Please take a moment today and give some prayers to the families of the 4 officers killed in Washington over the weekend. It's a horrible tragedy and I hope they catch the asshole who did and I hope he resists arrest cause he really needs a beating.
My mother's reaction to this story was that they needed to do away with all guns. But, if we're going to get rid of all guns what about the police officers, what do they use to protect themselves. I realize (at least I'm guessing here), she didn't mean their guns, but the criminals will always find a way to do what they want. And that means taking the guns away from the law-abiding citizens that use them to protect themselves. My parents and I very much differ on our opinions of guns, I hope someday to have a safe full of guns in my house with one either under my pillow or in my bedside table. As long as you use your gun for legal activities, there's nothing wrong with owning one, of course you also need to know how to use it, I wouldn't recommend anyone just going out and getting a gun for protection if you don't take the time to learn about and how to use it, that's an accident waiting to happen. I think (purely speculating here), that my parents don't like guns is because they know next to nothing about them, my mom did shoot a gun during the citizen's police academy, but as far as I know that's the only time she's shot one, I don't think my dad's shot one at all. But, time and again my dad has said he does not want guns in the house. I bet he'd be thinking something different if someone broke into the house and assaulted one of us. I don't want that to happen, but in today's world, it can easily happen. My parents still believe that my town is safe enough to leave your doors unlocked and you don't have to worry about anyone breaking in or anything bad happening. Getting my degree in criminal justice taught me a lot about crime and knowing the officers and having my boyfriend who used to work with them, I have learned a lot about the crime in my town, and it's not tiny town crime. We still have armed robberies and domestic assaults, unfortunately, people like my parents feel that if they ignore it, it doesn't actually happen. Minds like those I believe make things worse in my community.

Didn't mean to ramble, the reason for my post was to get you to think about those officers. It's sad they can't sit down and do work without having to worry about an idiot coming up and shooting them. Keep them and their families in your prayers and thoughts.

I'm so pissed at myself. I was in a hurry rushing to work today and I dropped my cell phone in the toilet. I quickly fished it out and dried everything out, but I turned it back on a little while ago and I had troubles hearing in the ear piece and the connection between the SD card and the phone seems to be a little off.
The Verizon people said, just let it dry out for a couple of days and it should be fine. Thankfully, it's the weekend and the only person that would be calling me is Kevin, I really want to talk to him, but I guess I'll have to dry my phone first. I shouldn't have anyone else calling me, but anyone else that would, that would be important (close friends and family) have my home number, or they'll just leave a voicemail and I'll get back to them.
I know people have dropped their phones in water before, but I'm so totally pissed at myself, and of course we didn't get insurance on them, we just got the phone in Aug, so I feel extremely bad cause it's a pretty new phone and if it does dry out and work fine, I don't want it to die before it should.
So pissed at myself.

Is it Christmas yet?

WOW! I am so ahead on Christmas presents this year. I was wrapping some the other day. I have had mom's presents since January (and I didn't lose them, go me), I've had one of Kevin's since the middle of October, and the other day I went to Target and Walmart and saw some stuff for Kevin, Ross, and chocolate for the family. I decided I was already there and, unlike some of the people that come into the store where I work, I bought it then.
I don't get why people go into little locally owned stores to get "ideas" for Christmas. We're not the big stores, there's no guarantee we'll have those items when they come back to buy them. We hope we will, but we're always selling out of things and then we order new ones, but who knows when they'll come in. What's so wrong with buying them now, you can do what I did and wrap them as well and then you're way ahead of the crowd. I always wanna say something snooty when they don't buy at that moment. I have had a few customers come back with their lists and then the thing they're looking for isn't there and they get all upset. I completely understand little kids with their lists, but when it's grandma making the list (and of course, I know nothing about the customers), I don't see why you can't buy now. But, oh well, we get a lot of business around Christmas, because everyone buys toys for kids for Christmas.

I realized the other day, I am so ready to get away. For some reason, patrons are annoying the heck out of me. Like yesterday, I was working a bball game, and I watched a lady get out on one of our busiest streets. It was a totally reckless and stupid thing to do, the car stopped, in the middle of the street (next to the sidewalk, but in the middle) and the lady proceeded to get out. Thankfully, the person behind them stopped quite a ways back, but how lazy do you have to be to put so many people in danger just to drop someone off at a game. How hard is it to drive around the corner and do it at a safer place? I was completely appalled by it, and was tempted to say something to the lady once she got up the stairs, but we were busy by then and I didn't. If I had, I could just see her getting all upset with me and need to chat with my supervisor.

I just want to use your love tonight

You really can't explain some things to some people. I had a lady in the store tonight, and I said how it would be a good night because a local radio station was playing 80's Friday Night. And she gave me the weirdest look. I tried explaining it to her, but knew it was no use.
I grew up with music. If I have a bad day, I have certain songs to listen to. When Karli went through her cancer, I had certain songs that would console me if I was bummed. If I really want to listen something that always sounds good, I listen to Bruce Springsteen, he can brighten any day. I think my favorite of his is Untitled or Stolen Car or Brothers Under the Bridge. There's so many that are soo good. Some songs just fit any mood. But, some people just don't get that. Every time I hear Time of Your Life by Green Day, I think of my high school senior picnic. Run by George Strait immediately makes me think of 9/11. I'm brought back to my childhood by Don't Stop Believin' by Journey or Right Now by Van Halen or Welcome to the Jungle by Guns N Roses. Welcome to Jungle also reminds me of when they came here for their concert and I didn't go home until 2:45 in the morning.
I've kinda run into that with Kevin, he never understands why I'm always listening to music. He listens to it, to have a background noise, but rarely does he say anything about a certain song.

What songs remind you of events in your life or soothe you?

Haooy 234th Marines!

Is it bedtime yet?

UGH!! I have been so tired lately. Unfortunately, I don't know why, so I can't fix myself. It's been for the past two weeks. I don't think it's because I'm working too hard, though my body is getting used to about 4 hours of actual work in the morning. At the library, I shelve books, cart books (put them in order on a cart), push around full carts of books and other things. I have also been working at the games store, but I don't do much there. Also, basketball season started and I worked on the 1st, the 7th and the 8th and walked home those days as well, but I wouldn't think it'd be that either.
Last Sunday, I fell asleep sometime in between 8 and 9 on the couch, woke up sometime after 10 and went to bed. When I get home from work, I sit on the couch eat a microwave dinner for supper and watch Law & Order, usually falling asleep during law & order. I then get up and go to bed sometime after or around 10. I get up at 6:30, but I'm usually wake up pretty easily.
Yesterday I went to bed at 9 and still slept through the night. I've been pretty tired since about noon today, I went to the doctor and even though it was nice out I rode the bus home (I usually walk when it's nice out). No, it wasn't a dr's appt for this, I'd have to go to my other dr for that and I don't want to spend the money on that.
I'm wondering if I'm getting sick. I don't usually get sick. I do have a cough that comes back every winter, and I get my allergies about this time of year, but other than that I don't get sick.
I really wish I knew why I was tired all the time, cause I really hate it.

Fun computer issues

I must apologize for my lack of posts lately, as I said before I started a new job and I'm loving it. Last week, I turned off my computer Sat night and when I went to turn it on Sun morning, it wouldn't turn on, so I called Dell and we did some things. Finally they told me that they would send a tech guy out to replace some parts. Monday I got a recorded message following up on my call, saying the tech guy would get the part on Tues, call me on Wed to set up an appointment. Wed morning, the tech guy calls me and sets up an appt between 1 and 2 pm. Thurs he shows up at 2:05, which was annoying, granted I didn't have anything planned, but what if I did. He immediately takes out the power supply, puts a new one in and it works, I could have kissed him.
I found it kinda annoying how he couldn't fit his big hands into some of the spaces in the computer and I had to unplug and plug a couple things in. I also found it quite annoying when I told him the computer was only 3 months old and nothing should be wrong with it, that he replied that with computers you never really know. I'm pretty sure that's the line Dell told him to tell people. I have never had any other computer have troubles after 3 months. One of my laptops that was about a year old had to have a hard drive replaced.
After having this problem, I have decided to get an 8 or 16 GB jump drive to back up my computer. I didn't have anything backed up and thankfully everything's still here, because like I said, it's only 3 months old (that's what pissed me off the most), and I didn't think I needed to yet. I was very surprised to find a 16 GB jump drive is only about $40 on Amazon, while an external hard drive is much more expensive.

I had to hook up my old compaq which is pretty slow, plus I had reset it back to its original settings and had to do updates and a lot of stuff to get it back to the way I wanted it to be. I'm glad I kept it, and will plan to keep it as a back-up if anything happens to this one again. I was thinking if I couldn't survive 4 days without a computer, how was I going to survive 2 weeks when we're in HI, but then I decided that this time it wasn't voluntary. I always survive fine on vacation without a computer, and will probably be too busy to wory about computer stuff. I think it'll take me at least a week to get through everything I missed while I'll be gone, but I can handle it.

Beyond that, I haven't had any problems, just working.

New stuff

I've been a little busy lately. I've been working at my new job, which I love, though my legs are not happy with the constant squatting, I'm figuring they'll get used to it. So, I have that every morning for about 4 hours, then I come home and do other stuff, which lately has been making cards for birthdays, and then at 5 I'm at my other job. I love this new schedule, it makes me get up early in the morning, which I've kinda been doing anyway since I was working at the bookstore and had to be up for that, then we had the roofers who were here bright and early and you can't sleep through that. Now, I have something to do when I get up early. I can slack off in the about 4 hours I have in the afternoon, or do whatever.
This past Sunday was my grandma's birthday party. Her birthday was on the 15th, she's 93. My mom had this idea that we should send her a birthday card everyday of the week, so I did. Plus, I made her a present. I also was in a swap with someone from one of my yahoo! groups this past weekend and had to make fall cards for her, which turned out pretty cool by the way.
Saturday, I went with my mom to the mall to get some black pants. My old pair was getting worn between the legs (yes, my legs rub together when I walk), and I was wearing them for both the Hilton job and the games store job. I was hoping to find a nice pair of other colored pants to the games store, but I either found pants that were too tight in some areas or showed these nice creases in my crotch area. Not a bonus.
That afternoon, dad and I cleaned up the leaves from the yard, not that you'd know if you looked at it now. Stupid trees.

Unfortunately, I haven't seen Kevin since last Sunday and I'm hating it. We kinda started a nice weekly thing where he would come over after getting off in the morning and sleep in my bed, so I could at least see him and cuddle with him. Since, I went to my grandma's on Sunday, I didn't get to see him this week, and I think I'm regretting it. I did have a pretty good time at the party, but this year it wasn't as fun. I don't know if I got used to him being at my family get-togethers or if I was just preoccupied because I didn't get to see him.
I hate not being able to see him. He used to get Sunday nights off and we'd hang out for a little while on Mondays, but he hasn't had a day off since Labor Day, and the word is they will be working 7 days a week until December. Neither of us are happy with that.

Between work and work, I've been keeping busy and I love it. I really love having something to do every day. You never know how much you miss that until you don't have something to do during the day. It's nice for awhile, but then you get really bored. If my body would have let me, I would have slept more, because some days it's like why get up when you have nothing to do?

Getting to know me meme

1. What time did you get up this morning? 7:30, it's the first time I've been able to sleep in, in over a week.

2. How do you like your steak? medium well, I hate bloody steak

3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? Paul Blart: Mall Cop

4. What is your favorite TV show? one that I actually watch: Amazing Race, of all time: Supernatural. I get home about 8:30 at night and have a tendency to fall asleep on my couch watching Law & Order

5. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be? somewhere that I'm close to civilization, but far away from people (with Kevin of course)

7. What is your favorite cuisine? American hamburgers

8. What foods do you dislike? certain fish, asparagus, other stuff that's not coming to mind now

9. Favorite Place to Eat? family get-togethers

11.What kind of vehicle do you drive? I don't

12. What are your favorite clothes? jeans and a comfy shirt

13. Where would you visit if you had the chance? Ireland

14. Cup 1/2 empty or 1/2 full? depends on the day

15. Where would you want to retire? Okoboji, IA

16. Favorite time of day? early afternoons, I'm in-between jobs and can do other stuff I need to do

17. Where were you born? here

18. What is your favorite sport to watch? I don't watch sports

19. Bird watcher? sure, from a distance

20. Are you a morning person or a night person? morning lately, because I have to get up earlier for work and I fall asleep too early to be a night person.

21. Do you have any pets? Yes a guinea pig

21. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share? I just got a new job that I love and I'm going to Hawaii in Dec

22. What did you want to be when you were little? A cop

23. What is your best childhood memory? Playing in the mud hole at my aunt's or playing king of the mountain in the snow in the ditches in the country, pretty much any memory of my mother's side of the family get togethers

24. Are you a cat or dog person? dog

25. Are you married? nope, wishing

26. Always wear your seat belt? Yes.

27. Been in a car accident? Yes, very minor ones

28. Any pet peeves? of course

29. Favorite Pizza Toppings? cheese, mushrooms

30. Favorite Flower? bird of paridise, iris, rose

31. Favorite ice cream? mint chocolate chip

32. Favorite fast food restaurant? McDonald's

33. How many times did you fail your driver's test? Never failed.

34. From whom did you get your last email? my yahoo! group

35. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card? Hobby Lobby or Micheal's

36. Do anything spontaneous lately? I bought myself a couple card games. Unfortunately, I have no one to play them with

37. Happy with your job? Yes, love my job

38. Broccoli? yummy

39. What was your favorite vacation? the last time I went to Okoboji, Kevin went with me. It was only for 3 days, but it was so much fun, I wish we had time to go back.

40. Last person you went out to dinner with? my parents

41. What are you listening to right now? the hum of the computer, the ticking of the keyboard and my guinea pig gnawing on something

42. What is your favorite color? blue green

43. How many tattoos do you have? 3

44. Coffee Drinker? no

Happy Dance!!!!

So, I got another part time job today. I am very excited about it. It's at my local library, where I formally volunteered. I have worked at a library in the past, so I know what it entails. Like I said, it's part time, but I love all my part time jobs. I wish I could just have a whole bunch of part times, but then I'd have to continue to pay my own health insurance and there's no set retirement plan. I did a little happy dance when I got home today.
But, I am kinda reluctant to tell Kevin and my parents because they're so pushing me to find a full-time job and adding another part-time to my schedule means I'll most likely have to drop one if I find a full-time and/or schedule around. I'm pretty sure I won't be able to schedule around. They're all about me finding a career, which I totally get, but at this time with the economy and the fact I have no idea what I want to do with my life, it's a little tough. Now, I know that people are saying that the economy's getting better, but with what I've found (or not found as the case may be) lately with the economy, I think it's better to say yes to something now, even if it is another part-time than wait until I find a full time.
Now, I asked my dad to chat with him when I got off work tonight because I have to fill out some tax forms and something about if something happens to me, who do I want my stuff to go to. I was kinda thinking about that tonight. I really don't have anything to my name, I don't have a spouse, I do have a boyfriend that I'm totally in love with, but it's not like we're engaged or anything, and if for some reason we don't get engaged or married.... I don't have a house or any property to my name, so I can't say to leave it to my estate. The only thing I really have to my name is my art and my guinea pig. I'm guessing by the time something happens to me, my pig will be dead (hopefully, meaning nothing will happen to me anytime soon), and what can I leave to my art? So, that leaves my parents, which I don't really have a problem with, I just, I don't know.
Anywho, I'm heading home from one job. I can always put off talking to dad until tomorrow night as I don't start at this job until Thurs morning. We'll see.

more memes

Profession you are currently emulating: Shop keeper
Song you are currently obsessed with: Believe by Brooks & Dunn
Movie that you would tear down a building to see right now: G-Force
Food that makes you drool: Napoleans
Person you really miss: a couple people I can't name
Foreign place you wouldn't mind residing: Ireland
Favorite object/shape to see in the clouds: I don't look at the clouds
Part of your body that bugs you: my stomach
Random act you've always wanted to do: Can't think of any

Which guy would you choose? ... for the fun of it:
The one with huge sweat stains OR the one with brown teeth: Stains
The one whose laugh sounds like a squawk OR the one who snorts: Snorts
The one who puts ketchup on everything OR the one who only eats meal: Kethcup lover
The one who asked you who much you weigh OR the one who patted your butt: Butt patter
The one with hair like Godzilla OR the one who smells like Godzilla: Godzilla hair
The one with a beer belly OR the one with sweaty palms: Beer belly
The one who sneezed without covering his mouth OR the one who picked his nose: Nose picker
The one with the mullet OR the one with a neck-beard: Mullet
The one who wanted to watch Predator OR the one who wanted to watch Blade 2: Blade 2
The one who called you Cupcake OR the one who called you Babealicious: Babealicious

Favorite
Artsit: Jason Aldean
Band: Bon Jovi
Candy: Kit Kat
Dinosaur: Ginkgosaurus
Fairy Tale: Cinderella
Kool-Aid flavor: Yuck
Lullaby: Lullaby by The Dixie Chicks, I also like Wynken Blynken and Nod
Neighborhood: Mine
Old-pasttime: So many to choose from
Pasta: Seafood pasta with Angel hair pasta
Restaurant: The Koffee Kup Kafe in Arnold's Park, IA, they're caramel rolls are to die for
Superhero: Wolverine
Television show: Supernatural, or Third Watch
Yearly Event: state fair, even though I rarely get to go anymore
Zoo: The Chicago Zoo in Grant Park, I think that's the one Ross lives by.

Darling, I love you

I wanna go shooting. So much. I haven't been shooting since April, of course if you stop and think about it, the first time I'd been shooting since 2002 was last fall. But, I know when I miss something like this, I really like it. And I love shooting my rifle a lot better than shooting handguns. Probably because it has a scope on it and I can hit things with more accuracy.

I'm so jealous that Kevin got to go shooting on Labor Day. I'm also jealous that he got to check out the new Bass Pro Shop in Ankeny. Actually, I'm kinda pissed he checked it out without me. I so wanted to be with him when he got to see it, just because it sounded really interesting to me. I don't like sporting goods stores that much, but when they had a sneak peak on a local news station, it looked pretty cool. Actually I'm kinda pissed about what he did on Labor Day because between those 2 things, that would have been a fun day. But he was thinking about us and needed a couple days with his guy friends. I get that too, but...

What a beautiful day

My mom kept saying this afternoon what a beautiful day it was. I agree with her now that my day is pretty much over.
It started at about 7:30 AM when I got up to check email. Kevin called me a little before 8 and asked if I wanted to go to HyVee's breakfast, we went, ate and came back. He took a shower and we entertained ourselves with a little extra curricular activity then he went to sleep and I went to mow the lawn. At about 1:15 when I was done with the lawn, I took a shower then me and dad went on the local home tour. We got done about 4 with that, I took a nap and then woke Kevin up and we had some more extra curricular activity and a shower. About 6 we picked dad up from campus and went to supper at Valentino's. Kevin left from there for work and dad I just got home.
Yes, it was a very beautiful day.

All I want to do o o o

I am so exhausted and sore. It seems like every part of my body hurts.
I worked the Sugarland concert last night, and I've decided I need new black shoes. I had fun though, I got to be the person to look through people's bags, that was a new thing we're starting this year. I did get rather annoyed with the number of people that joked about having guns and knives and stuff in their bag. I mean we all knew it was a joke, but do we really need to joke about it? What if I had found something like that in someone's bag? The joke would have gone real sour after that.
We also had some problems with the scanners last night. In order to get into events now, we scan the bar codes on all tickets, doesn't matter if you picked them up at the ticket office, got them mailed to you, or printed them off the Internet, they all have bar codes and we have to scan them all. If they don't scan, or a problem comes up on our scanners, we have to send the people to the ticket office, I know we had quite a few of those.
And then we had the smokers. Last July, a law was passed that states you can't smoke in public places. So, we had to tell everyone that when they came in and of course when they came to ask us at intermissions where they could go and smoke. I get so sick of people asking "Really?" No, idiot I just said that to see what your reaction was. One of the police officers I talked to said people were going into the bathrooms and smoking, I was wondering how long that would take. And we also had people stepping outside doors that we didn't have someone by and smoking, there was even one door propped open with a door stop. I do wonder if the door stop was for the door for the beer, because we sure had a lot of that coming in. Though I do find it kinda hard to enforce the law when I see other people that are supposed to do it watching people walk right by them and lighting up. (I'm not going to give specifics because someone will find out it's me and I don't need them on my ass. I have nothing against them except for that incident last night).
I also got to yell at and stop people on their way out the doors that wanted to take their alcohol with them. I got quite a few with that. I nabbed a girl that was trying to hide it under a shirt, she successfully hide it from one guy, but I caught her. I had another guy that had a full cup, probably 8 ounces, that he tried to walk out with, I stopped him told him he had to finish it or dump it, so he went back in. I kept my eye on him, it was a good thing because about 10 minutes later with about the same amount of beer he tried to walk out again. Then he gets all friendly with me, like that's gonna change my mind, and goes to hang out at the souvenirs table. I told my other door people to keep an eye on him. The last time he tried it, he walked over to me, handed the beer to me and left. He still hadn't drank much of it. Now, I don't know how much the beer costs, I think it's $6 or $7 a cup, but that's a big waist of money if you ask me.
You could definitely tell the people who get rushes while working concerts. One of the top guys in concessions came over and told us how he got to break up a fight, and you could so tell he loved it. I have to say I did get a little rush stopping the annoying guy with his beer.
One of my coworkers kept apologizing for having to look in people's bags. I don't apologize for doing my job, I don't think anyone should, if you feel that uncomfortable doing it, don't. And my coworker wasn't even assigned to look in people's bags, so they could have handed that job off to someone else. I mentioned how they shouldn't apologize about it, and they kinda turned a cold shoulder to me for the rest of the evening. Next time, I guess I'll keep my mouth shut. This coworker also didn't go after anyone who was leaving with alcohol, when that was in the instructions given to us. If you can't handle doing what you're asked, go do a different job. If you don't like being rude to people and making them follow the rules, maybe you should reconsider.
I know why my feet and legs hurt, though I'm not sure why my muscles in my armpits hurt, and I'm not quite sure why my head's all stuffed up. I can handle it though, I already took some aspirin and that has taken my headache away, but my feet still aren't liking it when I get up. So, my plans kinda changed for today, looks like I'm taking it easy for today. And I have to get some better shoes for the Daughtry concert.

Driving and Jobs

Ya know, I don't mind getting up early when I have somewhere to go, but getting up at 7AM (or like today, getting woken up by pounding at 7AM) is not working for me.
Our house is getting a new roof, and in order to not be on it when it's wicked hot out, the guys are here at 7 every morning. Since I live on the 3rd floor, there's no way I'm not waking up at 7. I miss having to be at the bookstore at 8 every day and being busy all day. Granted I did not like getting home and falling asleep shortly thereafter, but I love being busy all day. I am searching for a full-time job, but I don't know what I want to do, I know what I don't mind doing, but I don't know what I want to do with my life.
Last Monday, Kevin and I had a talk, I had a gut feeling he was going to dump me. He didn't, he said he felt like I didn't want to do anything and that I needed to find a full-time job that was a career. He said I wasn't pushing myself very hard work-wise. Which is true, once I found the job at the games store last summer, I was just happy to find a job and kinda backed off on my job search. I am very happy to have the part-time job at the bookstore, but it's only 2-3 weeks every six months. And I really do love being away from my house every day. My mom said maybe I needed to do some career placement tests, sure why not. I love how Kevin told me I need to be looking at jobs outside of here, but I'm sure if I found a really cool one across the country, he wouldn't want to move with me. I think that would be really cool though, find one in a place I've never been and have to move and start all over in a new place, I'd love that challenge, but I'd also be afraid to do it.
Also, in order to be looking at jobs outside of here, I'd have to get a driver's license, which Kevin really wants me to do. So, I went driving with my mom last Saturday, it was fun, but my mom still had that tone, the irritated but I can't say too much tone because then she'll think I'm mad at her tone. I was going 14 as my top speed around this parking lot, and I thought that was fast. It reminded me how much I don't like driving, but I'd do anything for Kevin. Plus, just because I get the license, doesn't mean I HAVE to drive. I don't have a car, and I don't really have money to get a car, so....
I was actually thinking, it'd be so fun to get an old Nova or Mustang and fix it up so it was gorgeous again. That would be sooo fun.
I was thinking that I doubt Kevin would consider doing art a real job, even if I did get to the point where I could pay all my bills and have money left over. I think to him, it would require someone else paying my health insurance and getting out of the house all day. Though I would love to get to the point in my art that I could pay all my bills that would be great.

Smoky Mountain Rain

You know how I love meme's. I stole this from a friend on facebook.

1. Put your iPod or iTunes library, or MP3 player etc... on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS
4. Tag 10 friends who might enjoy doing this as well as the person you got this from.

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Rodeo - Garth Brooks

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Play the Game - Queen

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
The Long Way Around - Dixie Chicks

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Life Happened - Tammy Cochran

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Heartbreak Town - Dixie Chicks

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Lucky - Britney Spears

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Head Over Feet - Alanis Morissette

WHAT IS 2+2
She's Got the Rhythm (And I Got the Blues) - Alan Jackson

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
I'm Holding On To Love (To Save My Life) - Shania Twain

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Hold Me, Thrill Me, Kiss Me, Kill Me - U2

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
She's A Hottie - Toby Keith

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Love Train - Big & Rich

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Requiem (The Fifth) - Trans Siberian Orchestra

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Like The Rain - Clint Black

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
High Enough - Damn Yankees

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Jetsons Theme

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Walk Like An Egyptian - Bangles

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET
She Was - Mark Wills

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Goodbye To You - Scandal

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Hear Me - Kelly Clarkson

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Don't Be Stupid (You Know I Love You) - Shania Twain

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
For the Money - Montgomery Gentry

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Thank God for Kids - Kenny Chesney

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Music Man - Reba McEntire

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED
(It's Hard) Letting You Go - Bon Jovi

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Deep Deep Trouble - The Simpsons

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Every Now and Then - Garth Brooks

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Loose Change - Bruce Springsteen

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Christmas in Dixie - Kenny Chesney

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Chrome - Trace Adkins

Everything's gonna be alright

I bought bananas a couple weeks ago to take with me to the bookstore for lunch, they went brown, so I decided to make banana bread with them. Bad idea.
I got a recipe from my mother and had to go to the grocery store for: eggs, baking powder, baking soda, lemon juice, milk, and pam. I accidentally bought 2 boxes of baking powder instead of one each of baking powder and baking soda. I didn't notice this until I had everything in the oven and was putting away my ingredients. How is it I always seem to mess stuff up?
Anyhow, my bread was already in the oven in little bread pans on top of a cookie sheet. Good thing they're on a cookie sheet because I just checked them halfway through their cooking time, they're overflowing onto the cookie sheet. I honestly don't know what baking powder and soda do, so I don't know how royally I've screwed up the bread, we'll see. I'm figuring I filled the pans too full, but I only had 4 pans and I didn't want to go find something else to put the rest in, so I knew about that, I guess I didn't know how much they would rise. I also added almonds instead of walnuts, just to try something out. Kevin's always telling me to try stuff out, we'll see how this is.
I kinda hope I didn't screw things up too bad, because banana bread sounds really good.

I was so proud of myself as I was mixing the stuff up. I was thinking I should start my Christmas list and put mixing bowls and cookie sheets on it.

I can't be held responsible, she was touching her face

It's been a very exhausting day. I feel like I've been crying for 3/4 of it.
It was supposed to start out with Kevin coming over this morning. But, he never did, I think he went and partied with his buddies. I hadn't talked to him since Saturday night. I was worried, figured something happened to him, so I took the bus over to his house, where both of his trucks were sitting. He wasn't asleep on his bed, his roommate's girlfriend said he left in a red truck (one of his friends). I walked home, on the verge of tears for 3 miles. I called him during my walk time (probably the 6th time this morning), he finally picked up saying he was at his friend's house, and I knew the only way he was there at that time with both his trucks at his house was if he didn't have to work last night and hung out with them. When I told him I went to his house because I was worried, he didn't say anything, I let him go so he could sleep.
By the time I got home, I was exhausted and pissed. I'm not quite sure what I did all afternoon. I called him again at 4 asking if he planned to go to a picnic in my neighborhood that I mentioned this morning. I called again at 5, 5:14 and then 5:30 when he finally picked up. I asked him about the picnic to which he replied he'd forgotten all about it. I found that hard to believe seeing as how I left him a message at 4, but didn't say anything. He said he was in Des Moines hanging out with his friends again. He said he might come over tonight. I don't believe him, that's what he said about this morning on Saturday.
I know he's been brooding over something since he got back from an offroading excursion last Tuesday, he's been different. He hasn't said anything, but you know about that female intuition thing.
I had a horrible dream last night about how he was going to break up with me and he didn't give a damn about my feelings. I started thinking this morning it was true when I couldn't find him at his house.
I bought this cute little butterfly thing for us to enjoy, I was waiting for him last night and this morning to show it to him, and then again from 2 to 5:30. I don't know if he'll get to see it.

I understand he wants to hang out with his friends, but what's so hard about picking up the phone and telling me that? Why can't he say he's sorry (even if he's not) for making me worry, for "forgetting" about the picnic. I don't know if I'm being paranoid or not, but it really hurts.

No need to worry, no need to cry

I am so sick of people telling me I need to find a full-time job. As if I'm not looking now. I found a posting for a full-time temporary job for the middle of Sept to January, that I'm planning to apply for, but people never seem to be satisfied with me. If it makes me happy why can't they just back off?
I'm done at UBS now, hoping to help out next semester. I was complaining to Kevin about how sick I was of the students swiping their debit/credit cards before I was ready for them. The cash registers don't take the card until we get to the end and tell it debit or credit. He was saying how I needed to find a full-time job so I wouldn't have to do the job anymore, I love the job, but some things just bother me, especially when I get it every day. I don't understand why he gets to complain about his job and I can't. I love it how when I worked at the art shop it was ok, because I had a steady paycheck, I might not have always happy with it, but I had a paycheck.
I'd love to have a lot of temp jobs like JLo has in Monster-in-Law. I love how she's set up in that movie, and she's happy with what she does. I'd love to have that, like now, I like what I do in all 3 (2 now) jobs, but because it's not full-time, it doesn't count I guess. Is it possible to be happy with your job and make enough money to get by?
I do want to be independent, I don't want to depend on other people. And it's not like I'm not trying to find a full-time job, it's just that there aren't a lot out there right now. And I don't really want to work in some other town (granted I can't right now because I don't have a driver's license, but I don't want to drive quite a distance to work anyway), but I really don't want to have to do that.

I hate how Kevin always tries to change me. Granted it's worked for a few things, I'm eating healthier, I'm drinking way more water, I'm spending less money, and at the moment, I'm working on cleaning my apartment and I would like to keep it clean, sometimes it just doesn't seem to be enough. Why do people insist on trying to change me? Aren't I good enough for them?

Why bother?

My parents are giant hypocrites. They always say that I shouldn't take more than a 5 minute shower because it wastes water. This morning I was about to go down to do my laundry (I use their laundry room because I live on the 3rd floor of their house), the shower is in the laundry room, I'm about to go downstairs and I hear the water running. I wait about 5 minutes (one song on Windows Media Player) and go back and still hear the water running, I went back after another song, and the water shuts off. I decide to give them a little more time to get dressed, the next time I go back I hear the water running again. I know I'm going to have to wait another 10 minutes for the 2nd shower. At least when Kevin and I have to both take a shower, we take it together and save water. What's so wrong with that? It's not like they don't have enough room, their shower is at least twice as big as mine if not more. A couple weeks ago, I went down to do my laundry and my dad was in the shower, mom said go ahead and put your clothes in the washer, now I know there's a door on the shower but I still don't want to worry about looking at anything. And last week when I went down, Ross was in the shower and mom wanted to know what I was waiting for, as if she was in some kind of hurry.
I don't know why she would care how long it would take me, it's not like she was going to use the washer. Though they have done that before, they say I need to ask them 8 hours ahead, I always do, but sometimes I'll come down and they have laundry in the washer, or like last week, in the dryer. What's the point of me asking, if you're just gonna do your laundry anyway?

I just went down to put my laundry in and the dryer was running and there was a load of wet laundry in the washer. I gave them all day yesterday to do their laundry and the decided they needed to do some this morning. I highly doubt anything became that dirty during the night, but if it did, they're always up earlier than me, what stopped them from doing it earlier? It's so annoying that I follow their rules but they can just fuck me over when they want to do something. Maybe their point is to annoy me enough to move out, push me to get a full time job, as if I'm not looking anyway. Somedays I just want to.........something I'm not going to say on here, because someone will take it seriously.