I thought love was only true in fairy tales

So I work both Men's and Women's games today. And it's fucking cold, I believe it was about 14 degrees, but with the wind felt like 7 or 8. Can you guess how many idiots (most of them students) that came up to the door in little less than a sweatshirt? They never learn. Thankfully, not many of them complained about the cold, I probably would have blown up at them. I knew it was cold, I was standing there freezing (cause we don't get more than a light windbreaker to wear) and I was at the north doors (where the wind was coming from), I couldn't feel my fingers or toes by the time the game started at 1 (we opened the doors at noon), and I had gloves on. That sucked. Today, my boss said it was going to be the biggest game of the year, so every seat was reserved (the students usually have a student section where they can sit wherever). I only had 3 people come to me with the regular student ticket, one was a guy and his girlfriend, who just wanted to be an ass cause he had his tickets, the other was oblivious that he needed a different ticket.
And some idiot decided to come to the game drunk. Apparently someone noticed him in the Men's bathroom and he was arrested by the city cops. Now here's the weird thing, he was given the choice between going home, or being arrested, and he choose to be arrested. Idiot. It's gotta really suck, because he had to be transported to the county jail instead of staying in the city. Now, I don't know how much bail is for public intox, but I'm pretty sure it's not too cheap, and (I'm not positive on this either) it's the weekend, so he's probably there til Monday morning. I don't understand stupid people. But on the plus side, the officers were waiting at my door with the guy, so I got to oogle them while they were waiting for a car to pick him up.
So, I went grocery shopping after I got done at the game, and then came home. Well my dad calls me to ask how my snow shoveling was going. I'm kinda pissed at him right now. I froze at work, I froze walking home from work, and even though I just had some lasagna I'm STILL FUCKING COLD. I have to go back to the women's game tonight, if you think I'm gonna go out in the cold and shovel snow, just to get all sweaty and go back to the game all sweaty you're nuts.
Goddess has already gotten an earful on this subject, so I thought I'd share some of it with you all. Again I'm bummed about being single. It started last night, when I was bummed about not having a pillow, and that led me to thinking about Patch, cause he used to "let" me use his chest as a pillow. Then this morning, I woke up at about 5:30, I couldn't stick my music on, because my alarm was set to go off at 6:15, so I just kinda dozed. Well I started dreaming about dream guy. So then I woke up to real life, where I can't have dream guy and am very single. And I had a comment from Patch on my MSN site, and that got me bummed because he said he was gonna write about his cross country trip. Now I may or may not have said this before but, Patch keeps telling me he's gonna visit me. The last time I talked to him, he told me next time he went on a trip he'd come visit me. Well, I talked to him once after that and he said he was in some state, but didn't say at all that he was coming to visit me. And then in this comment, he said he was still working on it. Now, I really do like him (don't know if it's more) but I am so sick of that promise. Course he knows, all he has to say is "I'm gonna come meet you some time" and my heart will melt and we'll chat again. I can't do that. That's why I stopped talking to him before, and he says that (more or less as one of the first things) in this comment, and I couldn't talk to him. I miss him dreadfully, but I've also gotten used to broken promises from guys, and I know I shouldn't be used to that, I shouldn't give people that edge. I'm so sick of having guys promise me stuff and never deliver. I was hoping that nothing would happen to make me more bummed about being single. Thankfully, nothing has YET.

This is how you remind me

I miss the guy that lets me use his chest as a pillow. I miss the guy that cuddles with me when I need a cuddle. I miss our 'chats'. I miss the phone calls. I miss my Patch.

you opened up her head with a saw and poked around

UGH! You know what I hate the most about The Unit? That they always leave shit hanging. Like last week, the Col's wife got drunk or passed out on drugs, and one of the guys' wives took the blame and said she was driving. And then the cops tried to get her to admit she was driving erratically that made another vehicle drive off the road and into a ditch, which put the driver in the hospital. And the guy (Mac) was telling his wife, that the Col's wife needed to step up, and they just leave it hanging.
This week it was about one of the guys (Bob) who was lost in the middle of nowhere and had to rely on his survival skills, and of course it leaves off with them being rescued (found) by a truck. I'm guessing next week, it won't even have anything about if Bob was fully recovered or not.

And since, most of you suck when I ask for advice, no, I'm not pissed at you, mostly at my parents, as always. I've decided I'm just going to not go on this vacation. I'd rather earn my money, and I made a commitment, and I very much hate it when people go back on their commitments, if they have the choice. I will be here, "enjoying" the nice winter weather of the midwest, and I will not complain about getting a vacation. At least not to my parents.

And I'm excited to work tonight, I have no idea why. Though I did find out I'm not working as long as I thought I was (cause I'm subbing for someone else, and I thought I was long doors instead of short).

Also, I will complain AGAIN, about how much I hate being single. Goddess asked me why it was getting too me so much lately. And I don't really know. I just know that it's really putting me in the dumps. I think part of it is that I've decided not to stay in contact with my friend in AZ because I'm so sick of him breaking promises. And I know he is one of the few people that knows my deep dark secrets, so it sucks that I'm losing that. But I think it is a good choice, and will help me move along in other ways.
I'm also having a rough time with school and responsibilities and stuff. The past few days I've just wanted to sleep/stay in bed, I have no desire to get out and go to work/class, but I know i have to, so I drag my ass out and do it. Thankfully, I get next week off from classes, yeah I'm working a little more, but I welcome that. I like my job (both of them). And sometimes it seems I can destress from life at my job.
And speaking of my job, I have to run off and get ready.

All is calm and the world is still asleep

It's me complaining about being single AGAIN, that and guys.
So there's this guy I like (OK, there's a lot of guys I like), but he's got a girlfriend, so what does it mean that I secretly want them to break up so I can have a shot at him? This is actually very weird, because I used to be able to say to people that I wouldn't do anything to mess up the relationships of the guys I like.
And speaking of guys, there's a friend of mine that I met online awhile ago, well he keeps telling me he's gonna come visit me, he started talking about it last winter, and said he'd come visit before school started back again, that didn't happen. Then he said he'd visit this summer, also didn't happen. Then he kept saying he had to get his vehicle fixed so he could come visit me. Then about 3 weeks ago, he told me I should move on, not that I'm saying no to any other guys that ask me out (as if I'd get lucky and a guy would ask me out, or even be interested in me). And then yesterday, he got online, and we chatted for a few minutes, and he told me he was in NC, and that he just wanted to say hi. No mention of coming here to visit me or anything (and he knows I want him to), last time we chatted he said next time he went on a trip he would come visit me.
So, what do you think I should say to him? And am I just holding on to something that's never gonna happen? Should I get rid of all hope that he'll actually come?
I do wish I had someone to cuddle with, that would be especially nice now cause it's gonna get cold soon, and I'm not really just waiting for him (as I said up there), I don't have any guys that are waiting to see if this guy's gonna come visit me before they can make a move.

Sorry, about complaining about this so much people, but I am really getting sick of being single. I see people with gf's/bf's on campus and I get so jealous. I hate seeing it in my neighborhood, and I really hate seeing the guys I like that have someone. I'm so sick of being single.

there's never a wish better than this

Ah, another exciting day in the life of me. I won't take any offense if you don't consider it exciting, hell it's pretty hard for me to consider it exciting, CAUSE IT'S NOT EVEN CLOSE.
Let's see, slacked off this morning, walked to a local bakery and bough $14 worth of pastries, yummy shit, that may last me a couple days. Slacked off a little more, started some intriguing reading for my criminology class.
I'm so sick of my parents calling me and deciding that I'm gonna rearrange my schedule to do something for them. It's so annoying. My dad did that on Wed night, he's trying to hook up a wireless connection at the rental property, and was having troubles with it, so he asked me to bring the laptop over to help. That was on Sat, and then he found out we had to physically connect to the modem to figure out the prob, so he asks me when is good for me, but doesn't tell me if we're gonna do it then, or give me a time. So, on Wed, about 5:30, he calls me up and tells me I'm helping him with the modem (like I don't have other things I'm trying to do, I'm already behind on my reading, cause I slacked off last weekend, and well I was trying to get some other shit done for the next day), so I went over there, found out I needed to install the modem on my comp, but had to go get my CD drive (cause it's external, my laptop's nice and thin), and of course my CD drive doesn't always like to work, and of course this would be one of those times. And then today, he calls me at 8:30, which was OK cause I was already up and doing shit, but I would have been really pissed if the phone woke me up. I'm doing this (more or less) voluntarily, god forbid you work on my schedule, when I'm fully awake and dressed. And then this afternoon, he told me I was going to the grocery store with him, this is actually not too bad, cause he always buys me food when we go grocery shopping, but I had just started my reading, and it's kinda hard to get in the mood to read boring textbooks, so when I'm in the mood I like to finish what I have to read. And then, I got a nice shower walking home, cause I was carrying 5 bags (him 2 and a 12 pack of pop), and it was pouring. That wasn't too bad cause after we got unloaded, I went back out and soaked up the rain. Now if you know me, you know I love the rain, I've been kinda bummed this season, cause it's been raining a lot at night when I can't enjoy it, so I'm taking every chance I can get. And on with the boringness of my day, ate aupper, watched TV, and came back home to read my email. Where I was pleasantly surprised. I got a nice comforting email from my friend, Patch.
I met Patch, I believe when I was in middle school, that's about 10 yrs ago now (where did the time go?), through AOL instant messenger, and we've obviously swapped tons of IM's, and emails, and I've had a couple really nice phone calls with him. I wouldn't really know what to call our relationship, just that I know it's more than friendship. Anyways, he keeps telling me that he's gonna come and visit me, but it seems like I keep getting my hopes up, only to be disappointed yet again (I've gotten very used to disappointment, though not always from him, actually some of the cops I know started it, sadly). Sometimes I wish he would just drop everything and come, but as we all know, there's shit that gets in the way. So, anyway in this email he told me he might be able to make the trip. And I really wanna believe him, but...
And tomorrow, I get to run away and spend the day with my extended family. Not a bad thing, but I have to spend 4 hrs in the car with my parents, 2 hrs each way. Not so much the most fun in the world. If I pick the right music, we should be ok.