Wednesday, January 31, 2007

So long Arizona, so long desert sands

Alright kids, I'm seriously thinking of not updating my other two blogs anymore.
My Sweet Rides, since I started it on May 19, 2006 has only had 1085 visitors since then, and only 64 this month.
Hello Guys, formerly Hott Bikers, since I started it on April 22, 2006 has only had 2079 visitors with 67 this month.

I hardly ever get any comments on either of them. So, they may be in hiatus for awhile. Sorry.
But if you're interested in oogling at Sweet Rides or some gorgeous guys. Check them out, give them some love.

Cause I'm a sucker for this shit

1. Whats your favorite sandwich filling? peanut butter and jelly?
2. Do you have any style icons? what the hell is a style icon
3. Whats your skin colour? pale
4. What colours do you like to wear? blue, dark mostly, i like green
5. What do you like most about yourself? my ink
6. What colour eyeshadow do you wear? NA
7. What colour are your eyebrows? hazel
8. Do you keep your armpit hair? no
9. If someone hot asked to see you naked for $200 dollars, would you show them your assets? no
10. Whats your cup size (If female)? sorry too personal
11. How long is your hair? chest length
12. Which family member do you look like most? my aunt
13. How long do you spend in the bathroom? as little as possible
14. Do you walk around your house naked? i walk around in a bra and jeans, is that close?
15. Do you dance around your bedroom in your underwear? i don't dance
16. What kind of guys/girls do you like the least? the ones who decide you don't have feelings and treat you like a piece of shit
17. What kind of guys/girls do you like the most? I'm a big fan of cuddling ones
18. What annoys you about guys/girls? The way no one seems to care about feelings
20. Describe your temper: don't get around me when i'm pissed
21. Describe your ideal man/woman: Loyal, loving, honest
22. Do you like men with beards and goatees? some look good, some do not, depends on the guy
23. Do you like guys who are small in *that* department? Don't know
24. What would be one of the things important to you in a relationship? Keeps promises
25. How do you rate virginity? What kind of question is that?
26. Are looks important? Something's gotta catch my eye
27. Would you do topless modelling? No
28. Would you get your nipples pierced? No
29. Whats the best word to use: No idea
30. What is your most sexiest feature: Legs?
31. What is your least sexiest feature: Hips
The Stupid Ones
32. Are you looking for a partner right now? Always
33. So you dont have a crush on anybody? I have crushes on more people than I can count
34. Have you told them? It's not as fun if they know
35. If you could look like any celebrity, whom would you look like? No
36. Green apples or red apples? Green
37. Lights on or off? off, but somethings gotta be on for some bit of light
38. What time do you go to sleep? depends on the day
39. What TV do you watch on Fridays? usually something on tape
40. Are you still friends with everyone at school if you have left? No
41. Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone? dad
42. What annoys your friends about you? Probably that I've been whining about being single lately
43. How high do you play your stereo? depends on the song
44. What colour are your curtains? off white
45. What make mascara do you use? NA
46. Where do you buy your clothes? JCPenneys/Younkers (cause they're cheap)
47. What are you thinking right now? I really need to get in gear and get ready for the day
48. Are you on speaking terms with your parents? Not at the moment
49. Do you like children? No, actually I like my cousins, if they're not crying and fussy
50. Has your love life been good or bad? Love life?
51 What was the last alcohol you drank? Bacardi Peach
52. Are you scared of commitment? no
53. Do you want a serious relationship? yes
54. Are your parents religious? No
In the Movies
55. Do you talk during the movie? depends on the movie
56. Do you make out? no
57. Do you like to hold hands? not during a movie
58. What are, your favorite movies: Way too damn many to count
59. What movie role can you imagine yourself playing? I'd love to be the heroic chick (hold my breath right?)
60. What is the most non-scary horror film ever? don't know, i don't watch horror
61. Who would be your love interest/lover in your movie? Colin Farrel
More Random Questions
85. List the stuff you hate, it can be anything: That could be extremely long and take a long ass time. One thing for now: winter, or being stuck indoors
86. List the stuff you love, it can be anything: Once again, long and takes long ass time. A few to hold you over: bikes, the purr of their motors, rain, thunderstorms, barefoot walks, warm weather, swimming, sirens, guys in uniform (big surprise there), tattoos
87. Has your family ever walked in on you while you were naked/in your underwear? I was a baby once
88. Have you ever been sprayed with sewage? No
89. What body sprays do you wear? No
90. Whats your BEST facial feature? eyes
91. Whats your WORST facial feature? the face
92. Whats your favourite desert? Napolean pastries, I haven't found one I don't like yet
93. What was your last most hilarious thought? something I read
94. Whats your favourite word? can't have just one
95. Have you ever dreamt of sex with someone you know? yeah
96. Do you have a lot of nightmares? I have vivid dreams, I wouldn't consider them nightmares.
97. What do you dream about in general? the ones I remember generally have someone I know in them, the sexual ones are very memorable too
98. When you dream about friends what are you doing? generally just running into them, but i seem to be the reason they get hurt a lot of times
99. What did you last dream about? death
100. What was your last nightmare? once again, i don't have nightmares
101. What has been your most interesting dream? Can't help you there, I have a lot of those
102. Have any of your dreams ever come true? No, but i do seem to see the people in my dreams within in the next week of having the dream, usually 3 days. It's kinda weird

Waiting at a stop light yesterday

What is it? Fuck of W week? I found out this week I was used (not recently, but it still hurts) and other people just kinda stopped caring. I had one (this one I probably shouldn't put too much faith into) drop me off their friends list on myspace, and someone decided to drop 2 of my blogs off their link list. If I didn't have something to look presentable at tomorrow, I'd be hitting the shit out of my wall, I started a little, but then realized my hands can't be all bruised up tomorrow.
Maybe I expect too much of people.
I'm already upset with not having a job, my parents threatening to raise my rent, and shit in general. Thank you so much for making me more upset people.
At least my part-time job gives me happiness, since I can't depend on anyone else lately.

Monday, January 29, 2007

i'm unbroken

It's always nice to know you've been used. Just throw me away with the garbage, thanks a lot.

Sunday, January 28, 2007

Sleight of hand and twist of fate

In the greater scheme or the big picture, nothing we do matters. There's no grand plan, no big win.
We are born, we live, we breath, we function for the everyday, and then we die. The point of life? I don't know, I don't understand why we're here. From what I gather, we don't make a difference. If we're lucky, we're here for 80 years (some people longer), not really making an imprint on anything. This world has been here thousands of years and it will still be here when all of us are extinct. I've heard that in order to make an impact all you have to do is be a friend. Most of my friends are untouchable. I want hugs from my guys, I want to let them know that I love them, but there are so many unseen lines that I can't break, can't mess up the twinge of a friendship that exists there.
I've got a character flaw, I hesistate to share it. With the exception of 2, all my friends change after learning about my character flaw. They feel they must do something about it, when the one thing that would mean the most to me doesn't enter their minds.

It's the sense of touch. I want that human touch. We go through our lives trying not to get too close to people, just so we don't have to hurt. Or at least that's what I do. I have a stone cold exterior, you're lucky if you break it open and see the inside. I've been hurt by people that I consider very close to me (though I don't think the feeling is mutual). I've gotten so used to that hurt from trusting people, that I've closed back in on myself. I want to feel the human touch again, that warmth of someone who cares.

Saturday, January 27, 2007

She's so high, high above me

So, I got to talk to Dream Guy today. We were both working the basketball game (I was more than excited to work, since I haven’t worked in a week, course after tomorrow I won’t have work for another week). But I noticed he was working, and I got the nerve up to chat with him a little bit (I would have loved to follow him around and keep chatting with him, but I know people get a little weird, and I really don’t need to have the cops weirded out about me. Yeah, that would help my life.
Anyways, if you haven’t heard yet, Dierks Bentley (with Miranda Lambert) is coming to my town, I’m very excited. And we got the good fortune of having him come on a Friday (we usually have concerts in the middle of the week it’s like they don’t wanna pick a good day). And also within this month we’re getting the Cirque Du Soleil. I also can’t wait to work that. I was telling my coworkers I hope to work all 3 of them because I love working long doors (which means I’m on the outside of the inside so I don’t get to watch it), and most people with the big concerts/events like to work short doors (they only work about 2 hours) and then go in and watch, or usher (they’re inside helping people find their seats). So, I’m holding my breath and crossing my fingers to work all three of them.

All right, y’all let me know if I’m wrong or not, but wasn’t Officer Anthony Pilutik in the opening sequence for the first ep? When they’re showing another officer doing a ‘follow the pen with your eyes’ test (yeah, I bet that’s the technical name for it) and there’s an officer that you’re kinda staring at head on?
Fontana, CA: 2 hotties dragging the fat ass dripping black dude.
Officer Jay Sayegh: “The subject’s obviously not willing to stop” Well duh, “Once they hear that dog barking they know there’s no hope for them.” Oh, Officer Jay is full of interesting quotes. And some nice red ink peaking out from under the sleeve of his uniform.
Wichita, KS: Officer Rob Thatcher, Officer Dustin Nail, Officer Ben Jonker,
Now, am I the only one who thinks #1 should be it shouldn’t be happening at all? And I don’t like the non-uniform uniforms. Not nice looking. Also, everyone knows that crown victorias are cop cars, it doesn't work to use them as unmarked. Everytime I see a Crown Vic (or Ford Taurus, as that's what my dept uses), I look for extra antenna, cause we all know if there's more than 2, it's an unmarked cop car.
Covington, KY: Officer Gary Smallwood (dubbed Officer YUMMY!)
Ugh! I hate the mother talking in the background “She’s never been in trouble in her life” ya know what? You’re not helping, shut up and back up, and let your daughter tell her story. Did y’all see the look in Officer Rudolph’s eyes after the guy starts crying and whinning about how his ex-girlfriend came by and sprayed him in the eyes?
I almost enjoy the opening sequence of the reruns 2nd hour as much as I enjoy watching the hotties in the show.
Dude, we all knew you were awake the moment you stopped snoring. You can’t say you sleep that deeply when you got a cop yelling that loudly at you. “I was sleeping, so you can’t come into my house”
Chattanooga, TN: Officer Derrick Pendergrass, Officer Pete Miller
OK, so I recognize Officer Derrick’s voice before I even saw him this time.
Palm Springs, CA: Officer Anthony Pilutik, Officer Arnold Galvan
I could give Officer Pilutik an award, just for his humorous commentary. "It just magically appeared ok?" He's always got such a laid back attitude with the idiots he deals with.
I wish someday, some money would magically appear in my apartment, but I highly doubt that's ever gonna happen.
Alright, because I don’t want to fill up Officer Pilutik’s shelf too quickly, he doesn’t get a statuette tonight. (Don’t worry, I can guarantee you’ll get another one in the future, at least one). So, tonight’s statuettes (we’re going with 2 tonight, it was a hard decision, lots of drool worthy guys) go to:
Officer Gary Smallwood (Officer Yummy) from Covington, KY
And the second one goes to our cutie in TN, Officer Derrick Pendergrass of Chattanooga. And I know he’s adding this to his shelf too.

And I think I’m on something tonight, waay too much shit is funny.So, I’m enjoying the tax commercials lately. Like the one for Turbo Tax (?) where the couple is getting audited and the chick says “well let’s ask the people who did our taxes, oh wait we used a box, so let’s ask the box.” So, she holds the box up to her ear “ uh huh, yep”. “What’s it saying?” “Nothing, it’s a box”
I also love the one for H&R block, where the couple is in the kitchen and the wife digs out some envelopes from the garbage and asks the husband “what is this” “Looks like garbage” “No, these are our bills.” "Looks like garbage" "No, these are our bills, how can you just toss out our bills?" “I got people, they took care of them.” “You got people?” “I got people?” “You GOT people.” “I GOT people” “So, this is garbage.” "Yep."
Oooo, am I the only one that wants to see Ghost Rider when it comes out? When I saw the previews in the theater I wanted to see it, and then I forgot about it, but I just saw a commercial for it after the cops opening sequence. Oooh, just seeing the skeleton of fire of that gorgeous bike, yeah that turned me on. Course by now, you should know that.

Friday, January 26, 2007

I ran through the woods

So I was thinking tonight. Mostly how much I want a guy, but also why I don't like Dream Guy's girlfriend so much. I think it's because he has one, if I had a boyfriend, I don't think I'd care. Also, if I wasn't really wanting one, I don't think I'd care that much either. There's also the proximity thing. He's so close, so much about him is what I want in a guy, if he were across town, I wouldn't care as much. Actually there is another officer who's life kinda mirrors Dream Guy's life (they both have nice trucks, both cops, both have motorcycles, both are good looking, and both have girlfriends).
I've also noticed this with the cops. I was noticing this week, that since I haven't walked past the cars, I don't yearn as much to talk to them, or be close to them (not in a sexy way, I know some of y'all were thinking it). It's not as painful either, it hurts when I walk by the cars and I don't get to ride in them, talk to the officers (or whatever, still not sure why there's a yearning), and when I don't walk by them it doesn't hurt as much. Though I do know that when I get off work tomorrow, I'll be walking by them (guess I'm a glutton for punishment).

So I realized today what the Plain Sight Doctrine is: the thing that you're looking for is in plain sight and the hardest to find (that is right, isn't it? lol). Or maybe that's the civilians version of it.

I was also realizing today, that whenever I put on my new boots, I wanna go out and party or do something really fun. And I REALLY LOVE THESE BOOTS. And my friends are sick of hearing that. But that's a good sign, it would be really bad if I bought them and decided I didn't really like them, or hated them. I just wish it were warmer so I could try out the other reason I got them for.
I'm really wanting warmer weather: to ride, to swim, to wear skimpier clothing. I think most of it is just cause I didn't really have a vacation this year. The other part (that I just realized now) I believe is because I'm not in class. Usually when I don't have class for more than a week it's summer time.
Some one please take me away from here.

Here's a song for the mood I'm in:

Hell Yeah by Montgomery Gentry

He works way too much for way too little
He drinks way too early till way too late
He hasn't had a raise since New Year's Day
In eighty-eight gets trampled by everyone
Except when he comes in here
And he's the product of the Haggard generation
He's got a redneck side when you get him agitated
He got the gold toothed look from a stiff right hook
He's proud he took for his right wing stand on Vietnam
Says he lost his brother there

He yells out Johnny Cash
And the band starts to play
A ring of fire as he walks up
And stands there by the stage
And he says

Hell yeah!
Turn it up!
Right on!
Hell Yeah!
Sounds good!
Sing that song!
Guitar man playin' all night long
Take me back to where the music hit me
Life was good and love was easy

She's got an MBA and a plush corner office
She's got a don't mess with me attitude
She'll close a deal she don't reveal that she can feel
The loneliness the emptiness
Except when she comes in here
She's the product of the Me generation
She's got a rock and roll side when you get her agitated
She got the tattoo there on her derriere from a spring break dare
In Panama where love was all she thought she'd ever need

She yells out to the band
Know any Bruce Springsteen
Then she jumps up on the bar
And she, and she starts to scream
She says

Hell yeah!
Turn it up!
Right on!
Hell yeah!
Sounds good!
Sing that song!
Guitar man playin' all night long
Take me back to where the music hit me
When life was good and love was easy

Yeah, yeah
Can or can't you get my mind off thinkin' 'bout
Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday
Hey, hell yeah

Hell yeah
Turn it up
Right on
Hell yeah
Sounds good
Sing that song
Guitar man playin' all night long
Take me back to where the music hit me
When life was good

Hell yeah!
Turn it up!
Right on!
Hell yeah!
Sounds good!
Sing that song!
Guitar man playin' all night long
Take me back to where the music hit me
When life was good and love was easy
Your Aura is Orange
You're a bit of a loner, but you're never lonely. You know how to entertain yourself.Whether you're trying an extreme sport or a new weird food, you always live on the edge.The purpose of your life: testing limits - both physical and mental... and then telling people about it.Famous oranges include: Timothy Leary, David Blaine, Tony Hawk, Carey Hart Careers for you to try: Snowboarder, Circus Performer, Undercover Agent

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

It ends tonight

So, for all you parents out there, how true is this?
POSITION :Mom, Mommy, Mama, Ma Dad, Daddy, Dada, Pa
JOB DESCRIPTION :Long term, team players needed, for challenging permanent work in an, often chaotic environment. Candidates must possess excellent communication and organizational skills and be willing to work variable hours, which will include evenings and weekends and frequent 24 hour shifts on call. Some overnight travel required, including trips to primitive camping sites on rainy weekends and endless sports tournaments in far away cities! Travel expenses not reimbursed. Extensive courier duties also required.
RESPONSIBILITIES :The rest of your life. Must be willing to be hated, at least temporarily, until someone needs $5. Must be willing to bite tongue repeatedly. Also, must possess the physical stamina of a pack mule and be able to go from zero to 60 mph in three seconds flat in case, this time, the screams from the backyard are not someone just crying wolf. Must be willing to face stimulating technical challenges, such as small gadget repair, mysteriously sluggish toilets and stuck zippers. Must screen phone calls, maintain calendars and coordinate production of multiple homework projects. Must have ability to plan and organize social gatherings for clients of all ages and mental outlooks. Must be willing to be indispensable one minute, an embarrassment the next. Must handle assembly and product safety testing of a half million cheap, plastic toys, and battery operated devices. Must always hope for thebest but be prepared for the worst. Must assume final, complete accountability for the quality of the end product. Responsibilities also include floor maintenance and janitorial work throughout the facility.
POSSIBILITY FOR ADVANCEMENT & PROMOTION :None. Your job is to remain in the same position for years, without complaining, constantly retraining and updating your skills, so that those in your charge can ultimately surpass you
PREVIOUS EXPERIENCE :None required unfortunately. On-the-job training offered on a continually exhausting basis.
WAGES AND COMPENSATION :Get this! You pay them! Offering frequent raises and bonuses. A balloon payment is due when they turn 18 because of the assumption that college will help them become financially independent. When you die, you give them whatever is left. The oddest thing about this reverse-salary scheme is that you actually enjoy it and wish you could only do more.
BENEFITS :While no health or dental insurance, no pension, no tuition reimbursement, no paid holidays and no stock options are offered; this job supplies limitless opportunities for personal growth and free hugs and kisses for life if you play your cards right.

Anyone know how to heal an aching shoulder? Course I don't know what's wrong with it, I think maybe I pulled something shoveling the other day. It's where my shoulder blade connects to whatever the hell it connects to, it's painful to the touch, as well as when I move and in certain positions. And before you suggest, I'm not about to go to a doctor. Half of that being I'm switching health plans soon, and the new plan doesn't cover pre-existing conditions.

Saturday, January 20, 2007

You don't wear my chains

I had a great post all written up but because blogger is a fuckhead, it lost the damn thing.
So, because of college basketball, COPS wasn't on tonight until 9:30 (and if you read above, you know why this is delayed even more). Sorry kids, but I did want to get it out this week.

Wichita, KS: Officer Matthew Hoyt, Officer Aaron Whiteman
Cincinnati, OH: Officer Donny Meece
If you're gonna deface a building, maybe you shouldn't just sit in front of it, waiting for the cops to show up. I love how the guy believes that by painting words on a wall, it's artistic expression, also how he thinks he shouldn't have to pay to get his shit up on billboards, but now he's gotta pay to get his ass out of jail.
I love how the 2nd ep has an all hottie startup
Palm Beach Counth, FL: Deputy Jarrod Foster
"We just shake our heads, keeps us amused, makes the job interesting." I love that quote from Deputy Steve Ultsh. Am I the only one who thinks the cars should hit the asshole that's running? And who keeps 5 knives on them? Especially that big ass one.
Palm Springs, CA: Officer Anthony Pilutik <-- I LOVE THIS HOTTIE! ;) Why do they always lie? We know they're lying, but they still do it. And the truth comes out sooner or later, usually if it comes out sooner from the perp they're talking too, it's usually less trouble. Chattanooga, TN: Officer Derrick Pendergrass. Also, because blogger an ass, I could'nt upload my statuettes. So, use your imagination (you should know what they look like by now). The first goes to Officer Matthew Hoyt from Wichita, KS. And the second one goes to Officer Anthony Pilutik, (so add it to your shelf Officer P, we all know you have a shelf, even if it's hidden somewhere, you have a shelf with your statuettes on it, and Goddess' awards)

And totally off topic, but I was watching commercials and one of those Tampax Pearls ads comes up (you know what I'm talking about, that one where the chick pops up in the corner and says you need an upgrade). This one was a 'cool' guy with a pimped up racing car upgraded to a guy on a white horse, not an upgrade in my mind. My upgrade was Dream Guy (I just saw him Thurs, and chatted with him, so he's fresh) in a Chevy Chevelle, late 60's model. Now if you read my Sweet Rides site, you know that's one of those drool worthy cars I love.

I hope that's what I had typed up. AARRGGHH!! Oh, and naturally because I was pissed I hit the wall beside me, I've iced my hand, but it's still gonna be bruised and hurting for awhile. There need to be less walls and doors around when I get pissed, nothing good ever comes out of it.
Ugh. My mom got mad at me today because I wouldn't be her trash can. We were on our way to Walmart, and she was saying how she had a huge container of Dove shampoo and conditioner that she would give me. Well I don't use Dove and I don't like the combination shampoo and conditioner and when I told her that, she got bitchy at me. I think she bought the shampoo, tried it and then decided she didn't like it so she'd "be nice" and give it to me.
So we were at Walmart, and I got a gift card from my aunt for graduation, anyways I used the card, and the cashier throws it away, and I asked if that was the whole card, then she pulls out the garbage and takes it back out, cause there was money left on it. Very nice.

My heart ain't ready for a rolling stone

Alright, here's that piece I was working on. I think it still needs something, but I also think if I add anything more, it will be too much.
That's a CD, painted with metallic paint, images stamped in black ink, a piece of shell with lavender in it, and another shell on top. It's all on a particleboard covered in a piece of paper. Looks pretty cool if I do say so myself

Friday, January 19, 2007

I follow my heart

I found this in one of my email groups, thought it was pretty cool, and yet sad at the same time.

Just a biker
I saw you hug your purse closer to you in the grocery store line.
You didn't see me put an extra $10.00 in the collection plate last Sunday.

I saw you pull your child closer when we passed each other on the sidewalk.
You didn't see me playing Santa at the local mall.

I saw you change your mind about going into the restaurant.
You didn't see me attending a meeting to raise more money for the hurricane relief.

I saw you roll up your window and shake your head when I rode by
You didn't see me driving behind you when you flicked your cigarette butt out the car window.

I saw you frown at me when I smiled at your children.
You didn't see me when I took time off from work to run toys to the homeless.

I saw you stare at my long hair.
You didn't see me and my friends cut ten inches off for Locks of Love.

I saw you roll your eyes at our leather coats and gloves.
You didn't see me and my brothers donate our old coats and gloves to those that had none.

I saw you look in fright at my tattoos.
You didn't see me cry as my children were born and having their name tattooed on my skin and in my heart.

I saw you change lanes while rushing off to go somewhere.
You didn't see me going home to be with my family.

I saw you complain about how loud and noisy our bikes can be.
You didn't see me when you were changing the CD and drifted into my lane.

I saw you yelling at your kids in the car.
You didn't see me pat my child's hands knowing he was safe behind me.

I saw you reading the newspaper or map as you drove down the road.
You didn't see me squeeze my wife's leg when she told me to take the next turn.

I saw you race down the road in the rain.
You didn't see me get soaked to the skin so my son could have the car to go on his date.

I saw you run the yellow light just to save a few minutes of time.
You didn't see me trying to turn right.

I saw you cut me off because you needed to be in the lane I was in.
You didn't see me leave the road.

I saw you waiting impatiently for my friends to pass.
You didn't see me. I wasn't there.

I saw you go home to your family.
You didn't see me because I died that day when you cut me off.

I was just a biker and a person with friends and family.
You didn't see me.


Thursday, January 18, 2007

LA's got the freaks

See if anyone can explain this to me: cops make me nervous. Why?
I love to see cop cars around my city
I know 10 cops (give or take)
I know I have no record, there are no warrants out for my arrest.
But every time I talk to a cop, whether or not I know them I get nervous. Yes, I chat with cops I don't know. In 2003, my father and I went to New Orleans for his radio conference (I was his "guide" because he doesn't see very well), and one night we went to Mardi Gras world, had a nice little tour, with food and drink, and music (a private party for the public radio folk). Anyways, while we were waiting for busses to take us back to the hotel, I wandered over to a cop (or as this officer told me, a police officer, because they don't like to be called cops there), and had him read a poem I wrote titled "The Cop". I asked his opinion on it, he said the only thing I should change would be the title. (Maybe if enough people ask me, I'll post it someday. I also have one dedicated to soldiers and Marines, and firefighters).
So, why is it when I talk to cops, I get red in the face, and sweat?

I broke a thousand hearts

So, I went out to lunch with my friend, T, today. Afterward, we went shopping at Thiesen's (basically a farm supply store), I had heard they had some good Harley boots there, and I want some that I can walk around in as well as ride in. I bought these. They were $90.00 + tax.
These are the ones I already had. I can't walk in them because they have 2 inch heels on them (I'm not one of those people who have mastered walking in heels and not having their feet hurt in 10 min).
I'm very happy with my purchase, only it sucks cause I can't buy anything for me for about 6 months now.

And to get y'all in a warmer mood: Summertime by Kenny Chesney
Summertime is finally here
That old ball park man is back in gear
Out on 49, man I can see the lights
School's out the nights roll in
Man, just like a long lost friend
You ain't seen in a while
You can't help but smile.

And it's two bare feet on the dashboard
Young love in an old Ford
Cheap Shades, a tattoo and a Yoo-Hoo, bottle on the floorboard
Perfect song on the radio
Sing along because it's one we know
It's a smile
It's a kiss
It's a sip of wine
It's summertime
Sweet summertime.

Temperature says '93
Down at the deposit and guarantee
But that swimming hole
It's nice and cold
BikINI bottoms underneath
But the boys heart still skip a beat
When them girls shimmy off
Them old cut-offs

And it's two bare feet on the dashboard
Young love in an old Ford
Cheap Shades, a tattoo and a Yoo-Hoo, bottle on the floorboard
Perfect song on the radio
Sing along because it's one we know
It's a smile
It's a kiss
It's a sip of wine
It's summertime
Sweet summertime.

The more things change
The more they stay the same
Don't matter how old you are
When you know what I'm talking 'bout
Yeah baby, when you got.

Two bare feet on the dashboard
Young love in an old Ford
Cheap Shades, a tattoo and a Yoo-Hoo, bottle rollin on the floorboard
Perfect song on the radio
Sing along because it's one we know
It's a smile
It's a kiss
It's a sip of wine
It's summertime
Sweet summertime....

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

Are we wise?

So, Dr. Phil happens to be on my TV right now, I don't understand why anyone would go on this show. If you really wanted to torture me, put me on this show. No, I don't watch it, I was watching a VHS, and it got to the end and rewound itself and popped out, and my VCR is on CBS, which is where Dr. Phil is. Anyways, it's where a chick feels she is in the wrong body, she feels she should be a guy. I will not pass judgement on people that feel this way. If they feel wrong in their bodies, I believe they should be able to do whatever they can to feel good (hell I feel wrong in my body sometimes, and I've tried to feel more confident, I'm a long way off from liking me). Anyways, Dr. Phil wants to know if she's really sure about this decision, and her mother feels it's her fault because she spoiled her as a child. And that she's angry with her dad who left at a young age. Her aunt (I think) says that she needs to let Jesus into her heart and that Jesus will change her heart and her desires. That is bullshit. That's mostly the reason I don't like religious people, now I know not everyone is like that, but the population that is, is what ruins it for everyone. And the girl (I believe her name was Bernadette) kept saying that her God was in her heart and that he accepted her, GOOD FOR HER!!!
There was a CSI episode once that kind of tackled this issue. An m-to-f (male to female) was murdered by her dr's husband because he (the dr) was doing botched operations. I don't understand why people have problems with gays, and transexuals and all the people that feel wrong in their bodies.

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

Here ya go

So, Goddess wanted to see some of my artwork. I picked some of the better photos I have on my computer.
This is a 9-card mural, I had to use a whole piece of paper (well, 9 cards to fit in the sleeve page) to create one mural. I titled this Chaos.
These two are from a scavenger hunt (in which I was given a list of things to look for and then use on the cards). Here I found and used a leaf, and a pen image,
Here, is the altered book I created for Karli. I glued the pages together, cut holes in them and then decorated according to my theme of Make a Wish

Monday, January 15, 2007

I was so ashamed of what I'd done

Yep, there it is. These are 2 pics of the snow, and the driveway I had to shovel.
So, I got it all done. Nicely (sarcasm) we live on a corner, so I had two public sidewalks, four private sidewalks, the whole driveway, and the porch. It only took me like 5 or so hours. I know I took some breaks and as I was getting to the end, it took so damn long.
Ooo, and you can see dream guy's house and truck across the way. See that house across the street in the upper left hand corner, with a red truck in the driveway? That's where he lives. So close, and yet so far away.

stupid snow

I'm complaining today, so deal with it or fuck off.
So, we got maybe 4inches of snow yesterday, and I have to shovel today. My parents are making me do the whole damn property. Nicely, we live on a corner, so I have 2 public sidewalks, all our sidewalks, and the newly paved driveway. I was just out there for 45 min, and i have a tiny path on the sidewalks, and the end of the driveway done. I'm beyond sore, plus that cut in my hand doesn't make it any easier. I came in for a break because it felt like I was gonna pass out, and you can't sit outside, cause you freeze. I'm so pissed at my parents, god forbid they help out.
I understand that mom won't cause she's having a tube shoved down her throat for dr's to look at her lungs, but what's dad's reason? That he shoveled the inch on Sat, yeah sure. Even if I shoveled Sat, I'd still be shoveling today.
Unfortunately, I'm so tired, I can't use my anger as a force to shovel the snow. Anyone wanna come help?

Sunday, January 14, 2007

To tell you the truth I've been with her myself

So, I was thinking about one of my cop buddies (the one you think is good-looking, Goddess) today, because I sliced myself open doing art. A little background first.
Four years ago on Feb 14th, I was starting the Citizen's Police Academy (CPA) and a senior in high school. Through the CPA I met most of the officers I know today. Personally I love knowing who protects my streets. One of them, S (guy I mentioned above), I rode with the Sat after graduation from the CPA, and I developed a deeper friendship with him than the others. Part of that would be because I mentioned that I emailed the chief and chatted with him, so S gave me his email, the other part would be cause I mentioned I loved motorcycles, but had never gone on a motorcycle ride. So, in June or July of that year, I got my first motorcycle ride, on the back of his bike, if any of you haven't been on a ride, it's one of the most exhilerating (sp?) things to go on. The wind rushing through your hair, and past you, it just makes you feel so free (but I would recommend a helmet, we went on back county roads, and sad to say, I had my eyes shut, cause the wind bothered them soo much). On that ride, he showed me his new Dodge truck, and of course where he lived (happened to be near me), because of this, I would see him in the neighborhood frequently. My freshman year of college, I still delivered newspapers as one of my jobs, and he worked nights, so I would see him coming back from the gym and we used to talk. One of my happiest memories would be leaning in his truck window barefoot on the blacktop street talking to him. But enough reminiscing.
As his part-time job he drives an ambulance. This would be the reason I was thinking about him today. The other day when I was talking to him, he said I always seemed to have some kind of ailment. Now, I happen to be one of those persons who doesn't complain if they're in pain or somethings wrong (cause I've gone to the dr's office too many times and wasted my afternoons just to have them tell me they didn't know what was wrong and if it got worse to go to the ER), so many of my friends never hear me complain about anything. Well, the reason I tell him about it is cause he drives an ambulance (and maybe somewhere in there I want some sympathy), so I like to know if he thinks anything is wrong, beyond the normal. I guess he just doesn't get that, I think it's just cause he doesn't wanna deal with that when he's not at his job. So, I'll try to refrain from complaining to him anymore. But sometimes you want someone to complain to.
Back to me slicing myself open. That was a stupid mistake. Most of y'all know, I'm an artist, some of you have seen my work, and think I'm pretty good. Well, I was working on a project that I started years ago (I found the main piece in a box when I was cleaning last month). So, I was trying to get a background for it. Well, a year or so ago I received some free samples of that fake wood flooring (ya know the kind that just snaps together), so I was thinking about using that as a background, but I decided I liked the size but not the fake wood, so I was taking the laminate wood design off, and of course it can't all come off in a big sheet, so I was gradually taking it off by sliding the blade of a mini (thank god it was a mini) pocket knife under it. Well, stupide me, I had my left hand in front of the blade (yes, I know, you should always have your hands behind the blade, because of these kind of accidents), and my right hand pushed a little too hard sending the knife nicely into my hand. Thankfully the blade only went 1/4 inch in the skin. So, now it hurts when I press my hand on something, cause it's about where the pointer finger meets the hand, little bit lower, but still nicely enough in the way when I hold something, or put my hand down to press on something. GO ME! Yeah, that kinda put that project on hold (for about 5 min while I waited for the bleeding to let up), then I got the rest of the fake wood off and nicely scraped up my knuckles. Now I don't know what I want for a background. If I ever get this project done, I'll take a pic and post it for y'all to see, then you can decide if you think I'm a good artist or not. Art is hazardous.

Saturday, January 13, 2007

I thought love was only true in fairy tales

So I work both Men's and Women's games today. And it's fucking cold, I believe it was about 14 degrees, but with the wind felt like 7 or 8. Can you guess how many idiots (most of them students) that came up to the door in little less than a sweatshirt? They never learn. Thankfully, not many of them complained about the cold, I probably would have blown up at them. I knew it was cold, I was standing there freezing (cause we don't get more than a light windbreaker to wear) and I was at the north doors (where the wind was coming from), I couldn't feel my fingers or toes by the time the game started at 1 (we opened the doors at noon), and I had gloves on. That sucked. Today, my boss said it was going to be the biggest game of the year, so every seat was reserved (the students usually have a student section where they can sit wherever). I only had 3 people come to me with the regular student ticket, one was a guy and his girlfriend, who just wanted to be an ass cause he had his tickets, the other was oblivious that he needed a different ticket.
And some idiot decided to come to the game drunk. Apparently someone noticed him in the Men's bathroom and he was arrested by the city cops. Now here's the weird thing, he was given the choice between going home, or being arrested, and he choose to be arrested. Idiot. It's gotta really suck, because he had to be transported to the county jail instead of staying in the city. Now, I don't know how much bail is for public intox, but I'm pretty sure it's not too cheap, and (I'm not positive on this either) it's the weekend, so he's probably there til Monday morning. I don't understand stupid people. But on the plus side, the officers were waiting at my door with the guy, so I got to oogle them while they were waiting for a car to pick him up.
So, I went grocery shopping after I got done at the game, and then came home. Well my dad calls me to ask how my snow shoveling was going. I'm kinda pissed at him right now. I froze at work, I froze walking home from work, and even though I just had some lasagna I'm STILL FUCKING COLD. I have to go back to the women's game tonight, if you think I'm gonna go out in the cold and shovel snow, just to get all sweaty and go back to the game all sweaty you're nuts.
Goddess has already gotten an earful on this subject, so I thought I'd share some of it with you all. Again I'm bummed about being single. It started last night, when I was bummed about not having a pillow, and that led me to thinking about Patch, cause he used to "let" me use his chest as a pillow. Then this morning, I woke up at about 5:30, I couldn't stick my music on, because my alarm was set to go off at 6:15, so I just kinda dozed. Well I started dreaming about dream guy. So then I woke up to real life, where I can't have dream guy and am very single. And I had a comment from Patch on my MSN site, and that got me bummed because he said he was gonna write about his cross country trip. Now I may or may not have said this before but, Patch keeps telling me he's gonna visit me. The last time I talked to him, he told me next time he went on a trip he'd come visit me. Well, I talked to him once after that and he said he was in some state, but didn't say at all that he was coming to visit me. And then in this comment, he said he was still working on it. Now, I really do like him (don't know if it's more) but I am so sick of that promise. Course he knows, all he has to say is "I'm gonna come meet you some time" and my heart will melt and we'll chat again. I can't do that. That's why I stopped talking to him before, and he says that (more or less as one of the first things) in this comment, and I couldn't talk to him. I miss him dreadfully, but I've also gotten used to broken promises from guys, and I know I shouldn't be used to that, I shouldn't give people that edge. I'm so sick of having guys promise me stuff and never deliver. I was hoping that nothing would happen to make me more bummed about being single. Thankfully, nothing has YET.

Build it anyway

I believe this is one of those songs I need to add to the soundtrack of my life:
Ladies Love Country Boys by Trace Adkins

(This is for all you sophisticated ladies out there)

She grew up in the city in a little subdivision,
Her daddy wore a tie, Momma never fried a chicken,
Ballet, Straight A's, Most likely to succeed

They bought her a car after graduation
Sent her down south for some higher education
Put her on the fast track to a law degree

Now she's comin home to visit
holdin the hand
Of a wild-eyed boy
with a farmer's tan

And shes ridin in the middle of his pickup truck
Blarin Charlie Daniels yellin, "Turn it up!"
They raised her up a lady
but there's one thing they couldn't avoid
Ladies love country boys

(You know its true)

Yeah, you know momma's and daddy's want better for their daughters
Hope they'll settle down with a doctor or a lawyer
In their uptown, ball gown, hand-me-down royalty

They never understand
why their princess falls
For some camouflage britches
and a southern drawl

Or why she's ridin in the middle of a pickup truck
Blarin Hank Jr. yellin, "Turn it up!"
They raised her up a lady
but there's one thing they couldn't avoid
Ladies love country boys

(ooh, get country with it)

You can train 'em
You can try to teach 'em right from wrong
But it's still gonna turn 'em on

Whey they go ridin int eh middle of a pickup truck
Blarin Lynyrd Skynyrd yellin, "TURN IT UP!"
You can raise her up a lady
but there's one thing you jus can't avoid
Ladies love country boys

They love us country boys
Ooooooh yeah
It's that country thing you know

Yeah, so I love this soung. Fits me to a T.

Friday, January 12, 2007

This is how you remind me

I miss the guy that lets me use his chest as a pillow. I miss the guy that cuddles with me when I need a cuddle. I miss our 'chats'. I miss the phone calls. I miss my Patch.

Thursday, January 11, 2007

Their worst day, our every day

Oh shit, so I was watching Armed and Famous tonight. It's just so wrong. I really hope this show is not how things are actually done in Muncie, IN, and I hope they got paid a giant amount of money to have the show there.
No way is the training in the same classroom as their roll call. Last I checked there are state training facilities and they're not that close to cities. Plus, the cadet classes are usually more than five. I love it how at the beginning LaToya Jackson said she has always wanted to do two things: work at McDonald's and be a cop. Later when they're doing traffic stops, Erik Estrada was saying how he has so much of an advantage he has over the others cause he played a cop, but when he's supposed to give a ticket, he makes the "suspect" get out of the car, get down on his knees and put his hands on his head FOR A TICKET. And the Osbourne kid was the best shot when they were doing gun training. Out of the 12 shots fired (the first time) 11 of LaToya's shots weren't even on the target. I wonder how much practicing she had to do to qualify.
And on their first day, they were doing stuff on their stops already. I thought (I could be wrong) the first few weeks the trainees were out with their FTO's they watched, and then later they did stuff.
One of Estrada's stops was to go and do inventory after a SWAT raid, and he says "crack cocaine, obviously" No cop actually says that, they always say it looks like cocaine, but we're gonna test it. None of the cars had cages. And I'm very amused no one was arrested with Osborne's domestic violence call, (once again, I could be wrong) I thought all states had some kind of law where one person had to be arrested. When LaToya and her FTO go to a restaurant, she asked for a tablecloth and finger bowls.
OH shit, Latoya ran away from a cat. No cop would do that, you get over it and you do your damn job. She's sitting in the cop car with the doors locked, and her partner says I need to get some information out of here. And the guy from jackass gets a call about a shoplifter, and proceeds to follow the chick through the store, trying to convince her he's the real cops. You don't do that, you tell them something twice and then you make them obey. The wrestler chick pretends to run after a suspect, and doesn't jump in to help her partner when the guy fights. I noticed there's always a 3rd officer following them around, that never happens.
I could sit here amd complain, but no matter what I say it's so much worse. This doesn't happen in real life. Bad thing, I will continue to watch it and make fun of it. OMG. If y'all want a laugh, watch this show, but don't expect it to be real.

A week's work of Valium

So, I was downstairs today keeping my parents' TV company, and I was watching HGTV (one of the channels I could spend all day watching) and in one of the shows they were painting wooden furniture. I just don't understand why people go and paint wooden furniture, that is already treated and beautiful as it is, I can understand if it's unfinished and ugly. Guess that's what happens when you grow up in a Victorian house where your parents are always looking for the gorgeous wood floors, moldings and doors. Silly me. I guess I'm not that much a fan of paint either, I like the raw feel of stuff, some wood is so beautiful when it's stripped, sanded and then varnished.

I was also watching a few of those dating shows on MTV (cause it was there), it's always fun to see what kind of people would get on those shows. I always say I would never go on one of those shows, but sometimes I catch myself thinking about what I would set up for them. I mean wouldn't it be great to have a whole bunch of guys show up looking to have fun with me? I can only hope that will happen.
Oh, and in one of them, they were sitting next to a gorgeous swimming pool, what I would have given to jump into that screen and go swimming. Sigh

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

Does China Palace deliver down here?

So, I was working the game tonight, and I ran into one of my favorite teachers in high school. So, we were talking a bit, and I told her I was done with college, then we parted ways. But it really hurt, cause she never asked me what I got my degree in.
And then before I left, I ran into one of the cops I'm crushing on. But of course he's in a relationship. How come all the guys I like are in relationships (dating or married)? Sometimes I wish I could just tell them how much I like them, but I would never ruin their existing relationships. Why do I always fall for the guys that are taken?

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

It's not like that 3rd eye's really going anywhere

So, I was watching a movie today on lifetime (yeah, I know) called A Face To Die For starring Yasmine Bleeth. It's about this chick with a scarred face that gets set up by her boyfriend and sent to jail for a robbery. While in jail she gets into a fight and a plastic surgeon fixes her face and she gets out and starts her own fashion design company. Anyways, she develops this great self-confidence.
I want that. I want to be able to go out on a limb and know everything will work out. I want the rich things. I want to work with my hands, to create my art. I want that happy life with the rich expensive things, the great guy, the own business, and the happiness.

Sunday, January 07, 2007

So I hope that lady in her minivan

OK, so I'm a little slow with my cop watching (again), so this first batch is from December 30th.
Gwinnett County, GA: Officer Kevin Berardinelli, Corporal J.P. Surowiec
Las Vegas, NV: Officer George Godfrey
Chattanooga, TN: Officer Chris Sims, Sgt Barry Burns, Officer Zach Fuller
Officer Derrick Pendergrass (surprise there, nope)

And here's this weeks:
Wichita, KS: Officer Baldy with the mustache, Young officer holding second suspect,
Brevard County, : Deputy, Justin Gould
Hamilton County, OH: Second Deputy they kept doing close-ups on
So, at the end of the 3rd segment, when they cute deputy was talking to the guy in the back of the cop car, a couple of bikes went past, what I would have given for the cameraman to follow the bikes and ditch the cop. Sigh
And the hottie for this week is: FTO Brad Bellflower

Saturday, January 06, 2007

It's official

It didn't feel really real on graduation day. But today, this is the one piece of mail I received, it feels real now
Fittingly my CD player decided to play "That's Something To Be Proud Of"

Friday, January 05, 2007

saw the eagle fly through a clear blue sky

So, I was watching one of those Most Shocking Videos shows on Spike TV today (thankfully it wasn't narrated by whats-his-face, it sounded more like the guy from Unsolved Mysteries). Anyway, I was curious why they had to show the video six damn times. Like we didn't see it the first or second time, and think of how many more videos they could put on the thing if they didn't show it six times.
I was also thinking as I was watching a cop chase, it was shot from a helicopter and when the ass finally bailed out of his car, there were no cop cars around him, but he still drove like an ass. It reminded me of a post I read over on Jason's blog about how cities are trying to cut back on wrecks created by crooks by telling the cops they can't chase the crooks anymore. Just cause the cops terminate the chase, doesn't mean the ass is gonna stop driving like a maniac. And, if they know that the cops aren't gonna chase them, it's probably likely that they will be more apt to run. Sorry, had to rant.

Thursday, January 04, 2007

But a lot was not enough

Who can explain this to me? Why is it when I go into Yahoo! chat rooms I'm bombarded with the people who want to talk about sex? Is there no one that knows how to talk intelligently?

I thought I'd play with a couple of them today and see if they could pass as decent human beings, they don't.
One guy asked if I was happy cause I was alone. I told him for all he knew I could be taking a break from a threesome, to which he asked how old. So I told him, 12 and 13, and he asked if they were my brother and sister. What a sicko.
One of the other guys asked how old I was, so to throw him off I told him 12. He asked to see my pic, we all know what they mean with that, so I told him it was illegal to download child porn, and he said that wasn't what he was looking for. I told him, I knew what he wanted and that my dad had gotten me ready at age 5. So he said, can't you just share your pic. I told him he had to give me a min so I could log his IP, his sn and send them to the PD. He's still trying to chat with me.
And how about the person who tried to get me to view their webcam without even an IM.
Is there no intelligent life out there?

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

Sha la la la

UGH! So I went out with my friends today and we went to the mall (not very exciting but I wanted to get some calendars), I got me a day-by-day Corvette and Mustang calendar, and a monthly OCC wall calendar. I was pissed because I wanted to get the OCC, a wolves, and a fighter jet wall calendar, but the kiosk in the middle of the mall wasn't going to take my gift card for Borders (even though it was the same damn company). So, now I need another wall calendar (to replace my 2 cop wall calendars from last year). Unfortunately I couldn't find a nice one in Borders. I realized how little there is to do here. We ran into a couple friends at the mall, went out to lunch with them and had a nice time. That I wouldn't mind doing again.
I went to visit my friend who runs an eyeglasses shop (to drop off a prescription, so I didn't lose it) and I told him he should get a bunch of his biker buddies and take me on a ride to celebrate my graduation. He said we'd do it some Thurs night when it got warm. Thurs because that's when Porky's and Trophies (two biker bars in DM) have their bike nights. Now, I'm really itching for a ride. Damn.
So now, I'm sitting here listening to some Bruce Springsteen (just need some nice loud music, and I listened to Hicktown and Amarillo Sky incessantly this morning, though I won't be skipping them if they come up in my shuffle). I'm so yearning for a drink and a ride.
And can someone tell me where the last 2 hrs went? I got home about 2 from hanging out with my friends, and now it's 4 I don't get it.

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

You're out on the street looking good

This is really cool, found it in my email group.
One hundred years ago. Here are some of the U.S. Statistics for the Year 1906! :
The average life expectancy in the U.S. was 47 years.
Only 14 percent of the homes in the U.S. had a bathtub.
Only 8 percent of the homes had a telephone.
A three-minute call from Denver to New York City cost eleven dollars.
There were only 8,000 cars in the U.S., and only 144 miles of paved roads.
The maximum speed limit in most cities was 10 mph.
Alabama, Mississippi, Iowa, and Tennessee were each more heavily populated than California.
With a mere 1.4 million people, California was only the 21st most populous state in the Union.
The tallest structure in the world was the Eiffel Tower!
The average wage in the U.S. was 22 cents per hour.
The average U.S. worker made between $200 and $400 per year.
A competent accountant could expect to earn $2000 per year, a dentist $2,500 per year, a veterinarian between $1,500 and $4,000 per year and a mechanical engineer about $5,000 per year.
More than 95 percent of all births in the U.S. took place at HOME.
Ninety percent of all U.S. doctors had NO COLLEGE EDUCATION! Instead, they attended so-called medical schools, many of which were condemned in the press AND the government as "substandard."
Sugar cost four cents a pound. Eggs were fourteen cents a dozen. Coffee was fifteen cents a pound.
Most women only washed their hair once a month, and used borax or egg yolks for shampoo.
Canada passed a law that prohibited poor people from entering into their country for any reason.
Five leading causes of death in the U.S. were:
1. Pneumonia and influenza
2. Tuberculosis
3. Diarrhea
4. Heart disease
5. Stroke
The American flag had 45 stars.
Arizona, Oklahoma , New Mexico , Hawaii , and Alaska hadn't been admitted to the Union yet.
The population of Las Vegas, Nevada , was only 30!!!!
Crossword puzzles, canned beer, and ice tea hadn't been invented yet.
There was no Mother's Day or Father's Day.
Two out of every 10 U.S. adults couldn't read or write.
Only 6 percent of all Americans had graduated from high school.
Eighteen percent of households in the U.S. had at least one full-time servant or domestic help.
There were about 230 reported murders in the ENTIRE U.S.A.!
I wonder what these stats will be in another 100 years.

We can't keep the field

Not as easy as you might think...
1. Yourself? Wendy
2. Your boyfriend/girlfriend/spouse? None
3. Your hair? straight
4. Your mother? Sharon
5. Your father? Don
6. Your Favorite Item: (I don't know, and if I did, I know I couldn't do it in one word)
7. Your dream last night: sensational
8. Your Favorite drink: Vault
9. The room you are in: livingroom
12. Your Fears: unknown
13. What do you want to be in 10 years? happy
14. Who you hung out with last night: me
15. What You're Not? normal
16. Muffins? chocolate
17: One of Your Wish List Items: job
18. Time: 13:42
19. Last thing you did? blog
20. What You Are Wearing? jeans
21. Your Favorite Weather: rainy
22. Your Favorite Book: law
23. The last thing you ate: Dove
24. Your Life: interesting
25. Your Mood: bored
26. Your friends: priceless
27. What are you thinking about right now? chilling
28. What are you doing at this moment? typing
30. Your summer: hot
31. Your relationship status? single
32. What is on your tv? FieldofDreams
33. When is the last time you laughed? now
34. last time you cried? yesterday
35. school? graduated

LAYER ONE: Spell your name with bands/artists
W - Who, The
E - Eminem
N - Nitty Gritty Dirt Band
D - Def Leppard
Y - Yoakam, Dwight

-- full Name: W J W (Sorry kids, not disclosing that)
-- Birthdate: July 2, 1983
-- Nickname: weinkermeyer, weink, wendell
-- Current Location: living room
-- Eye Color: hazel
-- Righty or Lefty: righty
-- Zodiac Sign: Cancer

-- The shoes you wore today: none yet, will be wearing tennis shoes later
-- Your weaknesses: flames, motorcycles, cops, military
-- Your fears: the unknown
-- Your perfect pizza: mushroom stuffed crust pizza
-- Goal you'd like to achieve: To have a job (very soon), be happy

-- Your best physical feature: that I do not know
-- Your bedtime: whenever I get tired
-- Most missed memory? knowing the future was planned out for me

LAYER FIVE:-- Pepsi or Coke: Coke
-- McDonald's or Burger King: Burger King
-- Adidas or Nike: Doesn't matter
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Neither
-- Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate
-- Cappuccino or coffee: Neither

-- Curse: When people piss me off
-- Sing: When I'm alone to good music
-- Take a shower everyday: Every other
-- Have a crush: DUH! Dream Guy, Jason Aldean
-- Do you think you've been in love?: Yeah
-- Want to go to college: Been there, graduated, now what?
-- Like(d) high school: It was tolerable, I liked how I knew what was coming next and I loved my art classes
-- Want to get married: Someday
-- Think you're a health freak: Not even close
-- Get along with your parents: As well as is able, mom and I clash a lot
-- Play an instrument: No

LAYER SEVEN: In the past month;
-- Drank alcohol: Yes
-- Done a drug: No
-- Gone to the mall: Yes
-- Kissed someone: No
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: No
-- Eaten Sushi: No
-- Been on stage: Yeah, for graduation
-- Gone skating: No
-- Made homemade cookies: No
-- Gone Skinny dipping: No
-- Stolen anything: No

-- Played a game that required removal of clothing: No
-- If so, was it mixed company: -- No
-- Been called a tease: Maybe?
-- Been beaten up: Yes, when I was in 4th grade an older guy did ASSHOLE

--Age you hope to be married: 30?
--Numbers of Children: None
-- Describe your Dream Wedding: I'm thinking small ceremony with close friends and relatives, planning on wearing my prom dress (it's periwinkle, but I think it's perfect) beyond that I haven't really figured it out
--What country would you most like to visit?: Ireland

LAYER TEN: In the opposite sex
--Best eye color?: I don't think it matters, but I like blue
--Best hair color?: Once again, doesn't matter
--Short hair or long hair?: Inbetween, I want something to run my fingers through
--Height: Taller than 5'8, I wanna be able to look up at him, but not too tall
--Best weight: Slim to a little heavy, not too heavy

--Number of people I could trust with my life: A few
--Number of CDs that I own: 69 + 50 or so that I've made

I was watching Field of Dreams today, some say its the movie that put Iowa on the map. And I love this quote by Terance Mann (played by James Earl Jones), he says it towards the end of the movie when Ray Kinsella (played by Kevin Costner) is pushed to sell the farm by Mark (played by Timothy Busfield):
"Ray, people will come Ray. They'll come to Iowa for reasons they can't even fathom. They'll turn up your driveway not knowing for sure why they're doing it. They'll arrive at your door as innocent as children, longing for the past. Of course, we won't mind if you look around, you'll say. It's only $20 per person. They'll pass over the money without even thinking about it: for it is money they have and peace they lack. And they'll walk out to the bleachers; sit in shirtsleeves on a perfect afternoon. They'll find they have reserved seats somewhere along one of the baselines, where they sat when they were children and cheered their heroes. And they'll watch the game and it'll be as if they dipped themselves in magic waters. The memories will be so thick they'll have to brush them away from their faces. People will come Ray. The one constant through all the years, Ray, has been baseball. America has rolled by like an army of steamrollers. It has been erased like a blackboard, rebuilt and erased again. But baseball has marked the time. This field, this game: it's a part of our past, Ray. It reminds of us of all that once was good and it could be again. Oh... people will come Ray. People will most definitely come."

So, I found this in my email today. It teaches us a valuable lesson: Don't get into an 8 foot helium balloon.
HIGH ON LIFE: "Take a deep breath..."
(3 June 2006, Florida) Two more candidates have thrown themselves into the running for a Darwin Award. The feet of Jason and Sara, both 21, were found protruding from a deflated, huge helium advertising balloon. Jason was a college student, and Sara attended community college, but apparently their education had glossed over the importance of oxygen. When one breathes helium, the lack of oxygen in the bloodstream causes a rapid loss of consciousness. Some euthanasia experts advocate the use of helium to painlessly end one's life. The pair pulled down the 8' balloon, and climbed inside. Their last words consisted of high-pitched, incoherent giggling as they slowly passed out and passed into the hereafter. Sheriff's deputies said the two were not victims of foul play. No drugs or alcohol were found. The medical examiner reported that helium inhalation was a significant factor in their deaths. A family member said "Sara was mischievous, to be honest. She liked fun and it cost her."

Monday, January 01, 2007

Try to remind myself that I was happy here

So, here I am doing the exact same thing I do every night. Sitting in front of the TV with my computer on my lap. Some day I'm thinking I should just go out walking and keep walking til I get somewhere exciting. Just keep going, my guess no one would realize I was gone for a couple days at least.
New start for a new year? That's a load of crock. I started out doing the same shit I always do. I have a bad habit that I try to get rid of, but I always turn back to it. When life gets hard, or I'm just depressed, I go back to the one thing that makes me feel better. So much for breaking old habits. But, you know what they say, old habits die hard. Ain't that the truth.
So just to see what all the hype is about I got me a myspace account. I have a few friends who have them, so I figured this was just another way to keep in touch with them.
Am I the only one who misses summer?