I got a bad desire

So, I was mowing the lawns today, and this car drives by with his base way up and so I yelled at him (cause that's what I do, I don't think the rest of the world needs to hear someone else's music, though my dad says I shouldn't yell at them, I should just not listen, yeah, when a bass/music is up that loud, there's no way you can't listen, plus I could hear it over the mower), and the guy looks at me. About a min or so later he comes back turns the corner and flicks me off, to which I retaliate with my middle finger (cause that's what I do, I don't back down). And he drove off, I kept waiting for him to come back again, maybe kinda hoping too, cause I hardly ever back down, gets me in trouble (insert eyes rolling smiley face here). Anyways, I finished the one lawn and moved on to ours. So maybe about 15 or 20 minutes passes, and I'm mowing and here comes this guy walking toward me (No, I wasn't freaked, very little freaks me out, actually I said come on babe (yeah I talk like that inside my head), you know you want some) and he apologizes. So, not what I was expecting, he said it's cause he is ornery. I only regret I didn't say he was cute (kinda looked like Kenny Chesney) and ask him his name. I think the reason he came by (and I could be wrong, happens), is that he didn't expect me to retaliate, that or he got home and vented to a roommate, or someone and they said he should go apologize. See, I know why I'm single, I drive guys away, I'm too set in my ways/strong for a guy, or I don't say shit.
I really hate it when people surprise me.

Kiss my eyes

So, as things get started, I have to complain about people (Cause that's what I do best). On Tuesdays and Thursdays I have a 2.5 hr break in between work and class, so I've taken to (in the week and a half of classes I've had) sitting in the commons area of the Physics buildings (which they stuck in a doorway, so I can't sit and watch people coming in anymore), and people really can't walk lightly through there. In the 2 and a half hours I was there, there were at least 5 people (walking through, not sitting down, or in the mad mob to get to class), that walked like elephants. Like I really need to know that you're coming the moment your ass gets in the door. I don't think so.
And then there's the people who don't know how to throw away their Daily. The Daily is the campus paper, and most likely its in every building in campus. Well, it seems, that all students (yes, I know, not all students do this), pick up a paper, read it, and then throw it on the floor and go about their business, or they leave it on the table/desk/whatever. And then they walk away. Because obviously their mother works at the university. I've had that problem at the library as well, people leave lights on (on the separate carrels where student sit and do homework), and leave their chairs out. Now, I'm not gonna complain about them leaving books, out, cause I'm paid to put them away, and we'd rather they did this, cause most don't put them away right.
And, I know I've mentioned this before but I love Tuesdays, Wednesdays, and Thursdays on campus. Tuesdays and Thursdays, Airforce, and Navy have to dress in uniforms, and Wednesdays, Army has to dress in uniform. I never get tired of seeing those. Unfortunately I don't have any of those unis in my classes. Sigh.
Another thing, see if I get any commentary on this, do guys worry about how they look? Cause you know they generally look pretty damn good in their jeans and shirts. I was watching guys yesterday during my break, and I'm always trying to watch people in my classes (yes, I love watching people), and we all know my 9AM class instructor is hott.
And speaking of my 9AM class, there's this one guy that has shown up twice to the class, the first day and today. I've had this guy in one of my classes last semester, he plays football (which is no excuse, cause there's 2 other football players in this class, and they've been there everyday), and he'd always show up late to that class as well. He's shown up this semester at 9:30, class is 30 minutes over with 20 minutes left, why the hell even bother to come? Especially since he's already missed a quiz and a couple attendance days. I hate it when some people just half ass classes, and then because they're late the last seat is in the front of the room and so they disrupt the whole class to get to that seat.
Why are there so many good looking guys on this campus and I'm still single? I'm getting real sick of being single. Is there something wrong with me?

My love will follow you everywhere.

Oh, I had the wierdest, freaky dream last night. Or at least it seemed really freaky and wierd when I woke up from it.
I was me, later in life, and I found a man I liked, and of course did those fun things that couples do, and then I was having an argument with him, and he left and then the door opened, and suddenly I was reading about this chick that had been kidnapped and it had been so long without this person (the me of before) that people had moved on with their lives, and it ended that this person, girl, was saying that she hoped she could reach them somehow. Very wierd, but I could see myself lying on a couch and reading this story that was really about me. And then I woke up very suddenly, very freaked out, and very scared. I remember thinking I was gonna be kidnapped like the me in the dream, and I remember lying there and looking all over my room, I was so freaked, I even unplugged my cell phone and stuck it in bed with me, as if it would really happen. I remember lying there, I have no idea how long, and just staring into the darkness.

A cannonball into the water

OK, this is gonna be a long post, but just cause I'm taking some old meme's from my other blog and sticking them on here. This first one I stole from Sodapop today.
The MeMe of Three:

Things that scare me:
spiders
the unknown
losing my friends

People who make me laugh:
Karli
Goddess
my coworkers

Things I hate the most:
feeling like I don't know what's going on
the fact that I'm single
not being able to go on as many rides as I want

Things I don’t understand:
my parents, someday maybe
anything to do with HTML or coding of any kind
life, but I'm learning

Things I am doing right now:
drinking vault
listening to Wherever I May Roam by Metallica
poking my pig

Things I want to do before I die:
fall in love
figure out what i'm doing with my life
be happy

Things I can do:
memorize license plate numbers
create some pretty good art
recognize songs I know within 25 seconds of them starting

Ways to describe my personality:
fun-loving
helpful
sarcastic

Things I can’t do:
Accounting 285
cry openly
figure out men

Things I think you should listen to:
Rush - Aly & AJ
Land of Confusion - Disturbed
Never Again – Nickelback

Things you should never listen to:
anything by Justin Timberlake
people arguing
other people trying to convince you of something, if you need convincing, chances are you don't really want it

Things I’d like to learn:
how to control my temper, i'm getting better at it
how to ride/drive a motorcycle
how not to think about myself

Favorite foods:
stuffed crust pizza
croissants
Napolean pastries

Beverages I drink regularly:
Vault
Mountain Dew
Coke

TV shows I watched as a kid:
Pickett Fences
Mask
Mission: Impossible


Have you . . .
( ) Smoked a cigarette
( ) Crashed a friend’s car
( ) Stolen a car
(x) Been in love
( ) Been dumped
( ) Been fired
( ) Been in a fist fight
(x) Had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back
( ) Been arrested
( ) Gone on a blind date
( ) Seen someone die
( ) Been to Canada
( ) Been to Mexico
(x) Been on a plane
( ) Set a part of yourself on fire
( ) Been skiing
(x) Met someone from the Internet
(x) Been to a concert
( ) Taken painkillers
(x) Love someone or miss someone right now
(x) Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
(x) Made a snow angel
( ) Had a tea party, pretend or otherwise
( ) Flown a kite
(x) Built a sand castle
(x) Gone puddle jumping
(x) Played dress up
(x) Jumped into a pile of leaves
(x) Gone sledding
(x) Been lonely
( ) Used a fake ID
(x) Watched the sun set
( ) Felt an earthquake
( ) Slept beneath the stars
(x) Been tickled
( ) Been robbed
(x) Been misunderstood
( ) Petted a reindeer/goat/kangaroo OR jackalope
(x) Won a contest
( ) Run a red light/stop sign.
( ) Been suspended from school
(x) Been in a car crash?
(x) Had braces
(x) Felt like an outcast/third person?
(x) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) Had déjà vu
(x) Danced in the moonlight
(x) Liked the way you looked
( ) Witnessed a crime
(x) Questioned your heart
( ) Been obsessed with post-it notes
(x) Squished mud through your bare feet.
(x) Been lost
(x) Been on the opposite side of the country - I live in the middle of the country, but I've been to DC and FL, so I'm counting those
(x)Swam in the ocean
(x)Felt like dying
(x) Cried yourself to sleep
( ) Played cops and robbers
( ) Recently colored with crayons
( ) Sang karaoke
( ) Paid for a meal with only coins
( ) Made prank phone calls.
(x) Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose?
(x) Caught a snowflake on your tongue
(x) Danced in the rain.
(x) Written a letter to Santa Claus
( ) Been kissed under the mistletoe.
( ) Watched the sun rise with someone you care about.
(x) Blown bubbles.
( ) Made a bonfire on the beach, at the lake?
( ) Crashed a party
(x) Gone roller-skating
( ) Had a wish come true
( ) Jumped off a bridge

1. What time is it? 11:58 Central
2. What is your name? Wendy
3. Any nick names? weinkermeyer, weink, Wendell
4. Mother’s name? Sharon
5. Dr. Pepper or whiskey? neither, Vault
6. Body piercing? Ears
7. How much do you love your job? Enough
8. Favorite vacation spot? Washington DC, or Okoboji, IA
9. Tattoos? three <--there wasn't a nine, so I added it
10. Ever been to Africa? Nope
11. Ever steal any traffic signs? Nope
12. Ever been in a car accident? Yes
13. A, B, C, D, DD cup size? None of your business
14. 2 Door or 4 Door? 2-door, preferably no doors—motorcycle
15. Favorite pie? I don't know, too many to choose from
16. Favorite number? does it matter?
17. Favorite movie? right now or ever? Semper Fi (ever) and Con Air (right now)
18. Favorite holiday? USMC birthday
19. Favorite food? Again, too much to choose from
20. Favorite day of the week? Thursday, I get my Marine Newsletter
21. Favorite brand of body soap? Whatever smells good, I think I use Lever 2000, I don't look at the bottle
22. Favorite TV show? COPS
23. Toothpaste? Whatever works, I believe I'm using Crest
24. Favorite smell? The air before/after it rains
25. What do you do to relax? walk and listen to music
26. Message to your friends reading this? Enjoy
28. What do you do when you are bored? sure the net, watch TV, eat
29. What do you enjoy receiving? motorcycle rides

5 Things in My Refrigerator: Vault bagels mayonnaise pudding juice
5 Things in My Closet: clothes stuffed animals motorcycle helmet extra bed clothes 4-H ribbons
5 Things in My Purse (I don't have 5 things in my purse): Discman headphones cell phone sunglasses
5 Things in My Car (I don't have a car ) :

I AM: stubborn
I WANT: someone to give me a shoulder massage
I WISH: old guys would stop hitting on me
I HATE: stupid people
I MISS: childhood
I FEAR: car accidents
I HEAR: the wind in the trees on a still day
I WONDER: why things happen to people
I REGRET: not saying my true feelings to people
I AM NOT: a typical girl
I DANCE: never
I SING: with songs when I'm alone
I CRY: when things become too much
I AM NOT ALWAYS: shy
I MAKE WITH MY HANDS: my art
I WRITE: poetry (sometimes)
I CONFUSE: my feelings
I NEED: a vacation.
I SHOULD: trust my intuition
I START: walking when life gets too hard
I FINISH: things at the last minute

List up to 10 things you want to say to 10 different people. Do not name the people and do not confirm or deny any “comment speculation.”
1. I miss our talks.
2. Back off, and let me live my life.
3. I really like you.
4. I just wanna hug you and make it all better *hug*
5. How can I trust you when you make promises and never follow through?
6. Is your offer still good? I wanna learn to drive.
7. I need to talk to you. I NEED your help. Talk to me.
8. There is so much I want to tell you, wanted to tell you ever since more or less I met you.
9. Will you be the one person that never ignores me?
10. You bitch! How dare you do that to me. Some day this is gonna come back and bite you in the ass, and I will be on the sidelines laughing.

A – Available? always
A – Age: 23
A – Annoyance: Stupid people

B – Best Friend?: Karli,
B – Bar: Been there, done that
B – Birthday? July 2nd

C – Crush: Dream guy across the street, David Boreanaz, Michael Vartan, and of course cops,
C – Car (truck): '67 Chevrolet Stingray
C – Cat: Had one once, now she's gone, love my panther though

D – Dead Pets Name: Guinea pigs-Miss Piggy, JC; hamsters- Stripe, Caramel; gerbils-Simon, Felix; cat-Smokey
D – Dads Name: Don
D – Dog: Want one: German Shepherd, named Joey

E – Easiest person to talk to: Karli, or Patch
E – Eggs: scrambled, over easy, hard boiled
E – Email: wish I got more

F – Favorite color?: not sure at the moment how about blue?
F – Food: Not possible to pick just one kind, if you know me, you know I love just about any kind
F – Foreign Slang: it's foreign

G – Gummy Bears or Worms?: you want a gummy bear, it's warm cause it's been in my pocket all day, I prefer worms
G – God: might exist, not sure
G – Good Times: dancing in the rain, riding on a motorcycle, hanging out with friends

H – Hair Color: brown
H – Height: 5'8" maybe
H – Happy: maybe

I – Ice Cream: yummy
I – Instrument: none, I listen to instruments
I – Idol: NA

J – Jewelry: a ring: a white gold band, a necklace: Claddaugh cross, bracelet
J – Job: Iowa State Center, PSRR
J – Jokes: they're funny

K – Kids: scary
K – Karate: Kid
K – Kung Fu: Everybody was Kung Fu fighting...

L – Love: I've heard it exists
L – Longest Car Ride: Chicago, 6 hrs
L – Longest Relationship: NA

M – Milk Flavor: chocolate
M – Mothers Name: Sharon
M – Movie Last Watched: Sneakers

N – Number of Siblings: 1
N – Northern or Southern: southern, warm weather and water to swim in
N – Name: Wendy

O – One Wish: my secret
O – One Phobia?: also, my secret
O – Otter Pop: is that what they call it when they shove a stick up an otter's butt

P – Parents: 2
P – Part of your appearance you like best: my ink
P – Part of your Personality you like best: my humor

Q – Quick or Slow?: depends on what you're talking about

R – Reason to smile: warm weather's coming, bikes will be out
R – Reality TV Show: Cops, Amazing Race
R – Right or Left: right

S – Song Last Heard: Straight out of line - Godsmack
S – Season: summer
S – Sex: F, probably not what you were asking, too bad ;)

T – Time you woke up: 9:49AM
T – Time Now: 12:10 PM
T – Time for bed: after my homework's done

U – Unknown Fact about me: If I told you, it wouldn't be unknown
U – Unicorns: are neat
U – You are?: here, where are you?

V – Vegetable you hate: asparagus
V – Vegetable you love: corn, not big on veggies
V – View on Politics: right smack in the middle

W – Worst Habits: HAH Like I'm gonna tell you
W – whos a whore: Not anyone I know
W – Weight: 120 and holding strong

X – X-Rays: had them through dentist and when I had my kidney stone
X – X-Rated: bad movies
X - ??

Y – Year you were born: 1983
Y – Year it is now: 2006
Y – Yellow? smiley face, too bright and perky for my tastes

Z – Zoo Animal: Lion
Z – Zodiac: cancer
Z – Zoolander? funny movie

I just think it's a nice place to relax

I was in my element tonight. Becki and I went to Porky's in DM tonight. It's a diner where bikers go, park their bikes chat and drink, so after hanging out there for awhile, Becki's friend, Dale, met us, as well as Becki's cousin, Paul. Then Paul and Dale took us over to Trophies, and we hung out there for awhile where we met up with a friend of Dale's, Randy, then Becki and I rode with Randy and Dale over to The Jungle Room where we hung out with more bikers and listened to karaoke.
I really enjoyed the short tiny rides, and hanging out at Trophies and Porky's. I love going on rides with large groups of bikers (15 or more bikes), and then getting together and just hanging out. I didn't quite enjoy the bar (the Jungle Room) that much, but just cause there was cigarette smoke, and lots of noise, so you really can't hear each other talk. But I love Porky's and Trophies.

Stand your ground when everyone's giving in

On one of my other blogs I was telling a friend he needed to get away from life. Well, I had my therapy in that form last night. Now I've been on 4 motorcycle rides this season, Yes it's very sad and not good enough and I'm dying inside because of it. Karli's mom, Becki, invited me to go to Bike Night in Baxter last night. So, we went, I had a liquid supper of a Mike's Cold Hard Cranberry Lemonade (sounds kinda gross, but it's not too bad), stuck around there chatting with Becki's friend, Dale. Then we left about 10, and Dale took me on a little 8 mile ride. I've decided I don't mind riding at night, except it was a little chilly in my tank top, but hell if I was gonna complain. I'm also glad I had a helmet this year (I did this same thing last year, it was a little bit earlier, before Sturgis, so it was warmer then), it nicely protected me from the breeze, which is always stronger when you're riding.
So, I read in the paper, Tuesday, I believe, that Joe Rosenthal died, that's the guy that took the famous picture of the flag raising on Iwo Jima.
Also, Pluto is no longer considered a planet, that's right, now it's only a star.

I was blown away

So, as I've stated before, at this time of year my family usually goes up to a time-share condo we have for a week as a last vacation of the summer. But because school's starting on Mon, and the week of the condo this week starts today, obviously the schedules don't mesh. So, my brother and father left to go there today, and my consolation prize was to spend the weekend doing stuff with my mother. Lucky me (much sarcasm there). If you know me, you know my mother and I, well, there's some kind of rift there, and we really don't get along too much. Don't get me wrong, we've had our moments, but she has this great way of talking about shit I don't wanna talk about, and then she likes to put me down as well. So, you can bet I was less than excited to do this.
Well, today, we went to a tea room here in town, and then shopped around it afterward. And then we went to a tiny town about 5 miles north. Which I didn't really wanna do (but I'll let you in on a little secret: it was fun). Anyways, a couple years ago, 3 consignment shops moved into the downtown area here, and we've been saying we should go in and look in them. Well, I suggested we do that, and she said "I've been to the one on _____ and it's not very interesting", guess that means, I won't be interested in it. And then, she decided we weren't gonna do anything downtown, cause I could do that anyday of the week, yes I could, but I thought we were gonna do the "touristy thing here". Which I found out, there is nothing I haven't heard of in my town, so...yeah. And she decided I'm going to a movie with her tonight, a movie I have no desire to see, and of course it's always nice to go to movies with your parents. I had also suggested a rock store that's west of town, but she decided since she wasn't interested in it, we weren't going. Once again, god forbid I want to go, cause it's obviously all about you. Did I mention I'm helping her move shit at her office to get ready before the students come back Monday. Yes, I am getting paid for it, but still kinda ruins the whole, touristy thing, don't ya think.
And tomorrow is another fun filled day with my mom. Once again, tons of sarcasm in that.

Devil without cause and I'm back

So, I have a temper, a pretty bad one at times. Well today it came about, cause this morning I took a shower and of course took off my jewelry (a necklace, and a bracelet), well when it came time to leave for work, I had misplaced my bracelet (cause I'm an idiot and didn't put it on right after I got out of the shower), well I was pissed, so I started a hurried search of it, and when I couldn't find it, I got in a fight with my wall (actually the board around the doorframe), and I think I injured my hand in the process.
Yep, I have a temper, if you're my guinea pig, you would know that. But, maybe if she were smarter and learned when to shut the fuck up, there would be no problem. Or, other times I get annoyed with myself and take it out on my walls, thankfully I haven't had anything more serious than red knuckles, until today. I'm thinking I bruised my hand, or something, cause nothing feels broken (thank God)
I believe this is one of the reasons I will never become a cop, my temper and very short fuse. Plus, I will speak my mind (that has gotten me in trouble a couple times), you will not stop me from speaking my mind, unless I think I may be fired for it. But, certain (stupid) people get on my nerves and I can't help but blow up on them. I actually thought I was doing a good job of keeping a lid on it until yesterday when some person (see, I did pretty good with the namecalling there) yelled at me for standing in my yard, to which I went to confront her, and her boyfriend came out, and I could tell he knew I wouldn't back down, until he stepped in and told her to be quiet and asked (well not exactly) me to go back to my yard. My guess is if he hadn't stepped in and said his girlfriend shouldn't have yelled at me for being in my yard, well things would have escalated.
Like I said, I have a temper, and I don't back down. And that gets me in trouble

Well, crap

I'm gonna be very annoyed if this makes it so I can't see Karli tonight.
I feel like crap, and not just cold/flu crap, really painful crap, course as I'm typing this it's not as bad, so hopefully it will run away.
I've got a really annoying painful sharp jabbing pain in my stomach, plus I'm very nauseated and feeling like I'm gonna puke. I haven't thrown up in like months if not a whole year. I feel if I move or do too much of anything I will pass out or puke. Lucky me.
CRAP
And like I said, I'm planning on seeing Karli this evening, I have to mow at least one lawn tomorrow morning, and I hope to go to the state fair tomorrow evening. If this goes and messes up any of these plans I will be very disappointed to say the least.

And then magically it's gone, only took it 40 min, stupid body.

My life is boring

Just a couple new things that I didn't wanna stick on the other blog. I stuck them in blue, so if you didn't wanna read the whole thing again, you don't have to.

So, it's geting to the end of the summer, that usually means three things for me: Iowa State Fair, week up north, and of course, classes starting.
I think the State Fair is the one thing that hasn't become less fun as I get older (of course, I don't really remember going as a kid, so that could have something to do with it, or at least not going for fun, I went a few times when my 4-H stuff), I remember going with my aunt and her family when I was younger. I remember one year, my uncle and I were having a contest of who could collect the most promotional magnets. I like going to the fair, there's never been a time, where I've gone that I haven't had fun, even when I only went for 4-H stuff. Course it seems to be more fun when I go with friends (not quite sure why). Two years ago, I went with a couple people I met online, I remember I told them all the stuff I wanted to do and we did it. Last year I went with Karli, because she had won tickets to Big & Rich, and took me along. This year, looks like I won't be going, that kinda bums me out. I don't know of anyone else who is going, it's just no fun to go by yourself.
My grandparents had a timeshare condo up in a town 4 hrs north, for a week at the end of the summer, and I remember going there as a little kids, the four of us and my dad's parents. We have some great pictures from that place. I'm not quite sure when my dad got it, but both my dad's parents are gone now, and it's really nice to go up there and reminisce. Also, a place that doesn't get boring as I get older. There's always a couple places that have been there as long as I can remember, and thankfully are still there now. I'm gonna miss going this year. It just doesn't mesh with our schedules, classes start on the 21st, and as far as I know the week we've had up there has nicely always fallen on the week before classes start, but this year, it starts on the 19th. We could drive up Sat and drive back Sun, but that's a ton of driving for just 2 days. I have a class at 9 on Mon, otherwise we might be able to stay longer. I'm really gonna miss that this year.
And classes start soon. I'm almost looking forward to that (I know I'll regret saying that later), but I'm so bored right now. My internship ended on Friday (yes, I passed, kinda sucks we do it for a grade, but...), and I'm ready to have a nice structured schedule and stuff to do. I wanna work on my classes so I won't have to worry when grades come out. I didn't wanna stick that on my other blog, cause my parents will hold me to that, even if I'm already pushing for it, it will be too much pressure. This I know, my mom loves to put pressure on me.
Course, fall coming also means the return of shows. So, that will be fun, I think I've cut back a little, with shows I've decided I won't get hooked to this season, and one's that were cancelled. So, with luck, I'll be tuning back in for Medium, The Unit, Bones, CSI, Supernatural, Cops, Cold Case and the Amazing Race. I think it would actually be more productive for me (and a bonus at the end of the week), to tape them, and then watch them on the weekend. That way, I wouldn't have to worry about getting shit done before watching them, and then I'd have a nice bonus at the end of the week. Only bad thing, two of my shows are on at the same time, on the same day, so that's always rough.
I'm just so bored with my life right now. Same shit every day. Get up, piddle around til I go to work. Sit there and read for about 3 hours. Come home, go on a walk (which really isn't boosting my mood lately, it's just a way to get off my ass and out of the house), watch some TV, go to bed. Every day. Sometime next week, I will be going to the bookstore to give my money away. Then I'll see what wonders I get to delve into this fall. That's kinda half the reason I want classes to start, see more people, and, hopefully, not be bored all the time.
Hopefully I'll get back into a structured schedule as well. Not that my schedule isn't that structured now as you can see above, but I need more to do.

Look stars

Well, I almost passed out at work today. We've been shifting books (moving them, cause the journals keep getting more added to them, and we run out of space), and I was working by myself, and it's hot, and seeing as I haven't really had anything to eat today, well I almost passed out. I'm actually sitting here, waiting for my vision to return to normal, I still feel really light-headed and woozy.
I seem to be real good at fucking myself up at work. Tues when I was closing I TRIPPED UP the stairs, that's real talent right there. And if I hadn't grabbed the railing, I would have slammed my face into those stairs and probably knocked myself out. Go me in the talent department.
Yeah, I'm on that no money for food diet. I do have ~$500, but I have to save that to spend on books, once I figure out how much I need for books, and I mow a lawn, I can spend money on food. It's wierd, I just spent about $30 dollars on food at HyVee on Sunday, and I'm already out of food. That was 4 or 5 TV dinners, 2 12 packs of Vault, some donuts, a box of granola bars and some fruit/milk drinks. I can get so much more for less at Fareway.
UGH! So the summer semester of classes ends on Friday and fall starts in 2 weeks. I can't believe summer's over already. I feel old saying this but...it feels like only yesterday I started at my internship. And now, tomorrow, I'm going to say goodbye, they're throwing me a mini party (read the director's getting a few of the volunteers to come in and say goodbye to me). Hopefully, she gave me good feedback and comments on the evaluation she turned into my advisor, we do get graded on this, and I need a nice passing grade to graduate. Though, as far as I know, she didn't have any problems with me, I always did what I was asked, there actually wasn't more than was asked of me to do. So, I should be ok. Of course it sucks not knowing what you got, and seeing as how it wasn't really a course where you're graded on tests and papers and such, I'm really not gonna know til the 9th. I hate waiting, course seeing as I'm not too worried about it, I should be OK. There's only thing that worries me (and I really hope she didn't mention this), but I'm not gonna say anything about it until after my grade is posted, in case someone who knows me, reads this and may have a hand in changing my grade. And by that time, I may have forgotten it, so it may never be posted.
Am I the only one that doesn't give a damn about Mel Gibson and his drunken arrest? Everyone's blowing it out of proportion, now I'm not saying he should have said the shit he did, but if this were a normal person. NO ONE WOULD CARE! It would just be swept under the rug, and no one would even know. This is the way I feel about celebs, I don't really give a damn about their personal lives, if they weren't celebs, it would be normal (not that it isn't), and no one would ever know. But, god forbid we not know someone almost dropped their baby, or that someone got arrested for driving drunk.

Seen any good movies lately?

Just so y'all can make fun of me, I'm listing all the DVDs/VHS I own, so you can see deep into my soul:
21 Jump Street Season 2, 44 Minutes, The 60's, 101 Dalmatians live and animated
Angel Seasons 1-5, American History X, Aladdin
Batman: The Movie, Back to the Future I and II, Beverly Hills Cop I, II, and III, Babe, Beauty and the Beast, A Bug's Life, The Blues Brothers
A Civil Action, Cool Runnings, The Craft, Crybaby, The Color of Friendship
Doc Hollywood, Drop Dead Gorgeous, Die Hard Trilogy
Easy Rider, Erin Brockovich, The Expendables
Finding Nemo, Forrest Gump, Ferngully: The Last Rainforest, Flight 232 Crash, Final Destination 1, and 2, Four Brothers
The Great Mouse Detective
Hackers
Raiders of the Lost Ark, Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom, Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade
Jumanji, Jarhead
Kuffs
The Labyrinth, The Little Mermaid I and II, The Lion King
Mac & Me, Mary Poppins, Mulan, Model Behavior
Ocean's Eleven, Oliver and Company
Pitch Black, Point of No Return, The Professional, The Princess Bride, Pleasantville
The Quick and the Dead
Red Dragon, The Rock, Rookie of the Year
Schindler's List, The Shawshank Redemption, Silence of the Lambs, SWAT, SWAT: The Real Story, Semper Fi, Shrek, Selma Lord Selma
Terminator 2, Three Kings, A Time to Kill, Titanic, Tru Calling Season 1
Undersiege 1 & 2
The Wizard of Oz
X-Men, X2
certain episodes of Pacific Blue, Pensacola: Wings of Gold, New York Undercover, That's Life, The Huntress, So Wierd, Third Watch, Cover Me, In a Heartbeat

And a few new additions: Assault on Precinct 13, Con Air, and Three Musketeers. Assault didn't quite live up to my expectations, in the extra stuff on the DVD, they kept mentioning how it was focused more on the characters, and then they go and kill off almost all of these characters (yes, even the 'good guys'), so I was a little annoyed about that, but it is good. Con Air, I've only seen on TV, so never in full, and obviously never before Nicolas Cage gets on the plane. Musketeers, a great favorite of mine.
So, now that you all know the movies I own, any suggestions for other ones I should buy? The only ones I don't particularly like are: A Civil Action, wasn't as good as I remember it, same goes for 21 Jump Street, I watched that when I was a kid, and knowing what I know about the law and police stuff now, most of that stuff wouldn't work in real life. Batman, also not as good, this is from the TV show, with Adam West as Batman, my brother and I used to watch this as kids. Also, I'd never seen Final Destination 1, just 2, and I don't think 1 is as good as 2.

That's the way we get down in a hicktown

OMG JASON ALDEAN IS SO HOTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm watching him on this music festival, he turns me on so easily. OH, he's so hott, in his button up western shirt, only buttoned up to his chest, straw hat, jeans and cowboy hat. YUMMY!!!
And If I can’t have him, can I have one of his guitar toting buddies, they’re pretty damn hott too.

Well, I've decided, today, and a lot lately, I'm very happy listening/watching music. What I wouldn't give to be at the music festival. But I don't get to be THAT happy.

Cross Post

Having a cross post today, new stuff at the end.
So, I was watching this show called Wife Swap on ABC while I was waiting for something else to come on. Anyways, this one family has so much clutter, they stack shit in their shower, HOW GROSS IS THAT? Unfortunately, I can myself as the mother in this family. There's clutter/crap everywhere, boxes of stuff that should be sorted out, and certain things thrown away. She buys frozen stuff/easy to make stuff for meals and eats on paper plates. That's me, I'm gonna turn into that, only I won't have kids, I'll be the old maid, with dogs instead of cats, not having a permanent job, always looking for happiness. So much to look forward to. Lucky me :S

When did people stop dressing up for their concerts? Or am I just nuts and singers never actually dressed up? I'm watching the CMA country music festival, a huge country music concert, actually tons of them in Nashville, and Martina McBride's performing, she's wearing a black t-shirt and what looks like white warm up pants. I don't mind so much if the guys don't dress up cause they look pretty damn good (at least some of them) in jeans and a t-shirt, but chicks have so many more clothes to look at, they can look so gorgeous if they just tried, but a t-shirt and jogging pants? Come on. OOO, Jason Aldean's supposed to perform, I really like him.

Where's my ride?

Don't you just hate it when you have a really good dream and then you wake up to your life?
I had the greatest dream last night, I got to go on a motorcycle ride with a cute guy, I got to visit family, I got to see people I hadn't in a long time, and I got to guy watch where there were plenty of cute guys. And then I saw one of my buddies in my dream, and a chopper, which turned out to be a real bike outside my window and then I was back in my life. Lucky me.

Firemountain

So, I watched Crash tonight. Interesting movie, basically they play off of every single stereotype anyone has had about African Americans, Mexicans, Latinos, people with tattoos, there's another nationality, but I don't wanna screw it up and say it's something else, but in the movie they're called Arabs, or Iraqis. And then a couple people turn around and take a different view on a certain nationality that they didn't have, or was in the back of their mind. So, interesting movie.
And, yes I will say it, I am racist, I haven't met or come into contact with an Asian that I've particularly liked, though I don't wonder if they speak English or not. As far as I know I don't have any feelings one way or the other with Mexicans or Spanish speaking people, my boss speaks Spanish and I'm not entirely sure of her nationality, but I'm guessing it's S. America, but I don't have any problem with them. And I think Black guys are hot, I also think Black women are more beautiful than white women. As far as the rest of the nationalities, I don't think I have a problem with them, but I haven't really run into that many, I know I don't blame the people here in the US, that look like they're from the Middle East for 9/11, I do know I love English and Australian accents.
And, am I wrong for feeling this way: Everytime I watch a movie with my dad, I always end up explaining stuff to him, because even though the TV is at least 27", he still can't really tell the different actors/actresses apart, and then his hearing is failing, so I have to explain it again, and louder. I know his eyesight is bad, it has been for awhile, and it only gets worse, so he uses a cane (think white cane for blind people) when he's out and about, he can't see that well when it's extremely sunny, or dark. He's got a special thing that magnifies stuff so he can read it. I just get so annoyed when I have to explain things to him, and I do feel bad about feeling annoyed, but not so much that I don't feel annoyed, if that makes any sense whatsoever.
I've decided my mother's become hypocritcal in her older age. My neighbors were having a garage sale today, so they stuck a sign in the corner parkway of our house. Now, I got pissed about that, because as I've learned from my mother, the city owns the parkways, and we (the landowners/people who do the upkeep on them, are not to put anything in them, kinda like you're not supposed to put anything on telephone poles cause that's defacing public property), so I took it out, I also had to mow the lawn anyways, so it was gonna come out either way. But, as I was telling mother this, she proceeded to say that I should put it back in when I was done, as that's not something I need to wage a war over with my neighbors. Now, back when she was on council, she would get so annoyed with people who stuck stuff in parkways, that I remember one time, where she stopped at a stop sign, got out of the car, and pulled a sign out because it was in the parkway. So, obviously when people put stuff in parkways it annoys me, now I don't go out of the way to pull it out unless it's in my parkway. Oh, and later when I was mowing another part of the lawn, I watched the guy come over, and proceed to pound the sign back in the ground, right in front of me, he knew I was there. But, it's ok, now that mom's not on the council. Excuse me? Oh, and if this is a karma thing: FUCK KARMA! Karma knows what I want when it comes back around, so we're on pretty good terms. Maybe people should just learn certain things they are and aren't supposed to do.
UGH! I am so sick of people asking me what I'm gonna do when I graduate college. You know there was a time, when I had a plan, I knew what I was gonna do, but certain things happen, and times/minds change. I know I'm graduating in December AND I HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA WHAT I'M GONNA DO. I just wish I could go to sleep and wake up when I'm 30, or maybe 25 or 27 when my career is picked and I know what I'm doing for the rest of my life. I'm just so sick of this...life.
Oh, and on another interesting painful note, I really think something's fucked up in my body. Today, I got a fun pain in my arm and stomach area at the same time. Very sharp lasted at least five minutes. That was fun. It's also been fun getting the chest pains this week. I'm thinking something's fucked up. But you can bet to hell I'm not spending my time or insurance crap on a damn doctor, cause I can tell you what they'll say, "We don't know what's wrong, but if it gets worse, go to the ER" No fucking thank you. You can only get me into the ER if it's not of my own free will, cause I really don't have the time to care about dr's if they can't figure out what the fuck is wrong with me.
Oh, and you think I"m in a bad mood cause I'm swearing, I'm not, I do this in good moods too.

Wherever I May Roam

Well, crap. I've been saying a lot lately how I'm not too bummed that I've only been on two motorcycle rides this season, but I guess I'm just really good at internalizing it, cause I've even tricked myself into believing that I'm not upset by it.
But something tonight when a bike just went by outside, just put me in a really depressed mood.

Won't you do what I told you

Jeez, I was so upset over my mother last night (or I was just really tired), that I stuck my complaints in the wrong blog. I was rather confused when I signed on just now and found out that my Sweet Rides blog had been updated last, I thought maybe I got a comment that was a little slow getting to me, nope, I just posted in the wrong place go me.
So, it's so nice to have my mother back, she's in a pissy mood cause she wants to do laundry, but doesn't know if she can walk on the laundry room floor or not (cause the carpenter was supposed to be varnishing while they were gone, and well, that's another post), apparently there's supposed to be 6 coats of varnish on it, and as far as I know (I could be wrong), there's only 3, as he didn't start varnishing til Tues afternoon, and they got back last night/this morning. So, in order to get rid of her anger, she's vacuuming everything. I vacuumed last night, and I thought I did a pretty good job, apparently not. She's also called him a couple times, left a message the first time, and is now pretty much grumbling around. Needless to say, I left. I may actually go on a walk this morning, just to get away from her.
Also, I wanna endorse a new food product (I'm pretty sure my endorsement doesn't mean anything to anyone, but...), it's called Betty Crocker's Warm Delights. They're little cake things that you add water to, and stick in the microwave. I bought some today and I just made the Cinnimon (sp?) swirl cake, it's really yummy. Plus they were only like $1.50, I think it's a pretty good deal, I'll let you know how the others are when I eat them.

Seven years has gone too fast

So, my parents returned from their cruise in Alaska tonight (ok, technically it's morning). After getting all their bags unloaded, my mom goes and gets some water, comes back and tells me I need to clean out the sink. That's the first thing she says to me. How rude. Not a hello, or anything, just another thing to assure me I'm not really good enough for her, yeah, I did take care of everything while she was gone, but God forbid she be happy about it, I bet she'll have found another 20 other things by the time she gets up later. Oh, and speaking of people putting me down, my boss at my internship did that, not exactly to my face, but it was implied. She was talking to a lady that wanted to go to college and study sociology/criminal justice (what I'm getting my degree in), and she tells the lady, oh there's so many people in that now, you should look for something that will guarantee you a job. With soc, you'll have to get a Masters and become a social worker, you want to go into accounting. And, then she comes out and asks me what I'm gonna do with my degree (and I have absolutely no idea), and says I should go to grad school and get a Masters degree, have I taken my GED yet. Thank you so much for discounting what I am getting my degree in. My parents did the same thing to me, when I was first accepted to the University, I was in the art college, cause I love art, it's what I do to keep me sane, I excel extremely well in it, and have won a few awards for my artwork. But, of course they convinced me that I wouldn't make any money in it and I switched over to the Business College, and I got to my sophomore year, and I just couldn't stand business anymore. I told myself from the beginning of freshman year that if I just had one interesting class (I never really liked business anyway), I could get through it. Well, the second semester of my sophomore year I failed my second accounting class, and I switched to the LAS College. I love almost all of the classes I have taken since then. That's says something right there, and it's a lot better than only liking one or two of my classes each semester.

I've gots the women

OH CRAP! Is the day over yet? Methinks I shouldn't put stuff off til the last minute. So, I got up this morning to mow the lawns and they're soaking wet (of course), but I don't have the time to wait for them to dry. So, I start mowing them, only it's warmer outside than I thought it was going to be, or I was just working harder, cause the mower gets clogged up easier when the grass is long and its wet.
So, in about an hour, after I got almost both lawns done (I was mowing until I ran out of gas, I could smell the gas, so I was running on fumes there for awhile), I was pretty much soaked on top, sweat running down my face and neck. So, I knew the one thing that would taste so good was a Mike's Hard Crisp Apple (OK, that's all they had when I went to buy alcohol, so I had to be godawfully hot for it to taste good), but it's only like a quarter to 11, so I was debating whether or not to drink one. And I went upstairs, got one and downed it in like 5 minutes. So, then I had to wash the mower getting myself pretty wet in the process. And then since I was so sweaty I jumped in the shower. I can feel the effects of alcohol, but I have to go to work (good combination huh, its gonna be entertaining doing data entry in my altered state), so I'm so ready to pass out, as I haven't had anything to eat yet.
Why do I always put stuff off?