Monday, February 27, 2012

I tried

I tried to look nice and be in a good mood today, even though I'm still annoyed that when people ask me to do something they get annoyed when I say no and then come up while I'm working and more or less pressure me into saying yes.
I tried to be nice and helpful to the customer even though they glared at me because I was helping people in the order that they were in line, not the ones that jumped in the middle of the line because they thought they were more important.
I tried to be quiet and listen to my supervisor even though what they said made no sense and they tried to help too much.
I thought I could handle the pressures of work if I had one day off a week, even though I was working more than my normal week.
I tried not letting things bother me even when they piled up for over a week and I was told they weren't that important (it's a different story if you ask the customer).
I try to put myself first and take care of me, even when everyone seems to be demanding more of me than there is.
I try to keep my sanity when everything I do seems to be wrong.

I really did try.
And when everything led me to tears and the urge to just leave, I didn't. That counts right?



I just feel like so many things are building up at work and so many people are demanding my time and that I should just give up my life for work.
I've had so many things building up lately, when that final straw hit, I could barely hold it back, but I did, and now I'm home and I'm wishing for a hug, something nice in the mail, or something fuzzy to cuddle me.
Instead I come home to my brother whining in a text message because I can't wait until almost 9PM to eat supper. Is that so wrong.



I'm not sure what will cheer me up, but I hope it's something/somewhere soon.



And of course, now blogger's revolting against. It's just the story of my life sometimes.

Tuesday, February 07, 2012

Swim Naked

OK, so this morning, I learned, I can't even type a post on my Kindle.

I've been reading this book called Swim Naked, Defy Gravity & 99 Other Essential Things to Accomplish Before Turning 30, and I thought I'd share some with you:

Swim Naked, I haven't actually done this, and I don't plan to.

Break all of your parents' arbitrary rules: I think I've done this, I've stayed out late, gotten drunk, ate certain foods I probably shouldn't have, left all the lights on, have lots of things started that I haven't finished. I'm actually not entirely sure what arbitrary means.

Grow Something:
I actually didn't think that was possible, but I did grow some geraniums I got in a swap last year.

Dump Toxic Friends:
I've tried to dump anyone that doesn't support me, or doesn't like to do things with me because I have more things to do. I dumped someone I considered to be a really good friend until they didn't console me after my breakup last year. I consider that something huge.

Speak A Foreign Language:
I speak a tiny bit of Spanish, probably should learn something else, but I don't plan on going to a foreign country.

Buy A Kick-Ass Mattress:
I have not done that, I should as mine is extremely saggy.

Draw And Frame A Self-Portrait:
Haven't done that either, I've started a collage of a self portrait, does that count?

Stop Chronic Over-Apologizing:
I don't think I've ever been an over apologizer, though I feel the need to apologize more in my current job.

Create Your Own Sisterhood:
Haven't done that. I have a few friends that I've known since high school or before, but they're mostly spread out. I don't really have someone to hang out with all the time.

Travel Solo:
Haven't done that, I've never traveled anywhere by myself.

Embrace Your Inner Eight-Year-Old:
I do this ALL THE TIME. Whether it's buying fun kids activity books, stomping through puddles or just messing around, I got this one down.

Hold Your Booze:
I am a lightweight. Usually after two drinks I'm done, I've decided not drinking at all works best.

Make Brownies From Scratch:
I haven't made brownies, but I've made a lot of other cookies/bars from scratch. I'm not a big brownie fan.

Declare Your Birthday A National Holiday:
I try to celebrate my birthday as much as possible, but when I don't have a lot of friends to hang out with (see the sisterhood comment above), I don't do a lot for it.

Accept Compliments:
I'm trying to do this. I'm really good at saying where I got the item instead of simply saying Thank You

Unplug Your TV For A While:
I've not unplugged my TV, but I don't watch it as much as I used to. I used to plan my weeks around what was on TV. I don't remember the last time I watched TV and not DVDs. I really need to take a week where I don't watch DVDs either.

Dye Your Hair An Outrageous Color:
I did this in college, I got a free packet of red hair dye, it was very bright. I remember going to class the next day, and a couple of the girls in my class looked at me like I was nuts.

Own Your Mistakes:
I hate people who don't do this. I find it quite annoying when you blame things on other people that are obviously your fault.

Get Health Insurance:
I have this, but am considering getting rid of it, because it just becomes more expensive every year.

Hook Up Something High Tech By Yourself:
I have done this, I've hooked up pretty much everything electronically in my apartment. I'm also really good at being stubborn and moving and fixing things by myself. I've been single for about a year, and quite a long time before I met my ex, it's just easier to do it myself.

Know Your Blood Type:
This one I find pretty important, but I do not know my blood type.

Walk In Heels:
I've tried this, multiple times, and I always end up with sore feet after an hour or so. I've pretty much given up on anything with more than an inch heel.

Disagree Out Loud:
I absolutely can't do this in my family. My mother and brother have such high opinions of themselves and what they believe, that even if I have facts to back up my argument, they will argue until they run out of breath. I do like to chat and disagree with friends.

Make More Money Than You Spend:
I really hope to do this someday. I have such a hard time not buying stuff I want.

Own A Toolbox With All Of The Basics:
I don't have a toolbox, but I have a hammer, pliers, nails, wire cutters, and various screwdrivers in a place together, does that count?

Dub The "Greatest Hits" From Your Childhood:
I haven't made a greatest hits file or anything, but every time Born in the USA by Bruce Springsteen, or Mary Jane's Last Dance by Tom Petty or Dead or Alive by Bon Jovi come on, I'm transported back to the days of my youth

Fly First Class:
I've done this, and I'm pretty sure I'll never actually be able to afford first class, so I tried to live it up. On our flight to Hawaii a couple years ago, we had an 8 hour flight from Chicago to Hawaii, and my brother had enough miles/points to upgrade me to business first class. OMG, that was great, the seats flattened out all the way, you had your own station to watch movies, listen to music, or audio books. It was great.

Carry Something To Read, A Notebook, And A Pen At All Times:
I always have a book and a pen, I've learned that when you have a book, or something to do, any wait time you have is majorly shortened.

Read Your Old Diaries:
I have done this, it's entertaining the trivial things you think are so important when you're younger. I'm sure I have the same feelings about certain posts on this blog as I get older.

Give Yourself Flowers:
I love doing this. I actually have a tendency to buy myself everlasting beautiful flowers as much as I can. Though I love to splurge on the real thing every once in awhile.

Stop Looking For A Soul Mate:
I think I'm doing that now, I'm trying to just enjoy life without the ever present idea of looking at guys and wondering if I'll want to date them, or if He's the One.

Give Yourself A Make-Under:
I personally don't think I need a make under, more like a make over. I never wear makeup, don't wear high heels. When I dress up, I put on a nice dress/skirt, and add some jewelry.

Be Notorious For Something:
I believe I'm notorious for my art, but I'm not really sure.


It's a very interesting book, with each of the things to do, there's a page explaining or going into more detail.

I've been a little bummed lately, that I haven't found any swaps to join. I'm in a creative rut lately, so I haven't done anything really artsy. And I love the swaps where I get to buy and send stuff to someone else, it's almost as fun as getting stuff.

And I'm chomping at the bit for spring and garage sale season to get here. I operate under the idea that if I'm meant to have something, it will be there when I get there. I've also decided to think a little longer on purchases this year. I'm planning on not buying vintage hankies unless they're really cool, no more tea cups. I want more costume/vintage jewelry, more elephants, and much more pink/purple things.

What have you all been up to?

Sunday, February 05, 2012

A little relaxation

Today was my first day off in a little over a month. I originally planned to just sit at home and watch movies all day, but since all my jobs are part-time, I usually do that when I get off work. Instead, I went shopping with my mother and then we went to Reiman Gardens to see a new exhibit and the Butterfly House. We also had to stop off at the gift shop. I wasn't planning on buying anything, then I saw a couple grab bags, that guaranteed to have over $80 in merchandise, who could resist those? Obviously, not me. Here's what was in them:
A giant plastic flower, a box of tags/stickers, a dog pencil, a ladybug ornament, a couple bracelets, a ant plant hanger, some lip gloss, a bird globe, a pair of earrings and a bug on a spring.

And another bug on a spring, a spider, a bug magnet, bugs in a jar, a cute keychain, some more lip gloss, a stick pin, a snowman, an orange cat, some bug goo, and a pineapple key chain.

I must apologize for not posting lately. I'm mostly online on my Kindle Fire, and though it's really nice, when I'm trying to type things, it has this auto correct where it tries to guess what I'm typing, and if I'm not paying attention, when I hit the "space", it's actually the insert button, and sometimes puts it's own words in. I also can't store pictures on it, so I'm not able to do posts with pictures. I do hope to be shopping or have some cool pictures to share with you all soon.


Thanks for hanging around.

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