwave for 1 minute, cool slightly, and apply the mixture to your hands for soothing relief from arthritis pain.

Who knew all this household crap could be used for wierd purposes?

I always needed time on my own

I'm really getting sick of it. Half of it is cause George came today (I was getting a little worried cause he's 3 days late), so the cramps, and painful legs are cause of him. But the headaches I've been getting for the past 3 weeks, those are annoying as hell, I start out the day normal (or as normal as I get), and then, usually by noon, tiny little noises everywhere will have annoyed me so damn much I have a massive headache, and with that comes the sensitivity to light, and my drosiness/feelinglike I'm gonna pass out. Some people would consider this a migraine, but I never get those, (that could be denial speaking). I know the week of Sept 20, I had these about every damn day that week, try functioning with that going on in your head, doesn't work, and the world never stops if you don't feel good. I have too much shit that this interferes with.
And lately (as you've probably read), I've felt very hot. Like yesterday, I was just sitting reading my psych book, and I started to get extremely hot (now I'd guess I was having hot flashes, if I wasn't so damn young!). And I know I don't have a temp, my temp is acutally lower than 98.6, Thurs when it was taken it was 96.6 I wonder what that means. And then a couple days ago, I found this tiny pea sized lump under my lip, I thought it was the beggining of a zit (as if I need more of those), but I've been putting my anti-zit stuff on it, and it hasn't changed in anyway. Wonder what that means too
BUT I'M SICK OF FEELING LIKE CRAP!!!!!!

She's got me spendin'

So, apparently I subscribe to the Darwin Awards newsletter (I didn't realize that until today when it was in my mailbox), and I figured you all might get a kick out of the newest recipients of the award. For all those that don't know what a Darwin Award is (WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU? just kidding), taken from the cover of the 1st book "Commemorating those individuals who ensure the long-trm survival of our species by removing themselves from the gene pool in a sublimely idiotic fashion."Rules and eligibility, also taken from the first book: "1. The candidate must remove himself from the gene pool. 2. The candidate must exhibit an astounding mispplication of judgment. 3. The candidate must be the cause of his own demise. 4. The candidate must be capable of sound judgment. 5. The event must be verified." So here is what was in my newsletter:

Two men, 17 and 21, imitated Darth Vader, and made light sabres from fluorescent light tubes. That's right, they opened them up, poured gasoline inside, and lit them. As one can imagine, a Star Wars sized explosion was not far behind. Darth Vader died, while his opponent survived to 'fess up to their creative, but stupid, reenactment. This one passes the "no minors" rule, because 17 is legal driving age, and oldenough to pump gas is old enough to know better. Reference: news.bbc.co.uk

Speaking of pumping gas, this is unconfirmed, but a Pittsburg woman told a gas station attendant that she had spilled some gasoline, and wouldn't pay for it. He indicated disbelief, where upon she said,"Look I'll prove it," and tossed her cigarette into the puddle. The gas ignited -- proving her point, but landing her in court in 1993 for inciting a catastrophe. When you hear the words, "Look, I'll prove it," run away!

FREEWAY DANGLER -- Darwin Award -- Confirmed (31 May 2005, Seattle, Washington) Strength and endurance are two ofthe most important characteristics that can be passed on to improve the species, so physical challenges between males are frequent. In this case, two drinking buddies found themselves on an overpass 40 feet above a busy freeway in downtown Seattle at 2:45 a.m. It turned out to be the perfect place to determine who had more strength and endurance. Whoever could dangle from the overpass the longest would win! Unfortunately, the winner was too tired from his victory to climbback up, despite help from his friend. The unidentified championfell smack into traffic below. Cartoon Art: http://darwinawards.com/darwin/darwin2005-13.html
HAMMER OF DOOM -- Darwin Award -- Confirmed August brings us a winner from Brazil, who tried to disassemble a Rocket Propelled Grenade (RPG) by driving back and forth over it with a car. This technique was ineffective, so he escalated to pounding the RPGwith a sledgehammer. The second try worked--in a sense. The explosion proved fatal to one man, six cars, and the repair shop wherein the efforts took place. 14 more RPGs were found in a car parked nearby. Police believe the ammunition was being scavenged to sell as scrap metal. If it wasn't scrap then, it certainly is now! Reference: Odia (Brazil), msnbc.com, UK Daily Mail.
HELMET HEAD -- Honorable Mention -- Confirmed 12 August 2006 An Indiana man grabbed a roll of duct tape, fastened a large mortar-style firework to his football helmet, and lit the fuse. Astoundingly, the 21-year-old survived this party stunt with a concussion and burns. His helmet, however, was destroyed. Reference: wsbt.com, AP.
SNAKE IN THE GRASS -- Honorable Mention -- Confirmed This Honorable Mention goes to the hiker in Scotland who picked up a grass snake so his brother could take a picture. Just as he reached for it, a black serpent slithered into view, so he grabbed that too. It was a black adder, Britain's only venomous snake. Both reptiles sank their fangs into the 44-year-old, who went into anaphylactic shock. He recovered in the hospital. His excuse for his rash act? He didn't think venomous snakes inhabited Scotland. Reference: The Scotsman.
STEVE IRWIN, Crocodile HunterFebruary 1962 -- September 2006 "Crikey!" Steve's dangerous animal antics bordered on insane, yet Man's spirit to achieve greatness is linked to risk taking, and Steve excelled at taking risks to further his passion for wildlife. We regret his passing. He made a difference. Words from a California Naturalist and Aquarium Collector: http://DarwinAwards.com/media/SteveIrwin.html

She gon' rock them VVS stones

This is the last one for today, I promise

Yeah, so as most of you all know, I LOVE THE MARINE CORPS, or if you didn't you do now. I love all the armed forces, but I LOVE THE MARINE CORPS, I'm not sure why yet, but I do know that some people would say, cause their the best, which is what I do tell people. Though I'm still not sure how I got to loving them. I have pictures, subscribe to the online newsletter through Sgt Grit, get his seasonly catalog, and ordered (have now), the 230th Birthday Commemorative silver dollar that the US Mint produced last year (paid $35 dollars for it), so yeah, I kinda like them.

I don't know how many of you keep track of upcoming movies, but there's a new one coming out called "Flags of our Fathers" about the flag raising on Iwo Jima. I've decided I really wanna see that movie, and then buy it when it comes out on DVD/video.

Dirty Old Men

Or perverts, or something else, call them whatever you like.
So, I'm chatting with Goddess while I'm here in a 'cafe' enjoying my lunch break. And there's this old guy (it just doesn't sound right if I say not old), about 50 or 60? I'm really not a good judge of age. Anyways, I was saying how guys with combovers don't look good. And then I moved on to telling her about what I was watching him do. He's sitting with his back to me with a younger lady, she could be 20's or 30's (like I said, not a good judge on age), and she's heavier. Anways, she's writing something on paper, and this guy is watching all the college girls, my age (early 20's) walk by. One in particular he really like had long legs, nice and skinny with a mini skirt on. And he watched her walk by and take a turn down a hall way. There's another girl that's sitting in front of him at a table with (I'm guessing) a tank top and a hoodie sweatshirt on top, that he continues to look at, now I know this, because when she turns to look at him, he turns his head quickly, as if he wasnt' looking at her (only the guilty do that). He did turn around and wink at me earlier, now every time he turns around, I glare at him.
Now I know there are these guys out there, but does one have to sit his ass in front of me and show me he's a pervert? So, I guess it's better he's sitting in front of me than in back.
He did just watch some chick walk the other way, so he had to turn his head to watch her (the lady he was with went somewhere, so he was able to do it with out her knowing). That just bothers me in so many ways.

I'm So Excited...

And I just can't hide it...

So, I have a screen saver on my computer that's got a lot of the cars I have and am planning to post on my Sweet Rides blog, plus fighter jets, bikes, and a few aircraft carriers. I run this screen saver when I'm in class and I want guys to look at it, unfortunately it's been getting girls' attention, which follows my theory that guys aren't interested in the right stuff anymore, but today, I was sitting there in my psych class listening to the chatter around me. And this guy was talking a chick, saying he liked to look at my screen saver because of the cars, I remember him mentioning the Corvette Stingray for sure, and I was thinking FINALLY some guy sees it. He was saying he liked to look down on it cause everyone was usually checking email and online accounts. I was also thinking, I need to get me some new pics now that I know someone looks at it.
Speaking of psych I got myself all confused last night: We have to get 5 research credits for this class (I forgot that was a requirement for psych, I hate participating when it's required), and I was thinking I didn't wanna participate in any experiments, and I wanted to do the readings, you can read from a supplement book, and turn in 5 of those for 3 points, which translates into 1 credit. So I had told myself that I had to turn one in today until the end of the due dates (the 27th), but if you notice that's only 4, so I'm like, I'm an idiot (it happens quite often), and I had to go online to sign up for a research project for my one credit, then I got to looking at stuff and I signed up for 4 credits, so now I only have to turn in one reading, or find me another research project before the end of semester. I just got so confused with the 15 and 5 and 3 and way too many numbers.

His old man was a rebel yeller

I've decided I am a seriously disturbed person. Cause some of the things that turn me on.

That plane ride comin' home from the war

I found this online, so you children of the 90's this is for you: Bolding is what I remember.
You're a 90's kid if:
You've ever ended a sentence with the word "PSYCHE!"
You can sing the rap to "The Fresh Prince Of Bel Air"
You remember when Kurt Cobain, Tu Pac, River Phoenix, and Selena died.
You know that "WOAH" comes from Joey from "Blossom" and that "How Rude!" comes from Stephanie from "Full House"
You remember when it was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons.
You got super excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at school. I never got excited about it, but I do remember other kids getting excited
You remember reading "Goosebumps"
You know the profound meaning of "Wax on, wax off"
You have pondered why Smurfette was the only female smurf.
You took plastic cartoon lunch boxes to school. I had my own special one, kinda like the lunch boxes guys would take to construction sites, mine was green and my brother's was pink
You danced to "Wannabe" by the Spice Girls, Females: had a new motto, Males: got a whole lot gay-er. (so tell me what you want, what you really really want.)
You remember the craze, then the banning of slap bracelets and slam books. And you know how many slap bracelets I had?
You still get the urge to say "NOT" after (almost) every sentence...Not...
Where in the world is Carmen San Diego? was both a game and a TV game show.
Captain Planet.
You knew that Kimberly, the pink ranger, and Tommy, the green Ranger were meant to be together.
When playing power rangers with friends you fought over who got to be who............and still all ended up being Tommy. I hated the Power Rangers and NEVER watched them
You remember when super nintendo's became popular.
You remember watching home alone 1, 2 , and 3........and tried to pull the pranks on "intruders" I never saw the 3rd one.
"I've fallen and I can't get up"
You remember going to the skating rink before there were inline skates
Two words... Trapper Keeper.
You never got injured on a Slip 'n' Slide
You wore socks over leggings scrunched down
"Miss Mary Mack, Mack, Mack, all dressed in black, black, black, with silver buttons, buttons, buttons, all down her back, back, back" SHE ASKED HER MOTHER MOTHER MOTHER FOR FIFTY CENTS CENTS CENTS TO SEE THE ELEPHANTS PHANTS PHANTS JUMP OVER THE FENCE THE FENCE THE FENCEhe jumped so high high high he touched the sky sky sky and he didnt come back back back til the forth of july ly ly he jumped so low ow ow he stubbed his toe toe toe and thats the end end end of the elephants show show show I never actually jumped rope
You remember boom boxes vs. cd players
You remember New Kids on The Block when they were cool I never remember them being cool
You knew all the characters names and their life stories on "Saved By The Bell"
You played and/or collected "Pogs" We had CyRide ones here
You had at least one Tamagotchi, GigaPet or Nano and brought it everywhere I never had one of these
You watched the original Care Bears, My Little Pony, and Ninja Turtles
NANCY DREW AND THE HARDY BOYS WERE THE BEST MYSTERY BOOKS I remember checking out The Hardy Boys at the library, and reading The Boxcar Children
Yikes pencils and erasers were the stuff!
All your school supplies were "Lisa Frank" brand. (pencils. notebooks. binders. etc.) I still love buying these
You remember when the new Beanie Babies were always sold out. I remember you were supposed to leave the tags on them, that was one of the first things I did when I got home, take them off, and rename them
You used to wear those stick on earings, not only on your ears, but at the corners of your eyes. I never remember wearing these
You remember a time before the WB.
You've gotten creeped out by "Are You Afraid of the Dark?"
You know the Macarena by heart. I didn't know it
"Talk to the hand" ... enough said
You thought Brain woud finally take over the world Didn't watch this either
You always said, "Then why don't you marry it!"
You remember when everyone went slinky crazy.
You remember when razor scooters were cool.
When we were younger:
Before the MySpace frenzy...
Before the Internet & text messaging... I remember old computers, with the green and black screens, and the really simple games, and I have a typewriter
Before Sidekicks & iPods...
Before MIKE JONES...
Before PlayStation2 or X-BOX......
Back when you put off the 5 hours of homework you had every night.
When light up sneakers were cool. Never got these
When you rented VHS tapes, not DVDs.
When gas was $0.95 a gallon & Caller ID was a new thing. I don't remember it being that cheap
When we recorded stuff on VCRs & paid $3.50 for a movie. I still use a VCR
When we called the radio station to request songs to hear off our walkmans.
When 2Pac and Biggie where alive.
When the Chicago Bulls were the best team ever. Didn't watch basketball
Way back. Tag. Get Over Here!!!! means something to you.
Hide-n-Go Seek at dusk.
Red Light, Green Light.
Heads Up 7 Up. We used to play this when we had indoor recess
Playing Kickball & Dodgeball until your porch light came on. I don't remember playing this outside of school
Hopskotch.
Slip-n-Slides.
Tree Houses.
Hula Hoops.
HELLO....HOT WHEELS!!!!! Actually ran across some of these tonight
"POWER OF LOVE" BY CELINE DION..ONLY COUPLES COULD SKATE TO THIS. Ours was "Opposites Attract" I forget who it was by
The annoying Giga Pets & Furbies.
Running through the sprinklers.
That "Little Mermaid" Which came out on DVD yesterday (10/3)
Crying when Mufasa died in the Lion King.
Happy Meals where you chose a Barbie or a Hot Wheels car. I acutally never ate McDonald's food
Getting the privelage to sit in the front seat of the car.
Drinking Sqeeze It "Squeeze The Fun Out Of It"CAPRI SUN
Or what about:Hey Arnold.
Rugrats.
The Secret World of Alex Mac.
Ren & Stimpy. Their song "Happy Happy Joy Joy" is on some bread commercial now
Double Dare.
Rocco's Modern Life.
AAAHH!! REAL MONSTERS.
Wild & Crazy Kids.
Clarissa Explains it All.
CAMP NOWHERE
Salute Your Shorts(CAMP ANAWANA)
The original cast members of All That.
Kenan & Kel.
"CITY GUYS"...ROLLW/ THE CITY GUYS
Doug.
Magic School Bus.
Nick Arcade.
Flash Forward.
The Adventures of Pete and Pete.
Legends of the Hidden Temple
Hey Dude.
Dinosaurs. Not the Mama
Alladin.
Mummies Alive
Sailor Moon. My friends were really into this
Blossom.
Hangin with Mr. Cooper.
Martin
Beavis & Butt-Head
Wishbone.
Bill Nye the Science Guy
MR RODGERS!!!!
Who could forget Snick? & Nick @ Nite with Bewitched, I Dream of Jenie, The Facts of Life & I Love Lucy.
Where everyone wanted to be in love after watching The Wonder Years.or Nick Jr. with Face
Gulah Gulah Island
Little Bear
Busy Town
Under the Umbrella Tree
PEE-WEE!!!
The Big Comfy Couch This came about when I was older
Kool-Aid was the drink of choice. I hated Kool-Aid
Wearing your new shoes on the first day of school.
Class field trips.
When Christmas was the most exciting time of year.
When $5 seemed like a million, & another dollar a miracle.
When you begged to go to McDonalds for dinner everyday. Once Again, I hated McDonalds
When Toys R Us overuled the mall. We had a Kay-Bee Toys
Go back to the time when:
Decisions were made by going 'eeny-meeny-miney-moe'.
Mistakes were corrected by simply exclaiming 'do over!''
Race issue' ment arguing about who ran the fastest.
Money issues were handled by whoever was banker in 'Monopoly.'
It wasn't odd to have two or three 'best' friends.
Being old referred to anyone over 20.
A chance to skate as a couple at the local roller rink was like winning the lottery.
Scrapes & bruises were kissed & made better.
It was a big deal to finally be tall enought to ride the 'big people' rides at the fair.
When playing Nintendo was the hardest thing ever. We had Super Nintendo, or SNES
When Ninja Turtles ruled the world.
Another Baby Sitter Club and Little Sister (Karen) book came out and you put your name on hold for it at the library.
When Aladdin was new, before the trilogy was complete. And I never watched the others
Before we realized all this would eventually disappear Who would have thought you'd miss the 90's so much!!!!!

Bouncing like a bubble in your head

Any health professionals out there? Or anyone know anything about health related stuff? I'm trying to decide what to do with a blister I have. I went walking barefoot on Mon, cause it was nice out, and about 3/4 through my walk, I felt something painful on the bottom of my toe, when I went to pick it off (it's usually a tiny rock or seed), I found it was a blister, and most of the skin covering it was off already, so I pulled the rest of it off (yes I know you're not supposed to do that), and I had to cut my walk short cause it was stinging so much, stuck my flipflops on and went home. Well yesterday it was still stinging, and the wierd part being it was still spewing pus (which is what blisters do when you pop them), but that usually doesn't happen to me after I've taken off the outer covering (hehe that sounds wierd). And it's really red, kinda like it's bleeding, but it's not. Today when I looked at it, cause it's still hurting, it kinda looks like there's 2 tiny tears in the skin. Now I'm wondering if maybe one of the spiders I unhoused on Sunday (when I took out my AC) bit me. Because when I woke up on Monday I was ubscenely (I know that's not spelled right) warm like I had a fever, but of course I dont' have a thermometer, and I've felt like that Tues and today when I woke up. Course it's been kinda warm lately, so it doesn't look weird that I'm wearing cooler clothes. I've also had a sore throat since Sun, but it's gone today, and today I'm really tired, even though I've had my usual amount of sleep. I've also had some nice chest pains, in the vicinity of the heart, but I figure that doesn't mean anything. I don't know maybe I'm just being a hypochondriac (that one might be spelled right)
In other news, it's midterm time now (meaning all my classes are giving tests so we know if we're passing or not), so that's about 2 weeks of tests on various days, already had one in Phil (got a D), Enviro Soc (C), got one tomorrow in Police and Society, one next Tues in Criminology, and one next Wed in Social Psych (I've already had one test in there, and quizzes, believe I'm getting a D). I need to receive a C or better in Environ Soc, Police & Society and Criminology, I only need to pass Social Psych, and well Phil's just an elective, so I don't really need to pass but I'd like to, for my final grades.
And I'm low on money AGAIN. I've already spent too much on my credit card for the month, my cc month is the 18th to the 18th. But I bought groceries the other day and 2 X-Men 3 DVDs, one for me and one for my brother's B-Day (he already knows he's getting it, cause I called and told him not to buy it for himself). And because I'm having them sent to two difference locations I don't get the free shipping, even though the order is over $25 before shipping is added. Plus I spent money for food items since the 18th of last month.
I believe that's the end of exciting shit happening in my life (course if there was more I wouldn't have to think about it).

Stuck between 10 and 20

Oh crap, it's only Monday, and I'm tired, not a plus. Course some of that could be because I had to be up extra early cause Mom scheduled the pest control guy to come at 8 in the morning. So then I woke up early, and I decided cause it was nice and warm, I was gonna shave my legs all the way up (I don't think I've ever done that), anyways, so I got me a new shaver blade in my razor and started at it, but I forgot what happens with new shaver blades, so I lost me some skin and a little blood too. I was gonna wear a dress today that showed my legs (hence the shaving), so after I tried on three, and then I decided I would wear a skirt, and finally settled on the usual jeans and a T-shirt.
So, yesterday I took out my bedroom air conditioner and then it got to 80 degrees yesterday, and I'm thinking about that warm today as well. Of course that would happen.
I'm either getting old or stressed, cause I've found a couple of white hairs on my head, what does that mean?
OOO so there were a bunch of cops waiting for me when I got home (no, there wasn't a warrant for my arrest), and they all came in, turned on some music and started stripping, no wait. Someone sent me a couple CDs full of cops that was it.
Ya know, I remember having more to say, but I don't know what it was.

I'm staring out into the night, trying to hid the pain

So, if any of you are old readers from my other blog, you would know that I had taken to posting the interesting letters from Sgt Grit's weekly Marine Newsletter. I'm still doing that over there, but I ran across this great letter while I was reading and thought I'd post in on both blogs. If you want to read the full newsletter go here.

What Is An American?
You probably missed it in the rush of news recently, but there was a report that a Pakistani newspaper had published someone's offer of a reward to anyone who killed an American, any American.
So I just thought I would write to let them know what an American is, so they will know when they find one.
An American is English…or French, or Italian, Irish, German, Spanish, Polish, Russian or Greek. An American may also be African, Indian, Chinese, Japanese, Australian, Iranian, Asian, or Arab, or Pakistani, or Afghan.
An American is Christian, or Jewish, or Buddhist, or Muslim. In fact, there are more Muslims in America than in Afghanistan. The only difference is that in America they are free to worship as they choose.
An American is also free to believe in no religion. For that he will answer only to God, not to the government, or to armed thugs claiming to speak for God or the government.
An American is from the most prosperous land in the history of the world. The root of that prosperity can be found in the Declaration of Independence, which recognizes the God-given right of each man and woman to the pursuit of happiness.
An American is generous. Americans have helped friend and foe in their time of need. When Afghanistan was overrun by the Soviet army 20 years ago, Americans came with arms and supplies to enable the people to win back their country. As of the morning of September 11, Americans were giving more than any other nation to the poor in Afghanistan.
An American does not have to obey the mad ravings of ignorant, ungodly, cruel, old men. American men will not be fooled into giving their lives to kill innocent people, so that foolish old men may stay in power. American women are free to show their beautiful faces to the world or not, as they choose.
An American is free to criticize his government's officials when they are wrong. Then he is free to replace them, by majority vote.
Americans welcome people from all lands, all cultures, all religions, because they are not afraid. They are not afraid that their history, their religion, their beliefs, will be overrun, or forgotten. That is because they know that in this country they will always be free to embrace their religion, their beliefs, their history, as they choose.
And just as Americans welcome all, they enjoy the best that everyone has to bring from all over the world. The best science, the best technology, the best products, the best books, the best music, the best food, the best athletes.
Americans welcome the best, but they also welcome the least. The national symbol of America welcomes your tired and your poor, the wretched refuse of your teeming shores, the homeless, the tempest tossed.
These in fact are the people who built America. Many of them were working in the twin towers in New York on the morning of September 11, trying to provide a better life for their families.
So you can try to kill an American if you must. Hitler did. So did General Tojo and Stalin and Mao Tse-Tung.
But in doing so you will just be killing yourself. Because Americans are not a particular people from a particular place. They are the embodiment of the human spirit of freedom. Everyone who holds to that spirit, everywhere, is an American.
So look around you. You will find more Americans in your land than you thought were there. And you can expect that one day they will rise up and overthrow the old, ignorant, tired tyrants that have troubled too many lands. Then those lands too will join the community of free and prosperous nations.
And America will welcome them.
Written by Peter Ferrara, Associate professor of law at the George Mason University School of Law and a member of the Board of Scholars of the Virginia Institute for Public Policy
http://www.nationalreview.com/comment/comment-ferrara092501.shtml

I read the hymns, and kinda, sorta sung along

So, I have a test today in Phil, and we had a review session on Wed, and one of the chicks started arguing on a piece that we had already covered in class earlier. It was so annoying, I just wanted to tell her, We covered this already, maybe you should have been in class that day. Because she was arguing the same shit that we had talked about in class already. I hate it when people do that, especially when we're reviewing for a test, it's annoying as hell.
Cell phones: yeah, some people on them bother me
We have a policy in the library (if I've already written about this, I'm sorry, deal) where you have to take your cell phone outside and talk, because it's one giant room and everyone can hear you. We don't care if it rings (Ok we care, but we're not gonna yell at you), and you shut it off, but once you start talking on it, and keep talking on it, it bothers us (and probably a few other people). Well this new chick comes in on Tues, and she's sitting at the computers, and her phone rings, and she starts talking on it. So, I glare at her, usually if they're not new that does the trick. Unfortunately it didn't work, so I go over to her and say she needs to take it outside, she gives me the "one moment" sign, and then continues to talk, but not for very long and hangs up. Then she snipely (hope that's spelled right) tells me I didn't know, to which I reply there are signs around (there's one on the door when she came in, at eye level, there's signs on all tables, and there was one sitting in front of her), then she says they're too small (I was thinking maybe you should get your glasses checked). Later she goes and sits at a carrel (individual student study areas), and then a guy comes in and sits beside her, a short time later, his cell rings, which he picks up and starts talking on (cause apparently she can't tell him about the policy), and he hangs up like the minute before I reach him, but I still tell him next time he needs to take it outside. They were back yesterday, with no cell calls.
I'm sitting in a cafe on campus here (also a big room), and there was this chick talking on her phone, nice and loud of course. And I wasn't the only one glaring at her. That's what I do, I consider it rude to ask them to quiet down (not like it's not rude of them to talk so damn loud, but...)
I generally don't chat on my phone if it's an imp conversation, at least not if I don't have any privacy. I don't mind so much if it's my parents, but I think I talk pretty low. At least I've never seen anyone glowing at me.

Gonna feel like hell tonight

So, it's been an OK week. Monday, nothing exciting happened. Tuesday, got me a nice 20 min ride in the middle of the day. Wed, nothing exciting happened (ok something did, but it's not gonna do anything for me if I talk about it, so you don't get to know, and it was more nervous than exciting). And today, got me an almost 2 hr ride. Yeah, it was pretty damn cold, 55 or lower, even with my leather, the lining, a sweatshirt and a 3/4 sleeve shirt. It was mostly my legs and arms that got cold. But it was sweet. My buddy kept asking me if I was cold, but I wasn't gonna complain, there's nothing I could do about it, so why bother. And I tell ya, at the end, my legs were getting painful. So, I took myself a nice warm shower, you have no idea how nice that felt. And tomorrow, I get a free lunch (with my mother, but my friend's coming too, so hopefully she won't be as bad).

So today, my bosses were talking about the SWAT team and that guy in Colorado. I hate it how people are always judging cops for the actions they take. I never get in those conversations, I just won't do it. I've never been in any situations, and I don't feel it's right to judge officers if I haven't been there (personally, I try not to do that in any situation I haven't been in). But they kept asking why the officers didn't act sooner, and all that shit. And then they said that the girl's parents will probably file a lawsuit. What is wrong with people? Think about how the officers are feeling. They probably (like I said, I really don't know) are wondering if they couldn't have done anything more, and all the while you have tons of civilians saying you should have done this or that, or whatever. Kinda like how people always say officers should just shoot the arm. They never think about how hard it is to shoot a hand, how stressful the situation is anyway, and how small amount of time the officers have to make this decision.

Sorry, enough rambling for tonight

Complaints

I have one huge class this semester, and there's always these 2 people that I try very hard not to sit anywhere close to them. Because they have the tendency to talk throughout the whole class. And it's loud enough that it really bugs me. This is because I have very sensitive ears, so little things bug me; but they don't whisper either. And it's not like they really need to come to class, the professor puts the entire notes online for us to download or print out. I always wanna say, shut up. It's nice to know that they don't give a damn about class, but god forbid anyone around them want to listen to the professor.

My computer has this nice little annoying habit where I can barely move the mouse and it either resizes the window I'm in, or closes the whole thing out. It's so helpful when I'm in the middle of something.

Another thing that annoys me: slow walkers. Now, it doesn't bug me so much when I'm not in a hurry to get anywhere, but if I'm on campus, chances are I'm trying to get to a class or work. And I have a tendency to walk fast (actually I have a tendency to do this anyway). So, when I get stuck behind someone, who's walking as if they don't have a care in the world, yeah kinda bugs me. I noticed I'm not the only one who has this problem, when I was rushing past a group yesterday, I noticed a soldier trying to get by a mass, and it's always nice when they take up they take up the WHOLE damn sidewalk.

Go bikers

"Instead of mocking him for going after them, they perhaps set their own safety aside to reach over and rescue him from a position of danger" That's taken from this article where a drunk guy threatened a group of bikers with a billiard cue and got hit by his own car. The guy was offended by the skeletons on some of thier leather Harley Davidson jackets.
So, my weekend kinda sucked. Actually not all of it, just certain parts.
Went to the Hog Roast at the Harley Store here on Sat with my friend Karli, I was kinda bummed cause we didn't stay that long, but that's life, it was actually good in the end, cause I got to go on a walk and still get a ton of reading done for school. So, yeah, got a tiny walk done back from Karli's stopped off at the grocery store and bought me some fruit Cheerios, and some Mike's Hard Cranberry Lemonade (doesn't sound too yummy but it is good). Ran into a friend and chatted with him and his girlfriend for awhile. Got home and did some reading, I was trying to get caught up in my classes (that didn't actually happen, I'll explain that later on). Drank one of my Mike's (if you read my earlier post, you know that), and that basically knocked me out, but considering I hadn't had supper, and I know you shouldn't drink on an empty stomach, but I wasn't going anywhere except to bed, so I decided it was ok.
Sunday, woke up at 7:30 when my mom called me to go out to breakfast. Went to Perkins to try those new 3 egg omelets they've been advertising, had the mushroom and steak one, that was really yummy, filled me right up and the steak was just perfect, nice and tender.
Went to the Art Festival around 10:30, bought me some lavender (now I don't know what to do with it), and an ornament for my mom for Christmas. Cleaned my pig's house (she smells so much nicer now), mowed both lawns (one for the last time because all the paperwork is final today, and it switches hands, I just hope they take good care of it), and then developed this nasty ass headache after that, which made it so I couldn't read, so about 6:30, went and laid down, and set my VCR up, finally went to sleep about 7:30, and woke up today about 6:30, I'm very rested.

Wrapping up from last night

I love it who the chick in Palm Springs says she doesn't do that, you can't say you "don't do that" when you wrote a note to a guy to "give you a hit"
And who keeps a note after giving the chick the drugs? Kinda makes it easy to incriminate yourself.
And the statuette goes to:

Deputy Mark Lanier
Palm Beach County, FL

cops tonight

I really wish COPS would give us a nice full hour of new shit. If you want pics I'm sure Goddess has pics. Here are my picks for the night.
Palm Beach County, FL: Deputy Mark Lanier, Deputy Hector Pena.
Palm Springs, CA: Officer Anthony Pilutik.
Pittsburgh, PA: Detective Calvin Kennedy
Anchorage, AK: Officer Arthur Anderson,
Pittsburgh, PA: Sgt. Craig Campbell,

Some humorous quotes from the night:
Pittsburgh:
"Why'd you run?"
"Because I'm not tryin' to go to jail"..."You don't understand man, I keep going to jail for other people's bullshit"
"You didn't go to jail for someone else tonight"
2nd Pittsburgh:
"I need help"
"It's not like you came up here to not shoot dope."
"I know"

Palm Springs:
"What am I supposed to do?"
"You're supposed to not smoke crack" you can't say you "don't do that" when you wrote a note to a guy to "give you a hit"

A little commentary: I'm actually feeling a nice alcohol buzz right now, and I'm very tired (which is one of the effects alcohol has on me), and before any of you start complaining, I'm in my own home, I've only drank one 12oz bottle of mike's hard, ok I had about 5 sips of a second one, but looks like I'm gonna have to waste that one, and I'm going to bed soon. If anything is unclear let me know, I'm gonna double check it tomorrow morning

Question for you all: How come officer P always says"This is a wake-up call"?
OK, that's it, I'm gone. I'll post the winner of the statuette tomorrow.

Don't cry for me down here

When I Get Where I'm Going by Brad Paisley, background vocals: Dolly Parton

When I get where I'm going
On the far side of the sky
The first thing that I'm gonna do
Is spread my wings and fly

I'm gonna land beside a lion
And run my fingers through his mane
Or I might find out what it's like
To ride a drop of rain

(Chorus:)
Yeah when I get where I'm going
There'll be only happy tears
I will shed the sins and struggles
I have carried all these years
And I'll leave my heart wide open
I will love and have no fear
Yeah when I get where I'm going
Don't cry for me down here

I'm gonna walk with my grand daddy
And he'll match me step for step
And I'll tell him how I missed him
Every minute since he left
Then I'll hug his neck

Yeah when I get where I'm going
There'll be only happy tears
I will shed the sins and struggles
I have carried all these years
And I'll leave my heart wide open
I will love and have no fear
Yeah when I get where I'm going
Don't cry for me down here

So much pain and so much darkness
In this world we stumble through
All these questions I can't answer
So much work to do

But when I get where I'm going
And I see my maker's face
I'll stand forever in the light
Of his amazing grace
Yeah when I get where I'm going
There'll be only happy tears
Hallelujah
I will love and have no fear
When I get where I'm going
Yeah when I get where I'm going

Hey, it's me again

So I had a CJ class tonight and this chick basically made a fool out of herself in class. We were talking about how cops have to be on their best behavior on and off duty. And she tells us this story that she was at a party and met a guy, and they were drinking and talking. Next day, she finds out he is a cop, she's with her friends who happen to have bags of alcohol, so he asked to see their ID's, they happened to be underage and got tickets for minor in possession. She felt that since she "knew" him that he shouldn't have given the tickets. Most of the class disagreed with her.
I would never want the guys I know not to enforce the law if I broke it. Just cause I know Officer so-and-so doesn't mean I shouldn't be punished if I broke the law.
I was chatting with Goddess about this, and though I do agree the officer shouldn't have been at the party with underage drinkers, this chick shouldn't have expected that she/her friends wouldn't get a ticket.
What do you all think?

So, y'all know I'm a reality show junkie (not all of them), well I watch The Amazing Race, and Survivor and of course COPS, but that's kinda different. Anyways on The Amazing Race, there's this one couple that the chick has one leg, and a prosthetic leg and she keeps going on about how she can do anything all the other people can. Well, then she uses her disability to her advantage, like when they're boarding the plane, she gets on first like she needs to. And later when they're in China (I don't remember what city), she takes a cab saying it's an emergency cause she only has one leg. She knows she's playing this thing.

Swing, swing from the chariot

So, its Thursday, and I apologize that none of y'all have found anything exciting to read on here for a few days, but you know how it goes.
I was reading the Daily today, and they keep having articles about Facebook (online community, they keep sticking it with Myspace), and today they said people are getting fired because of things they say about their job. I have a tendency not to post about my jobs, unless it's something really interesting, exciting, like the Journey/Def Leppard concert. I just feel that the internet is not the place to complain about my job (go figure), I have friends I can complain to for that (lucky them). And it seems I'm right, yes I know that basically anyone can find anything on the internet, so if you complain outright about your job, and someone that works with, or is your boss reads its, you're kinda SOL.
I suppose y'all wanna know about exciting things that have happened since the 17th, well I hate to disappoint you, but you're not gonna get much. I've been swamped with school stuff, and I'm still behind (such as life, or at least mine). Oh, well, I deal, and nudge myself on, I gotta do it, no use complaining, it ain't gonna solve anything.
I'm quite amused (and annoyed) with some of the people on campus. You've all run into these people, they have those earbuds that fit nicely into their ears, and yet they have to have their music up so loud so you can hear it (words too) about 3 or 4 feet away. That to me is worse than cars with their music up loud. Cause cars are there and then they're gone, problem solved, but when you're sitting in a room with these people (or on the bus, as the case happens to be sometimes), that bothers me so much. And I think half of that is cause tiny noises seem to give me headaches so easily. Like if there's a buzzing of a machine, if I sit listening to that for hours (even sometimes 10 min), I get the most annoying headaches. Course then I stick my headphones on and listen to music, and people ask how I can do that with a headache, well most of the time, my country music helps my headaches, and the music drowns out the little noises.
The other thing is computers. I've noticed in my classes where people use computers, that you can always tell who has the computer to take notes, and doesn't really know much about them and those that do. The note-takers, never let the computer fall asleep, they always touch the mouse when it blacks out. Now, letting the screen saver come on, or letting it fall asleep is a good thing for the computer. The whole point of a screen saver is so the background, or whatever is running, doesn't imprint itself into the monitor (now I have no idea how this happens, and it may not happen as much with the newer machines, but this is what I was told, when I had my first laptop), and it falling asleep is good cause it's conserving battery power (I know some of the newer machines have longer battery lives, but some computers don't and I also know that the wireless card, which it seems everyone has in their comp, sucks the battery power). Also, there's this kid (this has happened twice now), that sits in the same building as I waiting for a class (I'm guessing), and generally at the same computer, that seems so mad when he's using it, he pounds on the keyboard, mouse, and table (which really doesn't help me using the computer), and then slams it shut when he's done. Yeah, like that's gonna help.
So, I'm excited for the weekend, actually almost all the stuff between now and Sun is good (not really excited about a few classes, but I deal well). Tonight is Survivor (yes, I like reality shows. DEAL), and CSI premiere. Tomorrow I get 3 hrs of break between my classes and I get to watch Mr. Hottie tomorrow, Men in Trees is on tomorrow night. Sat is the Hog Roast at the Harley store, only its supposed to be cold, and sun is a local art show/sale. Course its' supposed to be cold from now until sometime next week so that sucks, but...
Actually I should be used to this right? Considering where I live with our harsh winters, and I do, I just have to have the adjustment period that's required for my body, while it's switching from Summer to winter. There are some gorgeous days in the winter, when it's cold.
So, yeah, I'll see if I can have something exciting to write about next time.

Bringin' some attitude.

So, the cops people finally took my advice, and (though unofficially) made a Hott Cops week. So, here ya go:
From Palm Beach County, FL: Deputy Rick Santos; Chattanooga, TN: Officer Derrick Pendergrass, Officer Pete Miller; Palm Springs, CA: Officer Anthony Pilutik.
Chattanooga, TN: Officer Brian Lockhart, Officer Chris Sims, Sgt Barry Burns; Pittsburgh, PA: Sgt. Craig Campbell; Spokane, WA: Officer Brian Eckersley, Officer Kurt Vigesaa.

Why do people always say they don't have anything illegal in their vehicles and the cops can check wheny they KNOW there is? You don't have to let the cops search your vehicle. They can't legally search it if you deny the search unless there's something in plain view.
Also, how come the drugs magically appear?
And by the way, I proved on my birthday that you can say no to a stranger when they ask if you want a ride. It can be done. Course I'm not a prostitute and the guy could have been trying to be nice, or maybe he just wanted some of my alcohol, either way, my ass wasn't getting in that car.
I am never gonna understand why people shove needles (or anything else, for that matter) up their ass. Out of all the uncomfortable places to shove stuff. And then to have a cop (I'm really sorry that has come to be in your job description) pull it out. It hurts just thinking about it.
Also, you might wanna know how much drugs make it so you are able to be arrested. I love the conversation between Officer Pendergrass and the passenger in the green truck:
Officer P: Half a joint and a little bit of marijuana
Bearded Guy: Out west they just give you a ticket
Officer P: Well, go back out West, You're on the East Coast now man
I love that.

Alright, I've giving out 2 Hott Cop Statuettes tonight (cause I couldn't pick between the two).

One for Officer Pilutik, cause he was too young to buy his gun and ammunition when he was hired, no wait, that was just a perk of the evening. ;)

The other to Officer Pendergrass. I know I enjoy watching him, and he reminds me of my guy, course he was also on both eps tonight.

And because blogger's being stupid (and I forgot to add these yesterday), had a little problem getting you guys' statuettes up. But I finally did.

And as I type this, we've got a thunderstorm (and lightening, this thing is really going), so I'm feeling for my guys. I hope they don't have to get out in this, cause I know those rain slickers don't help a damn bit.

Wait for Me

OK, so there's this really hott guy I've been crushing on for awhile that comes into the Business Cafe when I'm here, usually between 12 and 2 on Fridays. And he's about 6 ft, shorter brown hair, always wearing nice blue jeans with a black belt, and some nice biker boots (can't see much of these cause of the longer jeans), usually comes in, in a biker leather jacket (only made by a crotchrocket (?) company) that says Hurley and is black and white, and lately he's been carrying his helmet, a full face helmet that's gray with some kind of design.
Anyways, I was conversing with Goddess about him, and she kept telling me to go talk to him. And I'm pretty damn shy when it comes to talking to guys, so of course I didn't. But he kept looking my way today. That could be because I was sitting in front of the door, so maybe he was looking for the guy that came to meet with him later, or he was paying attention to the class that was in a classroom behind me.
I don't know if I'm regretting not talking to him (probably), or maybe I just want him to come back so I can stare at him some more

Whatever

The Way I Am

Whatever
Dre just let it run
Ay yo turn the beat up a little bit
Ay yo, this song is for anyone
Fuck it just shut up and listen

Ay yo
I sit back with this pack of zigzags
And this bag of this weed
It gives me the shit needed to be
The most meanest emcee on this - on this earth
Cause since birth I've been cursed with this curse to just cursed
And just blurt this bezerk and bizarre shit that works
And it sells and it helps in its self
To relieve all this tension dispensing me
Sentence is getting it, stress has been eating me recently
All through this chest and I rest to get peacefully
But at least have the decency in you to leave me alone
When you freaks see me out in the streets when I'm eating or feedin' my daughter
To not come and speak to me
I don't know you and no I don't owe you a motherfuckin thing
I'm not Mr. NSYNC and I'm not what your friends think
I'm not Mr. Friendly
I can be a prick, if you tip me my tank is on empty
No patience is in me and if you offend me I'm lifting you ten feet
In the air, I don't care who was there and who saw me just jaw you
Go call you a lawyer file you a lawsuit
I'll smile in the courtroom and buy you a wardrobe
I'm tired of arguing - I don't mean to mean but it's all I can be
It's just me

And I am
Whatever you say I am
If I wasn't, then why would I say I am?
In the papers, the news, everyday I am
Radio won't even play my jam

Cause I am
Whatever you say I am
If I wasn't, then why would I say I am?
In the papers, the news, everyday I am
I don't know it's just the way I am

Sometimes I just feel like my father, I hate to be bothered
With all of this nonsense it's constant
And "oh it's just lyrical content!"
The song "Guilty Conscience" has gotten such rotten responses
And all of this controversy circles me
And it seems like the media immediately points a finger at me
So I point one back at 'em
But not the index or the pinky or the ring or the thumb
It's the one you put up when you don't give a fuck
When you won't just put up with the bullshit they pull
Cause they full of shit too
When a dude's gettin bullied and shoots up your school
And they blame it on Marilyn - and the heroin
Where were the parents at?
And look at where it's at middle America
Now it's a tragedy
Now it's so sad to see
An upper class city having this happening
Then attack Eminem cause I rap this way
But I'm glad cause they feed me the fuel
That I need for the fire to burn and it's burnin' and I have returned

And I am
Whatever you say I am
If I wasn't, then why would I say I am?
In the papers, the news, everyday I am
Radio won't even play my jam

Cause I am
Whatever you say I am
If I wasn't, then why would I say I am?
In the papers, the news, everyday I am
I don't know it's just the way I am

I'm so sick and tired of being admired
That I wish that I would just die or get fired
And drop from my label and stop with the fables
I'm not gonna be able to top what my name is
And pigeon holdin' to some poppy sensations
They cop me rotation at Rock 'N' Roll stations
And I just do not have the patience
To deal with this cocky Caucasians
Who think I'm some wigga who just tries to be black
Cause I talk with an accent and grab on my balls
So they always keep asking the same fucking questions
What school did I go to?
What hood I grew up in?
The why? The who, what?
When and where and the how?
Till I'm grabbing my hair and I'm tearing it out
You've been driving me crazy, I can't take it
I'm racing, I'm pacing, I stand and I sit
And I'm thankful for every fan that I get
But I can't take a shit in the bathroom
Without someone standing by it
No I won't sign your autograph
You can call me an asshole
I'm glad cause

And I am
Whatever you say I am
If I wasn't, then why would I say I am?
In the papers, the news, everyday I am
Radio won't even play my jam

Cause I am
Whatever you say I am
If I wasn't, then why would I say I am?
In the papers, the news, everyday I am
I don't know it's just the way I am

They didn't have you where I come from

What's the point? The point of life? Like I've said I lead a VERY boring life. And well right now I don't see the point of getting up everyday going to class/work, coming home reading textbooks/writing papers. Only to go to bed and do it all over again. I don't see anything bright about the future. I'm very bored with my life. So until someone tells me the point of the whole thing. I say fuck it.

I don't want to be a bandage if the wound is not mine

This is quite a long post, but there's more or less interesting stuff at the end.

This was sent to me through my womenwhoridemotorcycles yahoo group, enjoy:
"We the sensible people of the United States, in an attempt to help everyone get along, restore some semblance of justice, avoid more riots, keep our nation safe, promote positive behavior, and secure the blessings of debt-free liberty to ourselves and our great-great great-grand children, hereby try one more time to ordain and establish some common sense guidelines for the terminally whiny, guilt ridden, delusional, and other liberal bed-wetters. We hold these truths to be self evident: that a whole lot of people are confused by the Bill of Rights and are so dim they require a Bill of NON-Rights."
ARTICLE I: You do not have the right to a new car, big screen TV, or any other form of wealth. More power to you if you can legally acquire them, but no one is guaranteeing anything.
ARTICLE II: You do not have the right to never be offended. This country is based on freedom, and that means freedom for everyone not just you!You may leave the room, turn the channel, express a different opinion, etc.; but the world is full of idiots, and probably always will be.
ARTICLE III: You do not have the right to be free from harm. If you stick a screwdriver in your eye, learn to be more careful, do not expect the tool manufacturer to make you and all your relatives independently wealthy.
ARTICLE IV: You do not have the right to free food and housing. Americans are the most charitable people to be found, and will gladly help anyone in need, but we are quickly growing weary of subsidizing generation after generation of professional couch potatoes who achieve nothing more than the creation of another generation of professional couch potatoes. (This one is my pet peeve..get an education and go to work....don't expect everyone else to take care of you!)
ARTICLE V: You do not have the right to free health care. That would be nice, but from the looks of public housing, we're just not interested in public health care.
ARTICLE VI: You do not have the right to physically harm other people. If you kidnap, rape, intentionally maim, or kill someone, don't be surprised if the rest of us want to see you fry in the electric chair.
ARTICLE VII: You do not have the right to the possessions of others. If you rob, cheat, or coerce away the goods or services of other citizens, don't be surprised if the rest of us get together and lock you away in a place where you still won't have the right to a big screen color TV or a life of leisure.
ARTICLE VIII: You do not have the right to a job. All of us sure want you to have a job, and will gladly help you along in hard times, but we expect you to take advantage of the opportunities of education and vocational training laid before you to make yourself useful. (AMEN!)
ARTICLE IX: You do not have the right to happiness. Being an American means that you have the right to PURSUE happiness, which by the way, is a lot easier if you are unencumbered by an over abundance of idiotic laws created by those of you who were confused by the Bill of Rights.
ARTICLE X: This is an English speaking country. We don't care where you are from, English is our language. Learn it or go back to wherever you came from! (lastly....)
ARTICLE XI: You do not have the right to change our country's history or heritage. This country was founded on the belief in God. And yet, you are given the freedom to believe in any religion, any faith, or no faith at all; with no fear of persecution. The phrase IN GOD WE TRUST is part of our heritage and history, and if you are uncomfortable with it, TOUGH!!!!

Ugh, I want a break. How sad is that? It's the 5th week of school and I'm burned out. I blame it on not having enough vacation time this summer, as well as not having a spring break week. I worked during last year's spring break, and so my spring break was the week at the end of May when we went to Chicago. I haven't had a fun vacation, of more than a day away from life since then. I know, once I get out of college and into the working world, I really won't have any of those.
I'm just longing for a day or days where I can get away from work and school stuff. That's all I did this past weekend. I worked Sat, and then came home and mowed lawns, cause I had to get them done before it rained, I was pretty damn close too, it was starting just as I finished. And then Sun I read homework all damn day. And I'm gonna have to sign off and read some more as I have my first test tomorrow night. I'm just so sick of it all. I was very tempted to just skip class today and not do anything. But then once you get away, you always have to come back. That's what I hate the most. I really hate my boring life. And yes, I know it's my choice to make it exciting or not, but I'm a pretty boring person. The most fun I've had lately, was when I went to Porky's a couple weeks ago, I loved that, I love being aroung motorcycles and riding on them. That's probably the one unboring thing about me.

Course, as much as I want to get away from school shit, I'm very scared of what comes after. I think my biggest fear, now and always, is the future. The unknown of what's gonna happen after the end of college. I always knew at the end of high school, I'd go to college, and that would prolong the unknown for 4 years, well now it's been 5, and I'm graduating in Dec and I have no damn idea what I'm gonna do after. And that just freaks me out.

It's times like this when we all need to heal

Lookit the hotties tonight

OK, so quite a few hotties on the season premiere of COPS tonight. I'm sure if you go over to Goddess' site, she'll have pics for ya. Well, that was a very exciting first segment, the officer pulls over a red camero for a cracked windshield, and as he's talking with them, a car hits this guy on a bicycle. And if you don't know it's coming, it's just BAM! and it happens, hell it's even bad if you know it's coming. In the second one, in Palm County, FL, a guy catches another guy sleeping with his wife. It sucks (I bet), that the guy got caught, but then all of them signed the release to have their faces shown on cops. WTF?
And the third one in Martin County, FL, a couple detectives get some info on a guy with crack cocaine, and you can tell he's a crack dealer, cause he's got multiple gold rings, a nice looking gold watch, gold earrings, and a few gold necklaces/chains, plus his tons of money, none of these go with his look of the Latino (I think that's the PC term) in a tank top, with a straw hat riding a bicycle. And he's got a container of rock down the front of his pants and he calls it candy, yeah right. So, they test the rock (candy) and the detective says "it tests positive for cocaine, you're candy, so I guess we can call it candy cocaine...so you're the candy cocaine man".

Second episode:
First segment: Sheriff's deputies pull a car over at a gas station, under suspicion of a drug deal, then find out the passengers don't have seatbelts, plus there's open containers in the car. And who answers their phone when they're being detained by the cops?
Hott Cops tonight: From Martin County, FL: Detective Danny Cunningham, and the K-9 guy, but they didn't give us a name
Palm Beach County, FL: the guy standing behind the black kid at the end.
Palm Springs, CA: Officer Anthony Pilutik
Chattanooga, TN: Officer Aaron Williams, Officer Derrick Pendergrass

And the Hott Cop Statuette goes to Deputy Jarrod Foster from the Palm Beach County Sheriff's Dept in Florida.
By the way, I had a hard time deciding between Officer Pilutik, Officer Pendergrass, and Deputy Foster tonight, but Deputy Foster won cause of his ink. Plus, ya can't really see much of Officer Pendergrass tonight, he was on maybe a couple seconds at the beginning of the last segment.

The concert

Well, it was an interesting evening, course when is a concert not? Let's see we had everything that a normal concert has: wierd 80s costumes, drunk people, cops, people throwing up, lots of beer spills, broken glass, lots of complaints for relocates, fights (ok, maybe not quite), tons of people looking for the smoking patio. What else is there? Oh, there was music too.
I actually didn't get the door I signed up for, I was one the north side, which is usually pretty slow, unless it's a bball game. I think I might have had 30 people at my door.
And of course the drunks were fun to watch, after the opening act, the line to the beer stand or the id bracelets (I couldn't quite tell which it was), was pretty long. And then about halfway through the line to the ATM was long, I was thinking: now that they spent all their money on beer, they had to go get more. I was surprised the ATM didn't run out of money, someone must have come earlier and stocked that thing. Most of the drunks were just walking drunk, I did have a few entertaining ones. One guy had beers in both hands, stopped and asked a guy to help him with the door, the guy kinda looked at him, so the dude with beer, walks right up to the wall, touches it and then walks away. I was thinking, maybe you should just put those beers down and walk away. I had one chick that left (we have a policy that if you leave, you can't come back in, unless you're at the smoking patio, then you're not really leaving), and she tried to come back, I had to tell her a couple times she couldn't come in (no sympathy from me, even though she was crying), finally a couple of her friends see her and come out and start chatting with her. Apparently she didn't have her ID (cause it was with her BF), and she was 21, yeah good reason to cry.
We also had one woman (I didn't actually see this), who had 2 full beers (the cups are probably about 8 oz each) and fell down, spilling both of them, but just jumped right back up and got some more, that was probably my biggest beer spill. We had some huge spill outside the women's restroom, as well as tons inside. I heard someone threw up in one of the women's rest rooms, and there apparently was quite a bit of it. I'm guessing it was from a lady I saw, that kept covering her mouth, and I kept thinking, just go to the rest room, I really don't wanna see this, but finally she went back inside.
I also had a lady that claimed some guy hit her, that got the DPS officers and a supervisor to come to my door and chat with her, I found out later the paramedics looked at her. I had lots of people looking for the smoking patio, and after I told them, every single person asked how far, as if it would have made a difference. But I guess they thought since I was at a door, I should let them smoke, sure I could do that, but then they wouldn't be coming back in. We also had one of the beer signs break and had glass on the floor. It first came through as a broken glass, and I was trying to figure out where that would have come from since the concessions people don't give the glass bottles (for smirnoff and other stuff) to the patrons, and no one was let in with glass.
But I was surprised how quickly everyone left afterwards. Course I haven't worked a concert since the Christian thing we had (not that that was really a concert) and Slipknot before that, and that was April, so yeah it's been awhile. So the projected time for us to be done was 11:30, and that was pretty much on time. I got home at 11:45, packed my bag for today (since I came straight from class to work last night), and went to bed. And then I woke up 5 minutes before my bus and I'm slowly fully waking up now. I figured we wouldn't get done until after midnight last night.
Oh, and I almost forgot to mention all the cute guys. We had some nice looking sheriff's deputies, though I only saw them once, when I was going up to my door, saw their car a couple times. The DPS officers, one of them was cute. Older guys for the city cops. And tons of yummy looking concert goers.
Oh, and some of the costumes, I guess they decided since most of the music was 80s stuff, they should dress in 80s wear. They weren't that bad, but I know we had at least 3 guys with mullet wigs, one guy had long brown hair on the bottom and a short blond wig on top, pair that with his bleached jeans and vest, and black cowboy boots, you couldn't miss him.
I haven't quite figured out why people will pay $77 for tickets, and god knows how much for beer, and of course most everyone had to go for a smoke at least 5 times throughout the night, I was wondering how much they were missing between going out for a smoke, and getting beer.

Fun from Sodapop

Yep, Sodapop stuck another meme on her site, and as well know I love doing them, so here ya go:
I get 5 words and I have to post what the first thought is for each word, that enters my mind. So here we go.
military: hott guys, yummy uniforms
accountability: I have no idea what this means (second thought: my guess accountable for something, I'm pretty good at that.)
anger: not something I handle well
diet: I don't diet, I eat what I want when I want, and I still wiegh 120lbs
smoke: can't stand it, can't breathe it, hate it.

Hope that will hold you all until I'm awake enough to post about work later. It's wierd, I'm so nervous about it even though I know there's no need to be nervous, maybe it's just cause I've worked in about a month (at the center). I had to swap my jeans 4 times today, cause we have to wear jeans for concerts. And I'm very nervous about supper, cause I really don't have that much time to eat anything, so I packed some granola bars that I hope will keep me awake. Even though I know that once people start coming in the doors, I won't need anything to keep me awake, I'll be awake till I leave, and then quite a bit after I get home, even when I need to sleep.
Hope everyone else has a fun and exciting night.

Was I strong?

Well, this week will be interesting. Let's see I'm still way behind on my criminal justice readings, and I still don't understand my philosophy class. So, I've spent at least 3 hours last night and 4 hours today trying to get caught up on my reading (I always used to think I was a fast reader, course it makes a big difference if it's a book for fun or if it's a textbook, no matter how interesting that textbook is), and I finally got the 2 chapters for today read, but I still have other previous chapters in the books I haven't read. And tonight after I get home after 8:30, I get to write a paper for my philosophy class, ah crap, just remembered I'm supposed to read a chapter for my Enviro Soc class tomorrow. And tomorrow, I have to do all my reading and homework for Fri as well as Thurs, good thing I only have 1 class Thurs. Then Thurs, I'm working the Def Leppard/Journey concert, that will get me home well after midnight (even though the projected end time is 11:30, I've been working concerts for years, I know I won't be done til midnight). So, it'll be straight to bed after getting home from that. And Fri will be a normal day. I'll probably have to mow lawns that afternoon. Lucky me. Oh, and then I signed up to work volleyball on Sat, so yeah. My weekend will be full of work and homework. I hate that.

So, Sunday wasn't too bad. Got to my aunt's around noon, my cousin, that I haven't seen in 2 years was there, I decided that if he was there, I was gonna be there. I just hate that everyone keeps asking me what I'm gonna do after I graduate in December, NO I DON'T KNOW!!! It's hard following a brother that knew exactly what he wanted when he started college, got out and 4 yrs and had a job already lined up when he got out. And then with my change in views on what I want to do, well that doesn't make it any easier. There was a time, that I knew exactly what I wanted to be (a cop), but shit changed and that's not gonna happen anymore. Course, if I could be my dream (an artist), life would be good, but life doesn't like me.

I'm also very much panicking about my classes, I haven't quite decided if they're harder than I thought, if I'm just freaked cause this is my last semester or what.
Environmental Sociology: I'm taking this to fill in extra Soc courses for my major. But, I really have no interest in enviro soc, so it's a lot of reading on something I'm not entirely caring about. Though it is interesting to listen to other people talk on the subject. But, I feel really lost in that class.
Social Psychology: This I'm taking to fulfill a requirement for my Criminal Justice major, it's proabably my easiest class. Plus it's filed under the psych dept, I took a social psych that was considered a soc class, and I've taken an intro to psych class, so it kinda overlaps on those two. I'm just annoyed that I had to spend $62 for a clicker thing for that class, it's supposed to be easier for the profs for quizzes, my prof was trying real hard to sell it, saying we could use it for the rest of our time at college, FYI: this is my last semester, just let me write my answers down on paper.
Free Will, Fate, and Moral Responsibility: Yeah, I don't understand this class, I think it will be my hardest. Course philosophy classes seem to be hard for me anyway. I signed up for this when I was considering a minor in philosophy (cause I screwed up, I really don't even like phil, i just thought you had to take 201 before 230, so then after those 2 and a required other 300-400 level class I already had 3, and you only need 5 for a minor), but I decided that 2 phil classes in one semester was too much, so this one is just here. It sounded pretty interesting, I'm just having the hardest time getting it. We alreayd had one paper turned in for it, and as we were discussing that paper, I realized I did it wrong.
Police and Society: this is for my CJ major, I wanted to take it, cause it sounded interesting. It's new this semester. It's actually pretty interesting I haven't been bored with it yet.
Criminology: This is also for my CJ major, I'm just taking it cause it also sounds fun and this is the first time I could get in.

So, yeah, I'm lost in the enviro soc and phil class, and the others are ok, it just seems like a lot.

there's never a wish better than this

Ah, another exciting day in the life of me. I won't take any offense if you don't consider it exciting, hell it's pretty hard for me to consider it exciting, CAUSE IT'S NOT EVEN CLOSE.
Let's see, slacked off this morning, walked to a local bakery and bough $14 worth of pastries, yummy shit, that may last me a couple days. Slacked off a little more, started some intriguing reading for my criminology class.
I'm so sick of my parents calling me and deciding that I'm gonna rearrange my schedule to do something for them. It's so annoying. My dad did that on Wed night, he's trying to hook up a wireless connection at the rental property, and was having troubles with it, so he asked me to bring the laptop over to help. That was on Sat, and then he found out we had to physically connect to the modem to figure out the prob, so he asks me when is good for me, but doesn't tell me if we're gonna do it then, or give me a time. So, on Wed, about 5:30, he calls me up and tells me I'm helping him with the modem (like I don't have other things I'm trying to do, I'm already behind on my reading, cause I slacked off last weekend, and well I was trying to get some other shit done for the next day), so I went over there, found out I needed to install the modem on my comp, but had to go get my CD drive (cause it's external, my laptop's nice and thin), and of course my CD drive doesn't always like to work, and of course this would be one of those times. And then today, he calls me at 8:30, which was OK cause I was already up and doing shit, but I would have been really pissed if the phone woke me up. I'm doing this (more or less) voluntarily, god forbid you work on my schedule, when I'm fully awake and dressed. And then this afternoon, he told me I was going to the grocery store with him, this is actually not too bad, cause he always buys me food when we go grocery shopping, but I had just started my reading, and it's kinda hard to get in the mood to read boring textbooks, so when I'm in the mood I like to finish what I have to read. And then, I got a nice shower walking home, cause I was carrying 5 bags (him 2 and a 12 pack of pop), and it was pouring. That wasn't too bad cause after we got unloaded, I went back out and soaked up the rain. Now if you know me, you know I love the rain, I've been kinda bummed this season, cause it's been raining a lot at night when I can't enjoy it, so I'm taking every chance I can get. And on with the boringness of my day, ate aupper, watched TV, and came back home to read my email. Where I was pleasantly surprised. I got a nice comforting email from my friend, Patch.
I met Patch, I believe when I was in middle school, that's about 10 yrs ago now (where did the time go?), through AOL instant messenger, and we've obviously swapped tons of IM's, and emails, and I've had a couple really nice phone calls with him. I wouldn't really know what to call our relationship, just that I know it's more than friendship. Anyways, he keeps telling me that he's gonna come and visit me, but it seems like I keep getting my hopes up, only to be disappointed yet again (I've gotten very used to disappointment, though not always from him, actually some of the cops I know started it, sadly). Sometimes I wish he would just drop everything and come, but as we all know, there's shit that gets in the way. So, anyway in this email he told me he might be able to make the trip. And I really wanna believe him, but...
And tomorrow, I get to run away and spend the day with my extended family. Not a bad thing, but I have to spend 4 hrs in the car with my parents, 2 hrs each way. Not so much the most fun in the world. If I pick the right music, we should be ok.

I'm so afraid to love you, more afraid to lose

Why do people believe that because I'm sitting next to them, they have to look at me? I'm glad I'm so interesting to you people, when you should be paying attention to class. Cause God forbid we pay attention to the professor. I don't mind if my screen saver is up, cause that's kinda the point of my screen saver, it's not for me to stare at, I know what's in it.
Which brings me to another point, why do people not want their laptops to fall asleep while they're in class? It's actually good for the computer. See, the whole point of a screen saver is so, what's on your screen doesn't get imprinted on the screen, and the whole point of a computer falling asleep/hibernating/going into standby is for it to save power, which is good. Most likely, you're computer's running on battery power so its conserving its power. But oh no, if that screen goes blank it's very very bad.